Some Friday The 13th,,,

single....again.
why am i so damn unloveable?
i thought i was a good person
but no one ever sticks around long enough to see
or even give it a chance

so this means:
no date to military ball yet
no escort down the attendant line either

i think i fail



i miss those days
and him

:-(

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All Alone...

Is it possible to just up and stop loving someone?

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Panic Begins...NOW

military ball is in one month exactly (Feb. 4th)
i don't have a dress yet
the one from last year is torn and it's too big
yeah i really don't want to wait until last minute to get a dress
but i'm pretty picky about dresses
it has to be perfect
i've settled for a mediocre dress once and now i hate it
(the dress i wore to oakland's ball in '04)
so yah i'mma go crazy if i don't go dress hunting soon
gargh
well enough about that
school is purty good
i understand almost all my subjects
biology and algebra II the best,
which actually amazes me
hehhee
but yeah that's it
byeee<33

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Slow Dancing...

So I didn't have that good of a Christmas.
It was pretty boring.
Learned that Ambien makes me all drunk-like
And I don't remember much after that.
But you know what I love?
Me and Sean dancing in the middle of my room to our song.
Yeah we're cheesy.
But it feels so good to just be in love.
And I don't want to lose this feeling, ever.

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Oh Christmas Tree, Oh Christmas Tree?

so we\'re going to east tennessee for christmas
kill me now
sean is going to babysit my georgie porgie (my guinea pig)
the great dane and dad are staying here
some christmas, eh?
but i do get to see my mom\'s friend\'s baby
(who is so incredibly adorable)

yeah...still haven\'t gotten any pictures of my new haircut

parade is tomorrow, which i\'m not looking forward to
it\'s going to be incredibly cold
but it does earn me my beret at the end of the year
major yay

i\'m hungry but if i eat now,
knowing my parents, they\'ll bring lunch home when they get back
yeah

i found out yesterday that i am a total loner in 2nd period
most of my algebra II class probably doesn\'t know my name
we had a party yesterday and no one noticed i didn\'t eat
it was pretty odd
but i made a D on the test i took in there on tuesday
which really upset me because i thought i aced it
and my english quizzes/ tests, i also bombed

i need to get more organized
and stop freakin procrastinating

but yeah here i am on a saturday, bored as hell
i wanna go see a charlie brown christmas tonight
but i don\'t know if my parents will let me
and i want sean to go too
i duno i may be going to the movies with amber and some people
so i guess i\'ll see how that goes

this was a really long update
i guess i\'ll shut up now

much love <3

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