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November 22, 2006

GOD QUITTING SMOKING SUCKS!!!!!!!!

I can't think or remember hardly anything. I have this constant craving in my head.  Somebody please help.......  Nicotine, please.........

What lasts forever?

November 09, 2006

Memories, regret, hope, and love.

"Give Me Novacaine" - Green Day

Take away the sensation inside
Bitter sweet migraine in my head
Its like a throbbing tooth ache of the mind
I can't take this feeling anymore

Drain the pressure from the swelling,
This sensations overwhelming,
Give me a long kiss goodnight
and everything will be alright
Tell me that I won't feel a thing
So give me Novacaine

Out of body and out of mind
Kiss the demons out of my dreams
I get the funny feeling, that’s alright
Jimmy says it's better than here,
I’ll tell you what

Drain the pressure from the swelling,
This sensations overwhelming,
Give me a long kiss goodnight
and everything will be alright
Tell me that I won't feel a thing,
So give me Novacaine

Oh Novacaine

Drain the pressure from the swelling,
This sensations overwhelming
Give me a long kiss goodnight
and everything will be alright
Tell me Jimmy I won't feel a thing,
So give me Novacaine

"Whatsername" - Green Day

Thought I ran into you down on the street
Then it turned out to only be a dream
I made a point to burn all of the photographs
She went away and then I took a different path
I remember the face but I can't recall the name
Now I wonder how whatsername has been

Seems that she disappeared without a trace
Did she ever marry old what's his face?
I made a point to burn all of the photographs
She went away and then I took a different path
I remember the face but I can't recall the name
Now I wonder how whatsername has been

Remember, whatever
It seems like forever ago
Remember, whatever
It seems like forever ago
The regrets are useless
In my mind
She's in my head
I must confess
The regrets are useless
In my mind
She's in my head
From so long ago

(Go, Go, Go, Go..)

And in the darkest night
If my memory serves me right
I'll never turn back time
Forgetting you, but not the time.

[Part 4: Dearly beloved] - Jesus of Suburbia - by Green Day

Dearly beloved are you listening?
I can't remember a word that you were saying
Are we demented or am I disturbed?
The space that's in between insane and insecure
Oh therapy, can you please fill the void?
Am I retarded or am I just overjoyed
Nobody's perfect and I stand accused
For lack of a better word, and that's my best excuse

"That's When I'll Stop Loving You" - 'N Sync

When winter comes in summer
When theres no more forever
Yeah, that's when I'll stop loving you

That's when I'll stop loving you
I'm sure you've heard these words before
And I know it's hard for you to trust them once more
You're afraid it all might end
And a broken heart is scared of breaking again
But you've gotta believe me
I'll never leave you
You'll never cry long as I am there
And I will always be there
You will never be without love

When winter comes in summer
When there's no more forever
When lies become the truth
Oh you know then baby,
That's when I'll stop lovin'
That's when I'll stop loving you

That's when I'll stop loving you yeah

As long as sunlight lights the sky
Light of love will be found in these eyes of mine (these eyes of mine)
And I will shine that light for you
You're the only one, I'll ever give this heart to
What I'm trying to say is, nothing will change this (ahh..)
There'll be no time you won't find me there (find me there)
Cause I will always be there
You will always have all my love

When winter comes in summer
When there's no more forever (yeah)
When lies become the truth (ohhhh)
Well you know then baby,
That's when I'll stop lovin'
That's when I'll stop loving you

That's when I'll stop loving you

And when this world doesn't turn anymore
When the stars all decide to stop shining
Til then I'm gonna to be by your side
Gonna be loving you forever
Every day of my life

Ohh..baby..

Well you know then baby
That's when I'll stop lovin'
That's when I'll stop lovin'

That's when I'll stop loving you

When winter comes in summer
When there's no more forever
When lies become the truth (truth... yeah)
Well you know then baby,
That's when I'll stop lovin'
That's when I'll stop loving you (ohh..)

When winter comes in summer (yeah)
When there's no more forever
When lies become the truth
That's when I'll stop loving (well you know then baby)
That's when I'll stop loving you

That's when I'll stop babe
I'll stop babe
Loving you

"This I Promise You" - 'N Sync

Ohh ohh...

When the visions around you,
Bring tears to your eyes
And all that surround you,
Are secrets and lies
I'll be your strength,
I'll give you hope,
Keeping your faith when it's gone
The one you should call,
Was standing here all along..

And I will take
You in my arms
And hold you right where you belong
Till the day my life is through
This I promise you
This I promise you

I've loved you forever,
In lifetimes before
And I promise you never...
Will you hurt anymore
I give you my word
I give you my heart (give you my heart)
This is a battle we've won
And with this vow,
Forever has now begun...

Just close your eyes (close your eyes)
Each loving day (each loving day)
I know this feeling won't go away (no..)
Till the day my life is through
This I promise you..
This I promise you..

Over and over I fall (over and over I fall)
When I hear you call
Without you in my life baby
I just wouldn't be living at all...

And I will take (I will take you in my arms)
You in my arms
And hold you right where you belong (right where you belong)
Till the day my life is through
This I promise you baby

Just close your eyes
Each loving day (each loving day)
I know this feeling won't go away (no..)
Every word I say is true
This I promise you

Every word I say is true
This I promise you
Ooh, I promise you...

Every song on here is one that has immense meaning to me.  I have memories and thoughts embedded in every word.  They make me cry and remember things that I will regret until I die.  I don't give a damn what people think about 'N Sync.  I like the music, no matter what else I listen to.  I always have and always will.  I will always remember the people I associated with these songs.  April, Karen, Trish, and Lindsey.  Love never fades, it just changes form.

When his sight goes red again......

September 27, 2006

Hello, Hello,

Been a while since I have updated anything.  Just been working and getting read for college.  I start in January and alread know what fraternity I am going to rush.  A. T. O.  It's gonna be fun as all hell.  I just had an interesting experience driving my friends back from Franklin.  It's on the hush-hush, but let's go with the word "traumatized" for now.  I have now seen everything that the comic world has to offer.  An Incredible Hulk #1, a Daredevil #1, X-Men #1, and the first appearnce of Thor all walked into the store this week.  I was amazed.  I am still on the look-out for the first appearance of Hal Jordan, since I own Kyle Rayner's first appearance.  Well enough nerd talk.  Time for bed.  Au Revoir.

~Jonathan

What I felt, What I've Known, Turn the pages, Turn the stone

August 31, 2006So we have internet at work now.  It's pretty interesting now.  It pretty much pays for itself.  I love my job.  It's amazing that I am getting paid to do the things I did at home for free.  My co-workers are awesome and my boss is like the father I never had.  A lot has happened since I had the chance to update last.  Too much to list tonight.  I just know that I am finally happy and moved away from my dark, depressing past.  No more suicidal thoughts, no more trying to hurt myself, no more blaming my problems on others, no more caring if I'm single.  I feel free.  I feel like I can fly and never be tethered again.  My wings unbound.......

The Brave and the Bold

May 31, 2006

Hello hello.  I hijacked a friend's laptop to update for the first time in a long time.  Janael went back to portland and left me here alone.  So I started hanging out with my card-playing friends again.  They introduced me to a new card game, VS.  it's like Magic with superheros.  I got my money from the hail damage in Apil and went and bought a bunch of cards.  I am building a Batman deck and a deck around my favorite superhero of all-time, Green Lantern.  Me, Eric, Sammy, and Blake (the owner of this laptop) all went to the Bellvue mall and hung out at Next Level Games.  I bough everything for my decks.  Eric is becoming my best friend again and making me wonder why we ever stopped hanging out.  I still don' have a woman in my life, but that's all right.  If it happens it'll happen.  I love the new A.F.I. song, Ms. Murder.  And I bought Nickelback's new cd.  "Saving Me" makes me cry, I am man enough to admit it.  I still have about 300 dollars left to blow.  Oh and I congratulate all of the 2006 graduates.  Even the ones who don't like me.  Too bad, I still wish ya'll the best of luck.  Hope everything goes good for everyone I know.  God Bless.

                     ~Jon "The Omen" Allmon

"Far Away" - Nickelback

This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know,
you know, you know

[CHORUS]
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore

On my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
'Cause you know,
you know, you know

[CHORUS]

So far away
Been far away for far too long
So far away
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know

I wanted
I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and, never let me go

"Miss Murder" - A.F.I.

Hey Miss Murder can I?
Hey Miss Murder can I?
Make beauty stay if I,
take my life?

whoa-oh-ohh

With just a look they shook
And heavens bowed before him.
Simply a look can break your heart.
The stars that pierce the sky;
He left them all behind.
We’re left to wonder why
He left us all behind.

Hey Miss Murder can I?
Hey Miss Murder can I?
Make beauty stay if I,
take my life?
whoa-oh-ohh
(ohh)

Dreams of his crash won’t pass
Or how they all adored him.
Beauty will last when spiraled down.
The stars that mystify
He left them all behind.
And how his children cry
He left us all behind.

Hey Miss Murder can I?
Hey Miss Murder can I?
Make beauty stay if I,
take my life?
whoa-oh-ohh

What's the hook, the twist
within this verbose mystery?
I would gladly bet my life upon it.
That the ghost you love, your ray of light
Will fizzle out without hope.
When the empty sand just flowing through our empty skin,
Ever searching for what we were promised.
Reaching for the golden ring we never let go,
Who would ever let us put our filthy hands upon it.

Hey Miss Murder can I?
Hey Miss Murder can I?
Make beauty stay if I,
take my life?
whoa-oh-ohh

Hey Miss Murder can I?
Hey Miss Murder can I?
Make beauty stay if I,
take my life?
whoa-oh-ohh