finally a poem from lit class that i like

November 02, 2005

 

a woman is not a potted plant                                   
by Alice Walker

A WOMAN IS NOT
A POTTED PLANT

her roots bound
to the confines
of her house

a woman is not
a potted plant
her leaves trimmed
to the contours
of her sex

a woman is not
a potted plant
her branches
espaliered
against the fences
of her race
her country
her mother
her man

her trained blossom
turning
this way
& that
to follow
the sun
of whoever feeds
and waters
her

a woman
is wilderness
unbounded
holding the future
between each breath
walking the earth
only because
she is free
and not creepervine
or tree.

Nor even honeysuckle
or bee.

yeah...

November 01, 2005

so the above picture is  how crazy my life has been recently   

i feel like i\'m going every direction at once with God, the parentals, school, papers, exams, speeches, commitments, old friends, new friends, change, guys, confusion, a huge lack of sleep, lots of candy, and retarded heat in the dorms

and that\'s about how i feel about it ~ i really need some sleep plus a long ride in the middle of nowhere followed by a reeeeeeaaaaally long bubble bath - or at least that\'s the series of events that worked when i got stressed in high school - but college is NOTHING like high school! i love it, but at times i miss the sweet ignorant bliss that is \"on a hill in Dickson County, reared against the sky\"

so i bs\'ed my way through my comm speech Monday morning, by the grace of God and only by the grace of God. yeah, it\'s times like that when i actually thank Him for the 4 yrs serving General Sullivan.

 te he he.

i\'ll be turing in an english paper late tomorrow - if i ever stop procrastinating and do it - maybe that\'s the problem... ok one of many

good news though - i more than survived the Foundations of government test - I GOT AN A!!! o my that test was rape of the brain. so once again.... THANK GOD! (because it was sooooooo not me)

aight- well i guess i\'ll get off and go to work - wonderful fun - at the ever exciting library

picks, ponies, and politics

October 19, 2005

photo from kim
my wonderful roomie made me guitar pick earrings!!!! isn\'t she awesome? yeah, she loves me! if you are interested in buying some, she might make you some -just ask- but mine are awesome!!!so the fall break at home and at Bucksnort was a blast! we finally sold the demonic pony! yay! PRAISE THE LORD!i had so much fun riding, dancing, and just being in the country away from the boro.returning to the world of essays and midterms was not fun. i had/have a major political science test. i was gonna take it early since i\'m leaving for georgetown, but he forgot to leave it for me....so i guess i\'ll take it when i get backlast night/this morning i was writing a critique for comm and decided to take a nap at 1:30 AM.... well, I woke up and it was 7amyeahso i slept in my clothes (note: not that i sleep without clothes for those of you that took that that way - there is a strong diff between pj\'s and real clothes) and my contacts, neither of which left me comfortablewellI gotta finish packing for DC!!! yay! I\'m so excited!model un is gonna rock my face offandI\'m gonna rock model un})i({

taking a note from justin

October 11, 2005well as usual, reading justin vance\'s blog hit me right where i needed to be hit. he wrote,

\"I’ve accepted the fact that I don’t need to know what will happen along the way, only what direction I am pointing. For I am sure of my destination, and I rest in that peace, but the planning, human side of me wants to talkback in question. He wants to ask for a plan, for answers, for just a little more light on the situation than I’ve been given at this moment.\"

this is a brick wall i keep hitting. if you know me, you know i am agressive in everything i do and will take charge in any situation. this summer God forcefully reminded me that i am not in control of my life no matter how much i try to be. i gave it to God, but every now and then, i stumble, become insecure, and grapple hopelessly and helplessly for the security i find in the control i don\'t really have. I know that He is in control. I know that His way is sooooooo much better than mine. perhaps its me that i don\'t trust, perhaps its everyone else. I don\'t really know, but i guess i don\'t have to. I just have to let go- and just be .

Christmas in October!!!!

October 10, 2005I got a package!!!!!!! The Acteens of First Baptist Waverly rock my face off! I went to check my wonderful general delivery mail today (because cool kids at the end of the alphabet take forever to get an assigned box, gah). The postal man broght out this good size box and said, \"Is this you?\" (te he he - my id says Erin and all my mail says Dani so as usual i\'m confusing and difficult for people). YAY! Shaking it, I knew it contained candy. I opened it to find one of the sweetest homeade cards ever and loads of candy, bags of popcorn, fun girlie paper! yay! i feel loved! it\'s like Christmas in October!!!