Obama's Youtube Arrogance Just Became A Nightmare

November 03 2008

Obama's Youtube Arrogance Just Became A Nightmare

November 03 2008

Letter to Obama

November 03 2008
*/Dear Mr.Obama,/*
> *It is **August 30, 2008**.  My name is Mark Gregg.  I am a 50 something
> conservative white male.  I have followed your campaign closely,
> including the speeches you and others made at the democratic national
> convention.  I am respectfully providing you with seven simple (probably
> shallow) reasons why I could never vote for you.  I believe my opinion
> is shared by many people.  While there may not be quite enough to
> prevent you from becoming president of this nation, I do think there is
> an awakening to the fact that you are not a (the) messiah that the media
> and liberal Hollywood entertainers are trying to portray you. *
> *1. I hear your mantra of change, change, change.  Yet, you picked a
> long term, liberal, **Washington insider** (Joe Biden) to be your
> running mate.  This is NOT change.  It is a move that hypocritically
> refutes the very thing you supposedly stand for.  Your campaign then
> slammed McCain for picking Sarah Palin, apparently, because she is NOT
> a **Washington** insider.  She is a maverick who cleaned-up **Alaska**'s
> quagmire of political scandals.  Which way is it, Barack?  Is it okay
> for you to pick a Washington**** insider under the mantra of 'change',
> but not okay for John McCain to pick a smart, aggressive, reformer? *
> *   *
> *2. You have the single most liberal voting record in the senate.  This
> indicates to me and others like me that you may very well be an angry
> black man seeking to punish our country for sins of a different
> generation.  I am not racist. I have some biases just like you and every
> other human alive.  Unlike the democrat party who claims to be for the
> minority (but their record heavily refutes this), I will give any person
> who truly needs help, help.  I married a 'minority' girl 35 years ago
> (she is Hispanic) and have seen the evils of prejudice first hand. 
> However, I have also seen my wife and my children and others in her
> family throw off the veil of self imposed prejudicial bondage and move
> ahead.  They love our country and do not view themselves any different
> than I view myself as a citizen of this country. Your lovely wife so
> disappointed people like me during this campaign when she stated it was
> the first time she had ever been proud of this country.  She apparently
> never noticed the massive aid we give dozens of other countries.  She
> apparently never noticed the sacrifice of literally millions of veterans
> who helped make this country a free nation and helped liberate other
> nations from brutal dictators such as Adolf Hitler.  She apparently does
> not remember that she attended ivy league universities with scholarship
> money that ultimately (at least some of it) was paid for by our taxes. 
> This troubles me more than you know.  She is an angry black woman who
> appears to not like her country very much.  I don't want her
> representing me to the rest of the world. *
> *     *
> *3. You claim Christianity but apparently do not realize that the Bible
> teaches that he who does not work, does not eat.  The Bible does not say
> or even suggest that he who CANNOT work, should not eat.  Yet, your
> liberal policies reward people who are capable of working, but choose to
> not do so.  This bothers me. I know that if you are elected our taxes
> will spiral upwards.  You should heed the words of Winston Churchill
> 'We contend that for a nation to try to tax itself into prosperity is
> like a man standing in a bucket and trying to lift himself up by the
> handle.'  If I like anything about you, it is your campaign promise to
> balance the federal budget.  Unfortunately, we have heard this a huge
> number of times from a number of different politicians and we realize
> that when you energize the very liberal Nancy Pelosi, Robert Byrd, Ted
> Kennedy, etc, etc, and the many other democrats like them, a balanced
> budget will never, ever happen on your watch. 
>    *
> *4. During your question and answer session with Rick Warren of
> Saddleback Church your answer concerning the question of where does life
> begin, stunned me:  'Above your pay grade?'  Does this mean when
> something bad happens as President of this nation that you are going to
> look at your salary to determine if you can respond?  I am sorry, but
> this was the most serious gaffe I have seen you make.  Frankly, it shows
> me that you are pandering in the most obvious manner.  You will choose
> your words not from your heart, but from an agenda that I believe is
> still hidden from the American people. *
> *   *
> *5. If anything stands out about you it is probably your appeasement
> mentality.  In this era of rampant, radical Islamic extremism and with
> the latest stunt pulled by the re-energized Russian government, I am not
> sure appeasement is healthy.  I again revert to the words of Winston
> Churchill:  'An appeaser is one who feeds a crocodile, hoping it will
> eat him last.' *
> *   *
> *6. You and your party tacitly believe that a 13 or 14 year old girl
> must have the parents approval to have the school nurse provide them
> with a Tylenol when they have a headache at school.  Yet, this same girl
> can become pregnant and the school can skirt her off to a clinic and
> abort the child in her body without the parents knowing or being
> notified.  This scares the h--- out of me.  You have two little girls. 
> Would you be upset if this happened to them and you were not informed? 
> Then why do you stand for this?  It makes no sense to me. *
> *   *
> *7. My seventh and final point (for now) is your supporters.  I have
> watched the **Hollywood entertainers** that support you, systematically
> embrace Hugo Chavez of **Venezuela** and others like him.  I see the
> continuous smut and garbage produced by **Hollywood**, the very people
> who promote you the most vigorously.  It is not a positive point to me
> and others like me to see these over-paid, bizarre, poor examples of
> human existence fawn over you and push you and your liberal agenda as
> hard as they do. The way I see it. When the devil is for you, we should
> question whether or not we should be against you.  *
> *   *
> *In closing, I just want you to know that you scare me.  I cannot vote
> for you.  It is not because of your skin color.  It is because these
> items I've listed and many, many others like them.  Do not claim that my
> dislike for you is race based.  It is because I do not feel you have the
> best interests of this nation at heart. *
> *   *
> *Respectfully, *
> *   *
> *   *
> *Mark A. Gregg*


November 03 2008
So who do you think should run our country?

you know

November 02 2008

I think that it is great that everyone is  voicing their opinion on the upcoming election.  Freedom of Speech yea? What i think is kinda dumb is that everyone is arguing over everything.  Sure some things are said to try to hurt someone else.... thats politics.  But no need get on everyones case.  I'm guessing we are all on the same side so why are we arguing about the small details?  I mean its not like over half of us can vote any way. (not saying that its a bad thing to still care about our countries future)

Idk i might just sound like some uneducated Hawaii kid... but i thought i should just share that with everyone

Boy sent home from school for wearing a Jesus custome

November 01 2008

 Hey guys,

What do you think? 

Eighth-Grade Boy Sent Home From School for Jesus Christ Halloween Costume

Saturday, November 01, 2008

PARAMUS, N.J. —  Dressing up as Jesus Christ for Halloween turned out to be a problem for a northern New Jersey boy.

Alex Woinski, an eighth-grader at West Brook Middle School in Paramus, was sent home from school on Friday because of his costume.

Alex, who has shoulder-length brown hair, wore a white robe, a red sash, sandals, a fake beard and a crown of thorns.

His mother says Alex was told he could keep the costume on if he removed the beard and crown of thorns, but he declined.

Superintendent James Montesano says the district doesn't want students wearing costumes that could be distracting.

Alex's mother is Catholic, and his father is Jewish.

He recently celebrated his Bar Mitzvah and is studying Bible scripture, according to his mom.


The First Wedding Dance

November 01 2008

heres where i am.

November 01 2008

ALRIGHT. so all this talk about america.... people don't know what they are talking about, there are those who agree strongly with obama, and those who disagree strongly.
all id like to say on this matter is that should we let a man who cant find his birth certificate and who has years missing out of his biography become our president? should we allow a man who might be muslim president over us? and if he is , and follows the teachings will kill us all.  
 and if he becomes president i figure ive got 7 years to live, and i will live like that. & if im wrong find what have i lost? we should live like that anyways. anyways, im creating a bucketlist, so far theres 28 things, and i did one of them thursday....

 (i gave blood. i saved 3 lives, and was .87 percent of all the blood that was given. i was right on the dot for weight you had to be.I cried during the whole thing, and held my best friend stevens hand til they made him leave. but IT wasnt that bad, i'd say the worst part has been the following days, i ve dropped 4 lbs, & been so dizzy & tired but yea, I did it.)
 anyways,  I pray God has mercy on America, and the rebellion we so earnestly display. I pray that we as christians, take up our cross daily, that we lose our lives to gain it, that maybe we dont lose our selves, whats the point of gaining the world and loosing ourselves? (luke 9:23-26) .

Barrack Obama is a Muslim...?

October 31 2008

"John McCain has not talked about my Muslim faith....well what I mean is he has not talked about me being a Muslim."

Senator Obama stated during an interview that John McCain has not talked about his Muslim faith.  So he is obviously a Muslim. I mean his father was a member of one of the most radical Muslim groups in Kenya going through and preforming genocide on every village they came to. His step father was Muslim as well. So he must be a Muslim. How dare you "Christian's" say that. Let me say this first. I in no way support Senator Obama for president, but look at yourself. How dare you judge a man who you don't know. If you are a Christian then shouldn't you fogive someone for making a mistake? Which Barrack Obama obivously did during an interveiw. But not even that how dare you with out even haveing met the man you are ready to testify that he is not Christian like he says he is. Oh that is right, his father was a Muslim so he must be. My father was an alcoholic. Does that make me one? NO. You people who say it does must believe in Predestination. "Well his father is an alcoholic and his mother was too...nope he is not going to heaven." How dare you. Take a step back and think. Besides does it really matter if he is a Muslim? NO. It doesn't make a bit of difference. If the American people elect him then the American people elect him. 

Re: Obama Admits Muslim Faithth

October 31 2008

Dear Mr.. Obamaa

October 31 2008


October 29 2008
to the ASIAN PERSUASION love em

I feel.

October 25 2008

I feel like I'm pouring myself into nothing.

I feel like I'm trying for a relationship that's never going to work.

I feel like I'm gaurding everything I say because I don't want another fight.

I feel like I'm a bad person for this.

I feel like you don't try.
I feel like you just have me around to have me... like I'm just there?

I feel like I'm in this by myself.



Straight up

im jealous.

October 24 2008
laugh at me if you like, but i totally fell head over heels in like with matt manes from cloud chase, and idk. just a little girl crush on a drummer in a band.alot of you know how i just could barely even talk when looking at him, and how i thought he just did it for me. i didnt think of pursuing that, or anything, but i found his myspace... and well. i saw his gf.  i cant help but feel so JEALOUS! & cant help but compare myself to his gorgeous amazing girlfriend. why do we do that? why do i do that?
im feeling pretty down right now. :(

Pastor John david Manning

October 22 2008

the passing face.....

October 20 2008

what if...we had never met.  an idea that for the past years, i have pushed out of my head.  a thought i never wanted to think about.  but what if.  if i had never met you......so we "fast forward."  i don't know you.  you don't know me.  on a busy street, we're both walking...opposite directions.  we lock eyes...what runs through my head?  what through yours?  would you have fallen in love with me....would i have returned the favor?  who would you be in that life?  would i be different?  knowing who we both are now...what would i have thought of you?  would you be just like you are...or different....or would you even cross my mind a second time.  maybe you would have been just another face on a busy street...just trying to get to wherever your life was taking you.  without me....so then...in that regard...would you then be the one chasing?  or maybe we would both move on.  just a second on a street.  say we meet again.  would you talk to me...not knowing anything?  how would i respond...i wonder.

i can tell you what i would be.  i would be just another person.  i would see you, really see you.  i would be much different, this i know for a fact.  you changed my life, how could i be the same without you?  i would listen, just as i always have.  you would cross my mind...every day, constantly.  your face would have still stood out in my mind from millions.  i wouldn't move on...i would walk on...but not move on.  i would tell you, when we met again, that it wouldn't be the last time.  at least i would hope.  but if you were the same person you are now....would it be?

One of my bravest moments...

October 20 2008
So last night I was with my really cool cousins Jessica, Tyler, and Jessica's husband Jamie. Ok so Jessica and Jamie are like the coolest ever. We were looking for a place to eat in the mall last night and we decided on Macaroni Grill so we went in and were joking around then I started flirting with the waitress and she was like "You are really funny in a weird way" And I was like "Hey can I buy you dessert or something?"...well she said no...but that is not the point of the story...infact this night just began because at that time there were 5 in a way that I could only describe as beatuiful ladies. So I was watching them trying to talk Tyler into going over there to talk to them with me. He continues to say no well about 10 min. go by and 4 more girls come up. I had given up on Tyler coming with me and had gone back to eating my salad. So I look up to talk to Jessica nd Jamie and the girls are walking in the resturant and sat down on the other side of the wall from us...I go "looking for the restroom" and take a tour of the whole place to see where they are and one makes eye contact with me...any ways I make my way back to my seat and have my waitress take a note to them that says "you are very beautiful. p.s. write back." (in crayon) So my waitress takes it and moments later we hear a lot of laughter and my waitress asks me how old I am. I tell her 15 and she does the whole no you are not...seriously? she told them that I was 20. And she is all like they re going to come over here. I was like Tyler lets go...the waitress thinks I am trying to leave but I was trying to get tyler to go talk to the beautiful ladies with me. He doesn't and I get up and go over to their table. I offer to buy them dessert and ask if I may join them. They graciously accept. So we sat there joking around and everything.......................................oh yeah sorry. I guess you want to hear the end if you actually read this far. well the end? for you? just kinda ends like this. I leave the resturant.


October 18 2008
alright. i have a new favorite.... peanut butter & chicken sandwich! oh my.... it was soo good!


October 17 2008

so basically having my family here is the bomb.  i love it more than most can understand...

well idk if any of you knew but my hair was pretty dang long and i just cut it.... it was kind of depressing but now its all good 

i think i kinda like it

well tomorrow we are going horseback riding then surfing like right

after so thats gonna be fun 



all i mean to say

October 16 2008

little did we know,little to you can i show.
much of you i miss,too.but not sure of what we had was true.
dont you  get it? do you really understand,
 all id ever wanted is your hand.not sure how it became so more,to the point where we both just stood halfway out the door.
holdin on tighter but not holding stronger -it was bound to end so terribly,truth be told it might be awhile before i even see it to be incredibly.
slippin' right through each other fingers there was not much much we didnt ruin. not sure i can go back to that finishing us up totally- getting the final "do in".
at least not yet,im scared of it being what we had and having it like that again i bet.
i dont want that, i dont want something i dont need , i dont just want you to have your way with me, and me pretending its under love , and just letting it be.
if it were ever to be us -as me & you,im not sure it could  be now & i wish it could be true.
if im worth it i might just make you wait,
& if not i'd still make you experience "have" but do not take.

baby... all i meant to say is maybe.


October 16 2008

so i've experienced something this week that has been really wierd for me...painful...but still strange.  it was definitely a learning experience.  you can give trust to people who haven't earned it and don't deserve it, but the same thing will happen every time.  they will take your words and turn them into something they aren't and if you aren't careful, it will turn you into something you aren't.  you'll want revenge.  but i realized that no matter how much said person hurt me or made me angry...i couldn't deliver rightful punishment.  sure, i could ruin their life...but it wouldn't be my responsibility.  of course there's a part of me that thinks they should get what they deserve, but i can't do squat about it...so i let it go.  that's really hard to do...especially for me, being as stubborn and headstrong as i am.  i know none of you know really what's going on...and i don't really plan on telling you because it's partially my fault.  (another thing that's hard for me to admit.)  so...just know i learned something...and i haven't posted a thought in a while so i thought i'd catch ya up!  :) have a wonderful life.

(p.s.....i made mid-state choir.  that's a good thing :] lol)

Do you?

October 15 2008

Do you only get one shot?

Cause I have had plenty.

Do you only get 15 minutes of fame?

Where are mine?

Do you only have 1 true friend?

Still figuring that one out.

Do you only have one true love?

Still looking for that one.

Do you only make the same mistake once?

Oops. Guess not.

Do you keep the promises that you make?

My word is my life.

Do you love me when you say you do?

I do.  

"kaelynns a liar"

October 15 2008

Since there's a group of you who believe so

call me out on what I've lied on!

Do it! I dare you!





...Cause I've been nothing but honest, and it breaks my heart.

hot 'n cold

October 14 2008
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my best friend besides erin & Brett- steven (sorry i havent spoke of him before) says this song reminds him of me. he thinks its crazy weird i have 2 different names- 3 different personalities- and 6,000 moods!  so this is for my amazin' asain steven.

so sorry it has a word at the beginning :(

Song of the Week. "Return to Sender"

October 10 2008
Well I am going to Hawaii tomorrow so I thought I would put an Elvis song up. Yeah I know this song has nothing to do with Hawaii but I like this song and well that is just about it. So I will see you guys in a few weeks, unless you are tyler...then I will see you tomorrow. "Return to Sender" by Elivis Presley.

A long time coming

October 08 2008

This presidential election is a pain in the ass.  This is not, however, just because of the empty rhetoric of both sides' candidates, but also because of the idiocy of those who are going to be voting for someone.  Here are a few snippets of conversations I've heard in the last few days:


"Palin's from Alaska.  What's she going to be able to do for me?"

"Obama's a Muslim.  He goes to church to cover it up."

"McCain's so old, he'll die right when he takes office.  Then we'll be stuck with a Canadian."

"Biden is a good candidate."


So, to cut through the crap, I try to watch the debate(s).  They're horrible!


McCain: "This is what I believe and this makes me right.  Senator Obama disagrees, and that makes him wrong."

Obama: "We-we-we-well, what Senator McCain is failing to mention is that he's WRONG!  WRONG WRONG WRONG!  And I want to change things."

Mediator: "Senator Obama, can you answer the question?"

Obama: "Well, Senator McCain, you know...he's a senator, and...well...he's wrong.  You know he voted with the Republicans 90% of the time?  I only voted with Republicans 5% of the time, making me a true, uh, bipartisan."

McCain: "What Senator Obama is trying to say is that I'm a maverick, and he wants to promise empty change.  What we need is a couple of mavericks, like my Vice President and me, to go in there and show Washington what mavericks are really like.  They obviously didn't notice me, but damn!  Palin's hot, so they'll notice her."

Obama: (grins) "My esteemed colleague is a moron because he's not a lawyer.  I'm better than him.  Nah nah nah nah nah nah!" (sticks out tongue)

McCain: "Be careful, Senator Obama.  The last nigger that stuck his tongue out at me didn't survive the Hanoi Hilton.  Let's just say that the gooks were scared of me for a while after that little incident.  All due respect to gooks, of course."


October 04 2008

ha love. its a joke..why cant we realiZe that..we are kids.

love..what is it?

where does it come from?

who is my love ment for?

What does it feel like?


yes we all have these questions.

BUT we dont need the answers


at least not yet.

...you should know...

October 03 2008

You'll never know how much pain you cause me.

That is, unless I tell you.

So here I go.

You cause me more pain that you can imagine.


You'll never know how much I love you.

That is, unless I tell you.

So here I go.

I love you more than you'll ever realize.


You'll never understand how it feels.

That is, unless I tell you.

So here I go.

It feels worse than anything I've ever felt.


But most of all you'll never know what I think.

That is, unless I tell you.

So here I go...

I think that if you would open up your eyes a little more, you would see what has been in front of you for years.  I think if you let yourself, you could understand.  You would know all these things.  You would know how I feel, you would know how it hurts, and most of all, you would know how much I love you.  Maybe you do.  If you would only let yourself, you could feel it too.  But I can't try anymore.  I have nothing left to give to you.  I want you to know that you changed my life...and you still are.  I can't stand to be without you.  I need you to hear me.

Song of the Week. "Fall For You."

October 02 2008
Well this is a lot different than a lot of my past songs of the weeks but I really like this song for some reason. I mean it is pretty good. Or maybe it is just from hearing it so much at our float site that I just think that I really like it when underneath I hate it. I mean I am not sure so tell me what you think. This is Secondhand Seranade with "Fall For You."

When the though of you flashes through my head.

October 02 2008

When the thoughts of it are flashing through my head. 

When I find no confort in the confort of my bed.

When all that's left is me standing here in the pouring down rain.

When all that I feel is the constant and fearfully persistant pain. I will walk around with my eyes open but I have never been able to see.

I have walked around for far too long just wishing I could find the real me.  


If only you could see me now.

With tears in my eyes and sweat on my brow. 

What to do when you come to the end and your head is down.

What to do when you have come too far to turn around. 

I want to love you tonight.

I want to be only and forever right.

When the thoughts of you are flashing through my head. 

Get Out AND Vote

September 29 2008

Branson, MO (PRWEB) September 24, 2008 -- The song "Get Out and Vote." on the new CD/DVD "Don't Make Me Come Down There" by The Fischers addresses head-on such controversial issues as abortion, gay marriage, illegal immigration, slack politicians, and left versus right, all in just under 3 minutes of explosive, heart-pumping music.

ischer believes, "In this election of 2008, it is absolutely inexcusable for any true believer not to vote. At this crucial time in our nation's history, with so much at stake, we must get out and vote for Godly values, the values that America was founded on. "We need to stand up and be counted. We need to rally one another. Anyone considering not voting should remember that 'The only thing necessary for the triumph of evil is that good men do nothing." If we don't "get out and vote, the Devil will."

Fischer, 61, who served 24 years overseas in mission work, is appalled at the horrible, spiritual condition to which America has sunk in the past half-century. He quotes Psalm 9:17: "The wicked shall be turned into hell and all the nations that forget God."

Fischer emphasizes, "It's the 'forget God' part of which we in America are particularly guilty. We are a nation founded on Biblical principles by Christians--people with a strong faith in God and a respect for His Word. He is what made us the greatest, most powerful, most respected nation on earth. Now that we have turned our back on Him, we should not be surprised when showing him our backside that He gives us all a good, swift kick in the butt."

The new CD cover identifies God in the clouds shaking His finger and saying, "Don't Make Me Come Down There." That is also the title of the project's title. Fischer says, "I believe God has got a right to be angry. After all, we've thrown Him out of our schools, made it illegal for our children to pray in school, taught them that God did not create the heavens and the earth, as the Bible teaches, but that there was a 'Big Bang' and millions of years of 'evil-ution." To date, 43-million blessings of God have been aborted, while men and women across our country embrace and support this sacrifice of human life by calling it "choice."

Deuteronomy 30:19 (NIV) "This day I call heaven and earth as witnesses against you that I have set before you life and death, blessings and curses. Now choose life, so that you and your children may live." Fischer says, "Could it be any clearer? America, this is an open-book test; God is revealing to you the right answer--Choose Life. America, It's time to wake up and turn around!"

The Fischers are a family of Christian entertainers, Mike, Karyn, Sam (11) and Reuben (7). Performing together since 2003, they currently reside in Branson, Missouri.

The CD "Don't Make Me Come Down There" contains six "issue-oriented" songs, including, "Stone-Cold Dead," a gutsy, in-your-face declaration on the right to bear arms. It challenges, "Ain't no way they're gettin' my guns unless I'm stone-cold dead."


So you can listen to the song.

September 28 2008
"Gunslinger" by Avenged Sevenfold

Song of the Week. "Gunslinger"

September 27 2008
So this is like only my second song of the week by Avenged Sevenfold. They are one of my favorite bands I know that a lot of there songs are not...well...uhm. This song is actually really great though. The video is clips of Jarhead. I am not a fan of that movie though. I love the clips from this though. You should definately check out some of Avenged Sevenfold's stuff though they are really good at what they do. Well I hope that you enjoy Avenged Sevenfold's "Gunslinger"


September 26 2008

everything that i really want i now have.
anything i could want... its just within my reach.
   helping, serving, trying, loving... its really been the better thing for me.
 finally living! been dying to live like that.
  i can say yes and i can say no, an' i dont have to explain a thing.
with taking initiative , sometimes, no one has your back. i keep walking ANYWAYS.
i dont need your approval.
 i've learned I've gotta be 100% even when there's only 25.
remained confident, at time when im not sure, now they want what i have.
i understand the girls, and they talk to me, the key is divine friendship, and Respect.
 i tell them what is, got them a prayer going up, i cant save them, just plant the seed.
 no need for pity, dont we all want something to blame!
              the pain of him has gone away. faded night turned to day.
 the only place it hurts is right at the scar he left me.
im okay,  i have forgotten so much. been forgiven & ive forgiven.
 had God's healing rain.
 now its different . i am happy though slightly contemplative, and highly audacious.
 and the thing is... it never was me! i never did it. i let God step in,
and he gave me a victory in a battle, an' i know there's still a war.
 this is what i came here for.

Andy's gang

September 25 2008

This was one of our favorite shows.


Happy Birthday

September 24 2008


 Wishing you the happiest birthday ever! 

you think, but you dont know.

September 23 2008

you think you know me, but you dont

you think you can help me, but you cant

you think its gonna be okay, but your wrong

you think your better then me, but your not


September 21 2008

i haven't ever realized until the past 2 weeks what regret really feels like.  Not regretting doing something, but not doing it.  Not saying what you really mean, while you have the time.  Because before you know it, time is taken away.  Not taking chances while you have the chance...not really feeling while you have the opportunity.  Not loving while love is staring you in the face.  Then it gets taken away, snatched rather, and you have no more time.  You'll never get the chance again.  Never get the chance to tell someone how much they mean to you or what an impact they've made in your life.  How much you loved them, or how you never wanted to let them go.  You never say anything.  They tell you time and again how much you mean to them, that they never want to let you go, and you remain silent.  Knowing in your heart you want to say the same, because you feel the same, but you're afraid of being hurt.  You don't have fun because you figure you have all the time in the world to ride that one rollercoaster...to watch that one show...to have that one kiss.  But the truth is, you don't know.  You hope.  Another chance will never be given, so you must take it.  Say what you want while you still have the time.  Even though they are not dead, they are gone.  Go back...find them, tell them what you really feel for them.  Hurry, before it's too late.  Make them listen, understand....

EVEN THOUGH I DON'T.  Why...how?  Those are my only questions now.  I love you.  I want you to know that.  But you never will.


September 21 2008

im so tired of this, there s lots of desicions, so many choices, so much confusion. i dont know what i want .. anymore.
no more of this. ive had enough.

RIP Caleb!

September 20 2008

time is to short.

life can be taken in a matter of moments without worrning.

we can get a call in 2seconds that would change our whole world.

we laugh it up now but for a moment can we take in that one of our own has been taken. can we stop our busy lives that we are so wrapped up in and open our eyes to see that a life has been taken, a heart has stopped beating, air no longer flows through their body. can we realiZe that we will never look into his eyes again, that we will never hear his laugh, we will never see that bright and vibrant smile, we will never see him again (until heaven that is).for now the body as we know it is laying under the cold ground and his soul is in heaven.

lets all take a moment and realiZe we must be nicer people for we never know when someone will pass away. always say something kind to someone for what if when they walked away from you or hung up the phone and something happened and they were killed. how would you live with yourself if you had just said something mean, or hurting to them. think about it, life is short, not just for you but for everyone around you!

all this to say. LOVE people say LOVING things b/c we never know whats going to happen

21 days

September 20 2008

oh my cousin i have missed you so


Ten Red Flags?

September 19 2008

 Think about this!


Friday, September 19, 2008

 Ten Dating Red Flags


When determining if you should let things get serious, remember: actions speak louder than words. With that being said, here are ten dating red flags. If you see any of these, do yourself a favor and reconsider if it's worth it for you.


1. You are not on the VIP list for breaking news

Were you the last to learn about this person's job promotion or newborn niece or nephew? Once things are serious, you should be among the first to know about exciting news, or bad news.


2. They avoid meeting your family or friends

If they are shying away from meeting your friends/family consistently, then there are problems. Even if they are very shy, they should want to meet those who are important to you.



3. They don't make any sacrifices

Healthy relationships don't require bending over backwards all the time, but a certain amount of sacrifice is necessary in a selfless union. When two of my friends first started dating one another, she demanded that he go to Farm Aid for her birthday, which was also the opening NFL football Sunday. While all the guys gathered to watch the games, he was sweltering on some field attending Farm Aid -- an event he never would have gone to if she hadn't have invited him. Now that's sacrifice.

4. They can't fit in your future

I admit it. When I meet girls, I envision future moments I may some day share with them. Most of my scenarios are her with me and my family at a Thanksgiving holiday or at a summer crabfeast. If I'm really into her, I usually relish the thought. If not, I kinda cringe.


5. They are too controlling

It's scary but I've seen many relationships where guys forbid girls to hang out with certain friends, or wear certain clothes. Major problem if someone is controlling you and not allowing you to be who you want to be within a relationship.


6. The "what are we" conversation fails miserably

Almost every relationship hits that crossroads where you both decide if it's worth taking the plunge into being exclusive and calling each other boyfriend/girlfriend. If they are confused and surprised that you're ready to get serious, the timing is not right, and you should try to figure out how long you want to wait around until they are ready.



7. They talk about plans that don't involve you

My sister has major wanderlust. She's always talking about heading off to Chicago or living in London for a year. She often talks about these things with no regard for the fact that she has a boyfriend at the time. If you find that someone is making plans or talking about far off places without inviting you along for the ride, don't let yourself get too into this person.

8. Your friends or family don't like them

Remember that your friends and family know you best. Don't take their thoughts with a grain of salt. It's one thing if a person or two don't get along with your significant other, but if a lot of them are saying you should reconsider, then do it. Unfortunately, we often find out about how much our friends hated that person after this person is gone.


9. They violated your trust

Whether it's cheating or a little lie that they got caught in, it will be hard to regain trust. Trust is something we don't give away easily, and once it's gone it's hard to get it back. We'll always be wondering about that lie, and doubt will creep in more and more as our minds fixate on that lie. Too often, people take trust for granted and once they lose it they never get it back.


10. You practice "unbalanced dating"

Are you always seeing his friends or doing things that he wants to do? Do you just let him pick the restaurants and events? Or is it the other way around? Relationships are fun when you are both able to contribute. If you're not taking turns creating fun times together, it will most likely fizzle out.


What would you add to the list? Ever been a victim of any of these red flags?

Song of the Week. "Human"

September 18 2008
This is one of my favorite songs. I absolutely love it...I really understand it now with in the last month or two. There are some awesome lyrics to this song. Human by Jon Mclauhlin.

with his heart, his voice, and his guitar!

September 18 2008

 The other day it was sang for me! i wont say much about the who, and where and why I'll just let you all ponder on it. ;)

i fell in love with the song "All I want is You" by Barry Louis Polisar & I honestly don't like the way he sings this song,

so i don't highly reccommend you listen to the song.

but i love the lyrics, enjoy them,

fall in love with the simplicity of it!


If I was a flower growing wild and free
All I'd want is you to be my sweet honey bee.
And if I was a tree growing tall and greeen
All I'd want is you to shade me and be my leaves.

If I was a flower growing wild and free
All I'd want is you to be my sweet honey bee.
And if I was a tree growing tall and greeen
All I'd want is you to shade me and be my leaves

All I want is you, will you be my bride
Take me by the hand and stand by my side
All I want is you, will you stay with me?
Hold me in your arms and sway me like the sea.

If you were a river in the mountains tall,
The rumble of your water would be my call.
If you were the winter, I know I'd be the snow
Just as long as you were with me, when the cold winds blow.

All I want is you, will you be my bride
Take me by the hand and stand by my side
All I want is you, will you stay with me?
Hold me in your arms and sway me like the sea.

If you were a wink, I'd be a nod
If you were a seed, well I'd be a pod.
If you were the floor, I'd wanna be the rug
And if you were a kiss, I know I'd be a hug

All I want is you, will you be my bride
Take me by the hand and stand by my side
All I want is you, will you stay with me?
Hold me in your arms and sway me like the sea.

If you were the wood, I'd be the fire.
If you were the love, I'd be the desire.
If you were a castle, I'd be your moat,
And if you were an ocean, I'd learn to float.

All I want is you, will you be my bride
Take me by the hand and stand by my side
All I want is you, will you stay with me?
Hold me in your arms and sway me like the sea.

Guys and Girls...

September 18 2008

GUYS. We seem not to care. Not completely apathetic. But we like who we like and if that is cool with you great but if not it doesn't matter. Or if we get into it all we do is hit each other a few times then we are friends for life...maybe not life but ya know? We don't whisper or giggle, we don't wanna be completely tied down but we hate being free. And when it comes down to it we always have that one girl in our mind before we go to bed.



I am going to put a quote in from my great Uncle Haggard. He is always insightful, and this...this is the only thing I know about girls, he says this. "Austin, man, girls are trouble. They have no idea what they want...NO No take that back. They know excatly what they want man, they want your soul." You guys can remark on what you think should go under the "GIRL" section. 


September 15 2008

What can I do?

September 15 2008

What can I do if my heart won't let go of you?

What if you told me there's still a chance to make this work?

What if I told you I didn't wanna start over?

But I would've lied.

What if I wanted to move on?

But I know it's impossoble.

What if I'm happy? What if I love him? What if I really want to be with him?

Would you let me? Would you still love me even if I pretended not to love you back?

I can't just give up who I am now and chase who I was?

Can I?

I loved you, I love you. 

When I'm with him I feel like I'm in a whole other world,

But when I'm with you... I'm free.



With all seriousness, I'm faced with a trial.

A really big one. And I'm so confused.

Thank you for helping me realize the truth.

September 15 2008

I will call you even when I have nothing to say.

I will miss you no matter where I am.

If I am in your arms I will miss not being there sooner.

All those times I forgot to call you back, I am sorry.

I tried to keep you out of my mind.

All those times you didn't call me back, I forgive.

It was no big deal.

"I love you, I've made up my mind." -Thank you Ray Charles.

I will stay awake for hours to hear you speak over the phone.

I will walk a thousand miles just to be the one who is with you.

"I will give up every dream I ever had to make this one come true.

When I wake up, well I know I'm gonna be, I'm gonna be the man,

Who wakes up next to you." -Thanks Proclaimers.

I would love to be that guy that is on the news.

I would love to be that guy who has all of the awards on his chest.

I would love to be that guy who has the general star on his shoulder.

I would love to be the strongest and best in my feild.

But I would give it all away to be with you for a life time.

"I should know who I am by now, I walk the record stands somehow

thinkin' of winter, your name is the splinter inside of me, 

while I wait..."-Thank you Joshua Radin.

I have decided to walk a lot  of different paths.

Along the way I have realized a lot of things.

I have realized that when you are walking everywhere you get tired. I have realized that when you take so many paths you get lost.

I have realized now more than ever I want to walk a new path.

No, I do not want to change a thing that I have done in the past.

Even though I was tired and lost I still know where you are in my heart.

"Every long lost dream lead me to where you are, Others who broke my heart they were like Northern Stars pointing me on my way into your loving arms, this much I know is true". -Thank you Rascal Flatts.

I have been up in the middle of the night to see the stars shine.

I have been awake at dawn to see the sun rise.

I have had that phone in my hand praying for the courage to tell you.

"I woke up early this morning 'round 4 a.m. with the moon shining bright as headlights on the interstate. Pulled the covers over my head and tried to catch some sleep. Thoughts of you kept keeping me awake." -Thanks Keith Urban. 

I am done with all of this confusion. 

It has gotton me no where but confused.


Now this stands true. 

I love you, I've made up my mind.  


September 14 2008
its been so long since ive been on here and alot has changed. i guess the only thing that hasnt changed is that i work at kroger still. i so cant believe what all has happened since i was last on. my life is no longer the once filled with happiness and joy it once was. i find myself confused and lost most of the time now. i wish i could have done things differently. so many regrets


September 14 2008
something i put together

Detective Columbo with Obama

September 14 2008

Subject: Detective Columbo with Obama

Columbo still scratching his head?

Ah?Sorry to bother you Mr. Obama, Sir
> Excuse me Mr. Obama, I mean Senator Obama, sir. Um . . Know you are busy
> and important and stuff. I mean running for president is very important
> and . . . Ah . . . I hate to bother you. I will only take a minute ok, sir?
> See, I have these missing pieces that are holding me up, and I was
> wondering sir, if you could take time out of your busy schedule and help
> me out. You know, no big deal, just some loose ends and things.
> Hey, you have a nice place here! The wife sees houses like this on TV
> all the time and says boy she wishes she had digs like this you know? Is
> that painting real? Really? Wow. I saw something like that in a museum
> once!
> Oh, sorry sir. I didn't mean to get off the track. So if you could just
> help me out a minute and give me some details, I will get right out of
> your way. I want to close this case and maybe take the wife to Coney
> Island or something. Ever been to Coney Island ? No, I didn't think so. .
> Well, listen, anyways, I can't seem to get some information I need to
> wrap this up. These things seem to either be 'locked' or 'not
> available'. I'm sure it's just some oversight or glitch or something, so
> if you could you tell me where these things are . . . I . . . I . . .
> Have them written down here somewhere . . . Oh wait. Sorry about the
> smears. It was raining out. I'll just read it to you.
> Could you help me please find these things, sir?
> 1. Occidental College records -- Not released
> 2. Columbia College records -- Not released
> 3. Columbia Thesis paper -- 'not available'
> 4. Harvard College records -- Not released
> 5. Selective Service Registration -- Not released
> 6. Medical records -- Not released
> 7. Illinois State Senate schedule -- 'not available'
> 8. Law practice client list -- Not released
> 9. Certified Copy of original Birth certificate -- Not released
> 10. Embossed, signed paper Certification of Live Birth -- Not released
> 11. Harvard Law Review articles published -- None
> 12. University of Chicago scholarly articles -- None
> 13. Your Record of baptism-- Not released or 'not available'
> 14. Your Illinois State Senate records--'not available'
> Oh hey . Listen! I know you are busy! Is this too much for you now? I
> mean tell you what. I will come back tomorrow. Give you some time to get
> these things together, you know? I mean, I know you are busy, so I will
> just let myself out. I will be back tomorrow.
> 'Who wants to know these things?' asked Senator Obama.
> Columbo answered: THE PEOPLE


September 12 2008

stop laughing


that wasn't a joke.

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    There is prosperity of fewer verbal people who think Stumble Upon is for part-time sharers. And of course there is the big camp of people who think all social media, including blogging and social bookmarking, is a vast ravage of your possessions that you won't get anything back from. What's so a lot missed here is that, under different situation, the view of tackle as valuable and ineffective is right?

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    September 12 2008

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    I have been thinking about ways to make a passive income online and although I haven’t really tried and tested any of my ideas. 

    John and the American Flag

    September 11 2008

    Song of the Week. "Courtesy of the Red White and Blue"

    September 11 2008

    What happened to the American way? It used to be when we were attacked we hit back and we hit hard. When the Japanese hit us they hit with a few thousand small bombs. Well then the US didn't just get even. We dropped two bombs. Little Man and Fat Boy. People like to call them atom bombs but I call them the boot that Toby Keith was talking about. 7 years ago today. It was on a Tuesday. Do you remember? At school we had just got set in. Said the pledge, and we had just started our work. Less than an hour later we were attacked. I remember every male in my 3rd grade class said we should kill all of the people who did this. (except in a 3rd grade way of course). We listened to "God Bless the USA" over and over and over. Our principal's name was Dr. Tharpe, my teacher was Mrs. Call. We didn't understand much, just that we were attacked and many killed. 2,974 people, another 24 missing and presumed dead. Now tell me that, that 2,998 people is not something to get angry about. Tell those families that. Tell the men's families who have died in this war that. Tell their kids who never got to see them that. It won't go over too well. So while you are using your right that they protect by speaking out against the war, our president, or our military. Just remember the 1,315,237 people that have died in the past to protect you and earn freedom. This is Courtesy of the Red White and Blue by Toby Keith.

    *note should be listened to while shouting loudly in a county accent.  

    Baby Preacher

    September 10 2008


    September 10 2008
    (men's poem)

    I can't repeat the words I dare not say. 

    I want to love you but I don't know they way...

    Ha that rhymed.

    It is just I don't have the time...ed

    no no no.

    Why can't I say what is obviously true.  

    Do not ask what is wrong. Confront me.

    With us nothing ever is.  

    It never had to do with any of that.

    Hanzel is the name of my cat.

    It is not that I wanna be right, I just don't wanna be left.

    Dirty liberals.

    When will the scars from my fights be battle scars?  

    Mirrors are fake because they show the outside you.

    And no it has nothing to do with your shoe.

    Everyone is always saying life is short.

    Then why do you hold back so much?

    How much must I bleed to have bled?  

    Should you really live for the moment or the long term?

    My father would be proud of me? Don’t bring him into this.

    Just simply you and me.

    I think all of that mess is people on myspace trying to write love poems.

    Is it a love poem if it is about you, my love?

    Or is it a love poem because it is about love?

    I was once told by a person that whatever decision I made they would stand behind me.

    Now that I did what they wanted me to. Where did they go?

    He is like the crap on my boot, it doesn’t phase me.

    What to do when you have stalled your car,

    and no one has jumper cables.

    But aren't we all driving this car, called life man? -That 70's Show.

    I can take the hit but thinking about the bruise makes me flinch.

    Sis pacis , instruo pro bellum. 

    I will fight if you give me something worth fighting for.

    This is the story of a girl who cried a river and drowned the whole world.

    What about everything I am missing?

    What about everything I will miss?

    What about her?

    What happens then? 

    Where will you be in the end?

    Will you stand or bend?

    Kill me and I will rise to raise revenge.

    Offer me surrender and I will fight harder till you beg for it.

     Trying to find the perfect ending.

    Either way it will end with one of 3 ways so why not all three?




    September 10 2008
    (The poem of men)

    I can't repeat the words I dare not say. 

    I want to love you but I don't know they way...

    Ha that rhymed.

    It is just I don't have the time...ed

    no no no.

    Why can't I say what is obviously true.  

    Do not ask what is wrong. Confront me.

    With us nothing ever is.  

    It never had to do with any of that.

    Hanzel is the name of my cat.

    It is not that I wanna be right, I just don't wanna be left.

    Dirty liberals.

    When will the scars from my fights be battle scars?  

    Mirrors are fake because they show the outside you.

    And no it has nothing to do with your shoe.

    Everyone is always saying life is short.

    Then why do you hold back so much?

    How much must I bleed to have bled?  

    Should you really live for the moment or the long term?

    I think all of that mess is people on myspace trying to write love poems.

    Is it a love poem if it is about you, my love?

    Or is it a love poem because it is about love?

    I was once told by a person that whatever decision I made they would stand behind me.

    Now that I did what they wanted me to where do I go?

    What to do when you have stalled your car,

    and no one has jumper cables.

    But aren't we all driving this car, called life man? -That 70's Show.

    I can take the hit but thinking about the bruise makes me flinch.

    Sis pacis , instruo pro bellum. 

    I will fight if you give me something worth fighting for.

    This is the story of a girl who cried a river and drowned the whole world.

    What about everything I am missing?

    What about everything I will miss?

    What about her?

    What happens then? 

    Where will you be in the end?

    Will you stand or bend?

    Kill me and I will rise to raise revenge.

    Offer me surrender and I will fight harder till you beg for it.


    Trying to find the perfect ending.

    Either way it will end with one of 3 ways so why not all three?




    please read this.

    September 09 2008
    okay so i've been feeling like i cant do much for the word seeing i'm only 15 and not out of high school but i found Feed Just One on myspace and thought i'm sure i can get my friends to help me out to feed just one! all we have to do is buy a t-shirt or anything from their web sit and i know you guys spend up to $30 on clothes at A.E. or some high dollar place and you do the world no good, if you buy a $18 t-shirt from Feed Just One you can feed a starving child 100 meals.

    Here is some info on Feed Just One. PLEASE just read this. i think we can do a lot of amaZing things...but sometimes we just have to start small. So yeah PLEASE read this and send it to your friends even if you cant buy anything.

    Feed Just One is simply myself, Dallas Harris, and my friends doing everything we possibly can to make a difference in the world.

    We don't have any corporate sponsors or any investors to fund our efforts. Everything we have done so far has been funded out of our own pockets and we have yet to make a single cent of profit for ourselves.

    We want to let you know all of this because we want you to know that we are very much like you. We work, we go to school, we don't have a lot of money and we want to change the world.

    We want to let you know that you can truly make a difference for as little as 4 cents a day or by simply buying one of our t-shirts.

    Please seriously consider being a part of our little mission to change the world.
    We can't do it without you!

    its super freakin easy....

    You can provide a meal to a starving child through Feed Just One for only 4 cents. We cover the shipping cost to get Feed My Starving Children's food to the people who need it. One meal a day costs just 28 cents a week, $1.20 a month or $14.60 a year.

    by buying 1 t-shirt you will provide 100 meals and the publicity will bring another person to buy a t-shirt meaning another 100 meals...you get where i'm going with this!

    i'm sending messages to all my friends hoping maybe just one of them will take the small step of buying a cool t-shirt to feed hungry children!
    Feed Just One's myspace is

    http://www. myspace. com/useyourcents

    sad note

    September 09 2008

    well today i found out that my baby cousin died.  He was only 17ish weeks old.  Through all of that his mother almost died as well.  They had a c or sea or see idk anyway that section thing where they take out the baby.  I got to see him.  He was the most beautiful person i have ever seen.  He could fit into the palm of my hand, and at the same time the day before he had a heartbeat, his fingers and toes were formed and you could also see what would be his nose, eyes, and mouth. 


    My parents asked me before i went to see him if i actually wanted to because his figure may be a little disturbing...

    but what i have realized is that he is the exact same as i am.  He has a heart and thats all that matters.  He has everything that he has now so he must have a creator.  

    How can anyone say that the baby i saw today... even though he might have been 5 inches long.... not be a human being?

    makes me want to kick anyone in the face if they oppose me

    Sense & Sensibility

    September 08 2008

    I've always thought that there's something terribly wrong with the way human beings are evolving. Then came this forwarded email in my Inbox. Hm. Hmm. Hmmm....

    Subject: FW: Obituary - The Passing away of Mr Common Sense

    Today, we mourn the passing of a beloved old friend, Common Sense, who has been with us for many years. No one knows for sure how old he was, since his birth records were long ago lost in bureaucratic red tape.

    He will be remembered as having cultivated such valuable lessons as: Knowing when to come in out of the rain; Why the early bird gets the worm; Life isn't always fair; and Maybe it was my fault.

    Common Sense lived by simple, sound financial policies (don't spend more than you can earn) and reliable strategies (adults, not children, are in charge).

    His health began to deteriorate rapidly when well-intentioned but overbearing regulations were set in place. Reports of a 6 -year-old boy charged with sexual harassment for kissing a classmate; teens suspended from school for using mouthwash after lunch; and a teacher fired for reprimanding an unruly student, only worsened his condition.

    Common Sense lost ground when parents attacked teachers for doing the job that they themselves had failed to do in disciplining their unruly children. It declined even further when schools were required to get
    parental consent to administer Tylenol, sun lotion or a band-aid to a student; but could not inform parents when a student became pregnant and wanted to have an abortion.

    Common Sense lost the will to live as the Ten Commandments became contraband; churches became businesses; and criminals received better treatment than their victims. Common Sense took a beating when you couldn't defend yourself from a burglar in your own home and the burglar could sue
    you for assault.

    Common Sense finally gave up the will to live, after a woman failed to realize that a steaming cup of coffee was hot. She spilled a little in herlap, and was promptly awarded a huge set tlement.

    Common Sense was preceded in death by his parents , Truth and Trust; hiswife, Discretion; his daughter, Responsibility; and his son, Reason.

    He is survived by his three stepbrothers; I Know My Rights, Someone Else IsTo Blame, and I'm A Victim.

    Not many attended his funeral because so few realized he was gone.

    If you still remember him, pass this on. If not, join the majority and do nothing.


    September 07 2008

    Here's a great quote from a former Dean of Vanderbilt University: 


    "Today I am going to give you two examinations, one in trigonometry and one in honesty. I hope you will pass them both, but if you must fail one, let it be trigonometry, for there are many good men in this world today who cannot pass an examination in trigonometry, but there are no good men in the world who cannot pass an examination in honesty."




    September 06 2008

    well i had my first bowling match...

    i guess it might be news to some of you that im on the bowling team

    .... The team i am on is number one in Hawaii for like 4 years running 

    so needless to say we won..... by like 200 pins each game.  I bowled  a 146... not my best but whatevs it was my first match and i was nervous



    Song of the Week. "Angel"

    September 04 2008
    Hey so this is like a really good song. I mean the video is kinda out there but I really like Aerosmith and I love this song. Obviously it is called "Angel". It is kinda toned down and a tad bit pansey but I don't know what draws me to it. Oh well I hope you all enjoy "Angel" by Aerosmith

    I just wanna know...

    September 04 2008

    I've written all the letters. 

    I've screamed a thousand times.

    Neither is really better,

    Neither are really fine.


    I've begged to have you back.

    I want to see you again.

    but I am left with is this simple fact,

    I know I cannot win.


    I wrote all of the letters.

    I sealed them up to go.

    The sooner the better,

    but when they reach you, no one really knows.


    I can't do it. I can't continue. I was never really good. I just want to tell you how I feel be straight up genuine and real. I can't bring myself to put them in the mail box, though. I do not want to ruin this. Then again I really want to know: would things be different? would the miles change a thing? would you say the same to me? or would you just let me go?  




    ...there are no words to title this thought.

    September 04 2008
    so i have done something that i regret, but i wouldn't trade for anything.  i'm embarassed and confused...it still doesn't seem like it really happened.  i feel like i'm walking around in a dream, like right after i say something, it disappears.  why didn't i just stay there, in that moment, instead of pulling away?  maybe it wouldn't be so awkward like it is now....!.  why, if i saw it coming the whole time, did i not stop it???  and why if i really didn't want it, would i never trade it???  i feel almost...guilty?  like i did something bad.  but i didn't.  i did nothing wrong.  i feel so strange....and stupid...and more than anything, embarassed beyond words.  i can't even tell you how much of a loser i feel like right now.  i've got to tell someone.

    our hands

    September 04 2008

    Place your hands on mine

    It looks like Tarzan and Jane

    Place your hands on mine

    then my hands start to tremble

    Place your hands on mine

    I feel like the world just stopped

    Place your heart in my hands

    And I promise I'll be gentle

    Place your heart in my hands

    And I promise I won't break it

    Place your heart in my hands

    And it will be the best choice you ever made.

    We can be like Noah and Alley,

    with that Love that never died.

    We can be like Tarzan and Jane,

    two completely different people that made each other whole.

    We can be who ever we wanna be

    cause you're the only thing that makes this heart skip.

    Oh and just be real.

    September 03 2008

    If you must fight, then fight for only what is worth fighing for. 

    If you must whine, then whine only about what you are willing to change

    If you must lie, then lie only to your enemy. 

    If you must swing, then swing only at the one that deserves it.

    If you must lead, then lead only in the right direction. 

    If you must inspire, then inspire to do the right thing.

    If you must do the wrong thing, the do it in such a way that no one may question your motives.

    If you must drink, then drink, but know when enough is enough. If you must kill, then kill only what you have created.

    If you must survive, then survive and nothing more.


    And Love, if you must love, then in that love, love not to fight, and do not whine, never lie to her, only at those who oppose that love, lead never in the wrong direction, inspire a deep understanding of relationship, love to only do what is right, drink never in spite of that love, and never ever try to kill what you have created in love, let it survive.  



    Oh, and just be real.  


    helpful tip

    September 01 2008

    people that live in Hawaii do not live on the beach and do not go to the beach everyday.

    its like on the mainland 

    just because we have movie theaters doesnt mean you go to the movie theaters everyday


    so if anyone sees me and i am not SUPER DARK 

    you should know i go to HBA and they give us crapload of homework 

    therefor i cant go beach everyday


    uhm ya but i did go today and it was fricken sweet waves

    well yeah just thought i would let you guys know

    i smell bad

    September 01 2008
    So Sub Deb initiation last night wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. I'm just happy that I got through it with out getting sick. The smell was one of the worst parts - and seeing myself afterwords. First we had to sit in a kiddie pool and our partners poured gross stuff on us. Then we had to sack race and go through tires with some pretty nasty stuff in it. We had to crawl down the slip-and-slide. I don't even won't to know what was all on there because it got on my face. So gross. Then we had to climb over a hay bail and then jump into another kiddie pool and find a penny in a bunch of gross stuff. The first one to find it was the winner which was me - pretty much the only good thing about last night. After everyone had gone through, we all got in a line and sang the Little Teapot song and then we got stuff poured on our heads and had to rub it in. It wasn't reall that bad though compared to what other girls have had to go through over the years. We got it super easy. I'm just glad it's over and done with and now I'm officially in Sub Deb. yay!

    quite possibly Sarah Palin

    August 29 2008

    so i haven't dome to much research on her but McCain's choice for running mate: Sarah Palin was an awesome desicion in my opinion! Besides the fact she is a little inexperienced, she seems like she knows how to get things done. and well with McCain not being that great of a conservative, she is! She is strong, and very conservative. She is strongly against abortion and i think This will get the conservative votes we need! I think i could do a little research on this, but she seems to be family oriented( well, with 5 kids you have to be), and i like her. the only thing im seeing is that her husband owns a huge oil company, and that never works well with politics!

    what do you guys think of her?

    Where will you be?

    August 29 2008

    When injustice becomes law,

         Rebelion becomes duty.   


    This is one of the best quotes I have ever heard. I am not excatly sure who said it. I know many poeple did in many different ways. But my question to you is: "When the guns are drawn and sides are choosen where will you be?" Will you still be pretending it won't happen? Will you hide behind your family or faith? Orwill we stand together in the front. 

    Song of the Week. "Unwell"

    August 29 2008
    Ok so this song has kinda been playing over and over in my head. Like this has been my theme song for the last week. I really like it and I have been trying to take a step back and just kinda see where everything is so that I can see where I need to be. I hope that you enjoy my choice for song of the week "Unwell" by Matchbox Twenty.

    my friends are so awesome

    August 28 2008
    Just wanted to say I love my friends so much, and I have no idea what I would do without them. They keep me from going insane, and they always make me laugh till my stomach hurts or food/drink comes out of my mouth/nose.


    August 28 2008

    seems like no one uses this anymore. well just thought i would tell the people that do use it...i hope you have a nide DAY!smile..alot!! and love Jesus no matter what comes your way TOday. (why do i say 'today'?....i want to make it clear that you should probably live in TOday, not tomorrow, not in a week, not in a month...but in TOday!!)well love you and hope to speak with you soon.

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    August 28 2008

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    Butterfly Effect.

    August 26 2008

    It is said that a butterfly can flap its wings on one side of the world and change the pattern of the wind on the other.

    I often think about the effect of one of my decisions I have made in the past and wonder what if I had just said no, or what if I had said yes earlier. I can see the way so manythings would be different and I can see the futer obviously not THE FUTURE but like you know? It is almost scary to even think about that to think about giving yoruself that kind of power.   

    It was never about this.

    August 26 2008

    It was never about you or me

        we were fine.

    It was never about timing 

        it always seemed perfect. 

    It was never about who I was with

        I always prayed it was you.

    It was never about communication

        we could never seem to stop talking.

    It was never about God

        we were both in the right place.

    It was never about love

        we always seemed to have enough. 

    What was it?  What keeps me from running to you?

    It must be the distance

        even though you have always been in the same place in my heart     and soul. 

    no cake for me!

    August 25 2008
    Why is it that you have to repeat a test over and over until you pass it? & when you know how to pass but just don’t do it? Why are we given choices of cake when we are on a diet? & how come the cake is better when you can’t have it? These are all good questions that I don’t know the answer to….  I really wish I did. But does it matter? I mean the point is you can’t have the cake anyway! When you hold yourself from something you notice how often you haven’t deprived yourself! And with the test , I mean heck, why don’t we just pass it and get it over with. This is where I am right now. If in the end I lose anyway wouldn’t I rather lose doing the right thing than lose doing the wrong? Except losing with wrong there’s better short term benefits , but losing doing right in the end i get lasting benefits! Either way i lose to win.  But when there’s not a person who knows what you’re going through, not a person will stand up for you.. It’s hard to going on by yourself.

    …. And sometimes  you mess up! its easier to take the wrong way out. Mistakes happen. And I guess the only thing to do, is turn around. live & learn. oh if it were all that simple as its said. its hard, the truth.

     Nobody knows what I’m talking about anyway.  But maybe it helped you, serves to remind us all we aren’t alone, sometimes we have to lose to win. And as long as you made the right decision you’re gonna win!

    Song of the Week. "All the Small Things"

    August 25 2008
    I know I am relaly late getting this post up and I am really sorry, wel that is if anyone actully cares. This is a really old song I remember wehn I was like 7 years old and my brother would play this and be really sucky at air drumming. And it was like right when Halo came out and we would play that with his friends...well maybe I was older than 7. Or maybe I am crossing memories idk but there is Blink 182 with their song "All the Small Things"

    So you're really a Christian?

    August 22 2008

    ...I'm disaponted.

    I was asking my friend if the knew some people from another school.

    And I told them I knew them from Church Based beliefs.

    And they busted out laughing and said "You say they are Christian, really? There's nothng Christ like about them. Have you ever hung out with them outside of the church. They don't act one bit like a Christian. You should hear the things they talk about."

    I was discusted. How can you call yourself a Christain of you don't show a Christ like manor. Especially if you go out and preech the Gospel.

    I just feel like my efforts as being a Christian are going to be cut down if "Us Christians" aren't going to act like Christians.

    It's just really pathetic.

    Movie Quote

    August 22 2008

    Ok this is probably one of the best quotes I have ever heard from a movie. It is from "The Rock" staring Sean Connery and Nicalous Cage. Sean Connery was in the military special ops when he "commited a crime" he was moved to "the rock" other wise known as Alcatraze Island. Sean Connery was the only one to ever escape. He got away with it and was hiding from the FBI (Nicalous Cage). They found him when they needed to know how to gain access to the prison without being detected by the ex-military men who had taken it over and threatening to launch "nukes" into San Francisco. Well Nicalous Cage plays an FBI agent that is not well trained in the feild. Well, he was well "trained" but not good at doing things. Nicalous Cage says to Sean Connery I did my best!  When Sean Connery come back with this amazing line,

        "Your best? Your best? Losers always complain about their best. Winners go home and..." ...dance with the prom queen. 

    To all you whyners out there including me. Don't do it. It won't help anything.  


    August 21 2008
    Warrior - Nellya tight song.

    just wondering

    August 18 2008

    What do you believe in?




     do you think everything is more determined by us. Our own decisions...



    do you think there's any such thing as "meant to be"?


    August 16 2008


    its been super long since i have posted anything so uhm yeah here i am

    Nothing really is up.... just a lot of homework... thats gay but ill deal.  And now i am a bowler... but i suck so bad lol.  

    guess i see you guys later 

    Song of the Week. " Ballad of the Green Berets"

    August 15 2008
    OK this is what I want to do when I grow up. I want to write a letter to my wife that tells her that if anything happens to me to make sure that my son gets those wings on his chest, that patch on his shoulder. I could think of no higher honor to die for my country, "die for those oppressed." This is SSgt. Barry Sadler, one of the best "greet berets" there was. He led men in Vietnam when he took a boobie trap to the knee and was injured. I came back home healed up and  wrote this song. Once he was completely healed he was sent to Africa to do a lot of black ops operations. He was killed. Many missions are still classified to the public. Thanks for taking the time. I hope you enjoy this song as much as I do. Barry Sadler "Ballad of the Green Berets"

    Wow, 2 thoughts in one day.

    August 14 2008

    I've never understood why, when the ancient Greeks suspended everything they were doing(wars, harvest, construction, etc.) to celebrate the olympic games, we can't suspend "Dr. Phil" reruns for two weeks every four years so that we can see more of the games.


    The End


    August 13 2008

    hey hey.  here lately ive kinda been up and about with different things, just feel like being different with life, you now kicking the regular schedule and flipping things around. learning alot. havent been on here much, but i do stop and read everyone's blogs when you write something. loved kks last blog. :).

     oh, for everyone who knew about me running for treasurer of 10th grade class. i did win, and im very excited about it!

        i read something amazing the other day in 1 peter i cant give you the exact reference but it was talking about Noah and his family on the ark, and how everyone else had drowned , and that they represented the baptism you had to have, to be  baptised not physical act but the putting away with filth of the flesh are the only ones who will be saved from the flood. i thought it was the coolest comparision.


     hasta luego-isabel


    If you're not in the mood to hear me whine, don't read this.

    August 13 2008

    WHY DO I ALWAYS WIND UP DOING EVERYBODY'S JOBS? Should I really be cooking supper for Mom, or vacuuming, or painting for Dad or other things that they really should be doing, on top of all the other stuff I do? I guess. Maybe I'm just a whiner. Or maybe I'm just put out because I've been getting about 6 hours of sleep a night. Nonetheless, I'm feeling whiney today, so thanks for putting up with me.



                 THE END


    August 10 2008

    i'm bored and feel like writing.


        seems to me that most humans write about life. How it sucks, how it rocks, how its sad or happy, its life you can say anything good or bad about it..its still life in the end.

        seems to me we (as humans) are blinded by the bad b/c thats what we are taught to look at and focus on. We never hear about the good in the news, we hardly ever see people helping people in our day to day lives. And when i try to look at the good and listen for the happy, i'm put down and told to worry, or be scared of something. its stupid

       Seems like everyone lives in the future, no one lives in the now. People are always worrying, alway wanting something to happen 'in the near future'! and i'm like STOP FREAKING ABOUT LATER AND LOOK AT WHATS IN FRONT OF YOU DANGIT! stop wishing for the "near future" whenever that is and work toward the NOW!!!!! Stop telling me you cant help but worry and stop making up reasons why I should worry! STOP ! living in the here and now is...no words can make you understand how much easier and how much more fun it is living in the now then living in the future.

       Seems to me like no one will let happy be happy. they always have to find SOMETHING wrong, it can be the smallest thing and they will blow it up so they take your happiness. Why cant people leave well enough alone? Just let the happy be happy.


    well thats my rant for the night.



    August 10 2008

    ya know....its awesome to have a good friend. hang out, have funn, make great memories. you FiNAllY get really close to that person, comfortable an safe being around them. then comes the dreaded goodbye. you both know its coming, but try not to think about it. well it comes, they leave, an your stuck here thinking about what you should've said or done differently. at first yall keep  in touch really great, communication is good. but then it deteriorates. phone calls messages emails an im's become a rare occasion. an you feel like you have failed at bieng that persons friend cause you are no longer part of their life. you aren't there when they need someone to talk to and they aren't there when you need someone to talk to. well sure you have those kinda friends where you are...but this certain person always seems to know the right thing to say, what to do an listens an really seems to care. and its hard to lose that. it really is...



    August 09 2008
    HAPPY BIRTHDAY ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


    August 08 2008

    You know that feeling you get when you just found out you've won the BIG game, the feeling you get when you see someone you've missed for so long, you know the feeling when you open Christmas presents, you know that feeling that rushes over you when you lock eyes with the one you like. You get where I'm going with this feelings thing right, the feeling that falls over you, that makes your heart stop, that makes you feel like your falling through the air and you've lost your stomach, and that just plain and simply takes your breath away. I felt that feeling when he rapped his arms around me, when he was just inches away. I felt so safe yet so scared, safe from the world but scared of my heart being broken b/c he held it in his strong hands. So warm yet so cold, warm on the inside b/c he was holding me, cold from the last person who held me and afraid this warmth wouldn't last. Scared that I would soon get cold like the last time when the last guy let go. I wasn't confused but my head was spinning.

    Look what a simple hug can do. Yet he has no idea that such a simple thing had such a big impact.

    Song of the Week. "House at Pooh Corner"

    August 07 2008
    Hey you guys. Don't just pass this up as just another song of the week. This is a great old time song. If you get the chance listen to it. You can take everything as something else. Please enjoy. Oh I am not quite sure who this one is by, sorry.

    Can you feel the Pressure?

    August 05 2008

    So the title has to do with what I'm going to "type" about in my thought.

    I've noticed a major difference in a lot of my friends and the way they express there selves. It sorta turns my stomach a little.

    God should be the only one influencing our descions on life, or with our relationships with our peers or loved ones.

    And I believe people with a higher power or in a leadership postition should have a good heart and be in the right place with God.

    It reminds me of a story in the bible about those Teachers with the scroll boxes on there for heads, and they'd teach about Christ vividly and told you about God. Then they would Lust after women and do the opposite of their teaches and then God said "Do as they SAY not as they are doing, for they are not Glorifying the Kingdom of God"

    And if God was saying that I was doing wrong, don't follow Kaelynn, I would be embarassed. And I would want people to see God in me. Not see a person they no longer recognize. And I recently discovered that if you are a "True Christian" you will have the desire in your heart to Not Swear, Lust which in God's eyes is Adultry, Not cheat, Lie. That you will want to be Like God.

    God said that we as christians are strangers to the world, Aliens sent to spread to spread the word of God. To not Conform to the ways of the wicked here in this place.

    And that's what I've noticed, we've changed. A lot of us are no longer where we need to be with God, and we think we're happy. But then when you realize how incomplete you are with out him....


    It's gonna come crashing down... hit you like a bunch of... Football players.


    Honestly I do believe in my heart that atleast one person needed to hear an ounce of what I said. And it's not just what I said, it's got some thing that God said too. 

    im up & i thought i could write something.

    August 01 2008

    alright, a simple poem from the mind at 10'o clock at night. :)


    I think they said his jersey's number is 10,

    he is supposed to be a real good christian,

    yea, i guess i'm up for being let down again....

    im ready to show her what she means to me,

     my best friend ill be faithful & supportive she'll see.....

    im tired, really tired, but imma keep going,

     but light in my soul will keep glowing.

       im happy cause i know i've passed the test,

    i'm joyful because i did it my best.

    its confusing. ive lost it, but i know the one who's got it.

    it doesn't matter, if i stay or climb the latter.