no such thing

March 02 2007
so, i really dont want to brag buuuut....


ok, i just had to get that out. i mean, y'all really dont understand...i am awful at math! really, i am! but, today, i am excited!

love to you all!


rainy days

February 28 2007
i am just not looking forward to a gloomy thursday...with no new episode of grey's anatomy...

shop much?

February 16 2007
so, i LOVE LOVE LOVE online shopping! it has recently become an obcession (well, i buy when i have money) BUT i am soooo impatient while waiting for my item! for example, i just bought rain boots at and IT HASN'T SHIPPED YET!!! not only do i need it before we leave for new york, i'm just anxious to get them!

yeah, just thought i should get that out there. thanks.

not my stereotype

January 16 2007
so, my brother made a bulletin on myspace[gasp] that talked all about stereotypes. you've probably seen goes a bit like this...

I'm GAY, so I MUST have AIDS.

I'm RELIGIOUS, so I MUST shove my beliefs down your throat.

I'm ATHEIST so i MUST hate the world.

I DON'T HAVE A RELIGION, so I MUST be "evil" and not have any morals.

I'm SOUTHERN, so I MUST be white trash.

I'm a CHEERLEADER, so I MUST be a whore...

I'm a DANCER, So i must be stupid, stuck up, and a whore

I'm a TEENAGE MOM, so I MUST be an irresponsible slut.

ok so, there are a few...a few that caught my attention. so, i thought about this, and how quick we are to judge. oh yes, even the christians are quick to judge. maybe even a little bit quicker, because we have all te answers because well, we have Christ. but how often do we just sit back and try to look at those people and put ourselves in their shoes and just watch the world from their life. i dont know about you, you im a people watcher. no, i dont really like to go to the mall and just sit there and watch others but on campus, i love to walk alone. i love to watch how other people interact with one another and i think its interesting to know what they are talking about. but that's just me. so, my first point on my stereotype soapbox is to STOP. just stop. i know its hard. but really, we dont have the golden ticket.

Secondly, as soon as i went from that myspace bulletin i hopped over to my own myspace. and the verse for today was...

"there is neither Jew nor Greek, slave nor free, male nor female, for you are all one in Christ Jesus." _galatians 3:28

so here it version
_neither prude nor rebel, slut nor punk, jock nor geek, we are all one in Christ_ cheesy, i know, but i'm in the cheesy-its-very-late-i-should-really-be-asleep-but-i'm-avoiding-my-8 am-class-and-6 am-alarm mood.
i love you all. and dont forget to cut everyone else some slack.

rescue me before i fall into despair. . .

December 15 2006
so, i dont know if everyone else figured this out before me and just forget to mention it, but, college is hard...and well, i dont really like it all that much. but anyway, i'm trying to get all of these gen ed. classes OVER WITH so i can start doing things i actually enjoy! sooo, today i finished my scheduale (special thanks to those who didnt confirm their classes and i got to pick another!!!)

_spring 2007_
mwf: elementary german 1 (scary!!!!)
mwf: psychology of social behavior (very excited about this one)
mwf: math for general studies (eeek!)

tr: survey of us history 1 (excited about this. i hear the prof is really good)
tr: geology (geology again, i currently have a d+ in the class...)
tr: research and argumenative writing (yay!)


November 22 2006
i have a class w/ steven foe next semester.  pray for me. LOL

timing is everything.

October 11 2006
You know it's nothing new
Bad news never had good timing
But then the circle of your firends
Will defend the silver lining

Pain throws your heart to the ground
Love turns the whole thing around
No, it won't all go the way, it should
But I know the heart of life is good

(something that is apparent in my life right now. timing. jake says there is no such thing as good timing. but, there is definetely bad timing. so you are left with bad timing. just bad timing. yeah, timing is everything.)

hope your day is blessed!

christ a lunatic?

September 16 2006
** i've posted this EVERYWHERE cause i love what it says**

Assayas: That’s a great idea, no denying it. Such great hope is wonderful, even though it’s close to lunacy , in my view. Christ has his rank among the world’s
great thinkers. But Son of God, isn’t that farfetched?

Bono: No, it’s not farfetched to me. Look, the secular response to the Christ story always goes like this: he was a great prophet, obviously a very interesting guy, had a lot to say along the lines of other great prophets, be they Elijah, Muhammad, Buddha, or Confucius. But actually Christ doesn’t allow you that. He doesn’t let you off that hook. Christ says, No. I’m not saying I’m a teacher, don’t call me teacher. I’m not saying I’m a prophet. I’m saying: “I’m the Messiah.” I’m saying: “I am God incarnate.” And people say: No, no, please, just be a prophet. A prophet we can take. You’re a bit eccentric. We’ve had John the Baptist eating locusts and wild honey, we can handle that. But don’t mention the “M” word! Because, you know, we’re gonna have to crucify you. And he goes: No, no, I know you’re expecting me to come back with an army and set you free from these creeps, but actually I am the Messiah. At this point, everyone starts staring at their shoes, and says: Oh, my God, he gonna keep saying this. So what you’re left with is either Christ was who He said He was—the Messiah—or a complete nutcase. I mean, we’re talking nutcase on the level of Charles Manson. This man was like some of the people we’ve been talking about earlier. This man was strapping himself to a bomb, and had King of the Jews” on his head, and was they were putting him up on the Cross, was going: OK, martyrdom, here we go. Bring on the pain! I can take it. I’m not joking here. The idea that the entire course of civilization for over half of the globe could have its fate changed and turned upside-down by a nutcase, for me that’s farfetched…

i was sitting, waiting, wishing

September 13 2006
waiting waiting waiting for an e-mail e-mail e-mail from the girl girl girl at union union union....

i dont even know what to do to transfer...

happy birthday to SARAH MOORE

September 09 2006

i had a dream about Union...i keep thinking i want to transfer next year.

but, the guy i liked (strictly in my dream) was from MT and the dorms in my dream looked much more like a Real World house than a dorm...soooo, i have no i-dea how to interpret THAT one!

well, if you interpret dreams, help me out on that one.

going to a wedding? i am!! yaaay!

SO TODAY IS SARAH MOORE'S (the blonde in the picture: not me, but the other one)  BIRTHDAY AND YOU SHOULD LEAVE HER A REMARK WISHING HER "a happy birthday!!!"

the late, great daughter of mother earth

August 15 2006

Me:  i think my mom is having "empty nest syndrome"

Someone else: dont you have a brother?

Me: yeah...

She said I think I'll go to Boston...

August 08 2006
i think i will write a letter...cause plane tickets to boston are too much money.

i'm gonna find out how boring i am and have a good time

July 23 2006
I'm 15 for a moment
Caught in between 10 and 20
And I'm just dreaming....

sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same...

July 18 2006
yes i should be cleaning clothes but i just can't help thinking about things...mostly because i think about things too much, but i'm working on it.

this past week has been absolutely amazing...its also been one of the most challenging weeks of my life. not only have i been waking up at 7:15 to take a shower and not sleeping till after midnight, my mind has been racing with the thoughts of possibilities and things yet to come. thoughts of wanting to keep people at a distance to keep them safe and thoughts of pulling people in closer to save their life. and the people i need to push away is the person i want to be closer...hence the title...its just one of those internal conflicts. something that God will work through, if only i will trust in Him and his perfect will for my life...i'm just being patient...He's been teaching me that since like February, yeah, it hasnt been going so well the past, hm, month and a half? but, i know i'm changing.

so this week, myself and 21 other people went to new jersey to work w/ the point church. we served the community in order to form relationships and bonds w/ the people so that the point could better reach the community. i've never thought about how community service can help a church because in the south it just seems like we open our doors, preach the Word and people come...but up there (points above the mason-dixon) churches really have to make the effort to go out into the community and pursuade the public at large that Christians are not condescending and conceited...we are people just like them, making it in a world where no one really knows what is going on.

and i met an AMAZING new friend from Georgia...she basically moved in with us last week and it was so much fun!!! yay for strobe lights and hotel room dance parties!!! (and lets not EVER forget pride and prejudice)

let's keep talking...anything to stop clockwatching

July 01 2006

so, if you cant tell, i'm super excited!!! tomorrow i'm going to look at a 2000 passat and monday i'm looking at a 2001!!!! they make me happy

i would even be ok if we didnt buy one of them, but its the face that we are being productive in looking for a car...but seriously, both of these cars are SERIOUS possibilities...i'm even taking mom w/ the check book (though, i'm going to pay back most of it)

tyler comes home on monday (((i get my t-shirt!!!!!!!!!)))

fireworks at the castle's on monday night...pretty excited...get to see my little boys AND some freaking AMAZING fireworks!!!

well, i guess thats all folks, have a great one!

i am the one who will swallow his pride, life as the man on the side

June 29 2006
so its come to a point where the hair color just has to these situations, i would usually chop it all off, but i love my long hair too much, so its back to black baby!!

((i think only elizabeth and possibly a few others will understand this...maybe, maybe not))

As I'm finding the're getting away

June 25 2006
i dont really know what i think anymore...and when he asks me, i just i dont know. cause, in my head, nothing really makes any sense to me...

((i wake up to find its another four aspirin morning and i dive in. i put on the same clothes i wore yesterday. when did society decide that we had to change and wash a tee shirt after every individual use? If its not dirty, i'm gonna wear it. i take the stairs to the car and there's fog on the windows. i need caffeine in my blood stream, i take caffeine to the blood stream. i grip the wheel and all at once i realize my life has become a boring pop song and everyone's singing along))

i'm ready so dont stop...keep pushing...i'm ready to fall...


June 21 2006
so i have....
English 1010
Psychology 1410
Communications 2200
Theater Appreciation 1030 (HAHA this is richard's class!!!)
Geology 1030 and a Lab

so yeah, i got all the classes i wanted...only a few friday classes and nothing before 9:40!!! that makes me happy!!!

yay for college!!!

know anyone who writes hebrew?

June 15 2006
i really really really want a tattoo!!! aaah! i want the word hope on my wrist...BUT, i dont think i've been able to find a correct translation for hope as a noun. (1 Peter 3:15 ...Always be prepared to give an answer to everyone who asks you to give the reason for the hope that you have...)

i found one but it simply translates to "hope" as in "i hope"

but i want the translation for "the hope" so, if anyone knows of anyone who writes hebrew that would be a great

_bekah all comes down to nothing...

June 14 2006
so last night, i sat at my aunt's house as she was in the other room dying and as her husband threw himself in a drunken rage. and i thought to myself? why is she dying when she is such an amazing person, yet he is standing in front of me yelling about nothing and very much alive (yet probably more dead inside than she).

it just makes me very sad...and i dont want her to die. but i have to know that she will be in the glory of the Lord...and we will be here

there is a song that says "God only cries for the living" and i didnt truly understand it until after i had been there and i saw what she endured on a regular basis. cause i just dont think i could be that strong...and i'm glad she doesnt have to be very much longer.

so, if you would be so kind as to pray for her family and her 3 children and especially her daughter who is like 11, because i just dont want to think about losing my mom until forever...