So last night's rehearsal was normal, we sightread everything. It wasn't that difficult, I was kinda bored. I went and listened to first band for a second, it was depressing. My governor's school amigos in 2nd band were like "I want to go back to GS where we were good, and had high chairs." It was good seeing everyone again. The first band horn peope were mad that I wasn't going to all-state. I'm upset at Ruth, she acts like she doesn't know me unless she needs me for something. I hate the trendy crowd in my band. They're stupid.

Today was better, we played around in the music more. The horns are quiet, but I get them talking sometimes. I want to cry, the music is fun and all, but it's not hard enough that I have to actually work to make it sound good (that wasn't meant to sound cocky) it's just too easy. And first band is playing some great music, I wish I didn't go 2nd in the auditioning day, that's why I'm not in 1st band. But yeah, the principle horn at Governor's School should not be sitting 6th chair in 2nd band. Oh well, it will be different once I'm in college and I'm away from all this stuff. College doesn't matter, they know I'm good there just from my reputation. I may be one of the best horn players as far as performing goes, but I guess I suck at auditions. They should rethink how you do midstate auditions, everyone can play the excerpts. I think they should let you play your own solo, like professional auditions, that's how you can tell who should really get the high chairs, but how advanced their solo is.

I don't know...I guess I'm just being stupid.