Hmm... Good Weekend?? Oh Yeh

Hmm so hows about this weekend is gonna be the best one ever... and thursday was pretty amazing as well

so thursday i went to a concert at Bonhoeffers with karla and like EVERYONE was there... and let me just say... A Plea For Purging is probably the best screamo band iv seen in a long long time

Friday (today) i went to school... went to oakland... and met up with this girl iv just recently met... let me say... Linz Hackney is probably one of the coolest people iv met... Dont get the straws at starbucks... thats how they make their money HAHA

Guess what... me and erica are gonna finally hang out tomorrow night... were gonna go see Date Movie === i love my friends

Sunday im goin to church... then at 330 gotta be back there... stay there til 4.45 then go to meet up with lauren... then linz is pickin me up at 7 and were gonna hang out again (im tellin ya... that girl is awesome crazzy coolness)

 Monday im supposed to hang out with lauren... but shes officially goin out with stuart so thatll be kinda wierd if ya ask me... but its cool... as surprised as even I am about it... im really happy for her... but if stuart hurts her AT ALL... Ill be fightin...

 i hope you all have a wonderful weekend... sorry for the long post Michal HAHA

You guys are the best

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Valentines Makes For Crappy Timing

so... me and lauren are through for good...

of course i find out the day before valentines

what timing :'(

my life it is a circus,

with roller coaster rides,

the people they will play me,

but fail to win the prize,

you can try my memories,

there like my own magician,

they like to play tricks on me,

to see if i remember...

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Guess Whos Goin Back To Oakland!!!!

not me

the appeal didnt go so well... and can you say nerve wrecking...

Addie Baker... for real... i was havin like the worst day EVER monday... and u for real did cheer me up like crazy... shoo you know u be gangstaa nizow... haha... i love you kid... ur amazing

Michal Mullane told me tonight that i made really long posts so she never read them... hmm?... but if i made short posts then you would never know what i actually thought or how i fealy (not that some of you random people would care)

ok let me just say this...

i dont care whos reading this... whether it be my best friends or my worst enemies...

when your able to stand up from an altar crying like crazy and not care who sees you cuz you know those tears are for god... thats an amazing feeling... and Amanda Ayers... sorry for givin you such a hard time earlier... u really are a great friend... same with you Paul... thanks guys... and thanks to everyone whos been prayin for me... it may be paying off now but dont stop yet cuz i know ill still be tested... u guys are amazing...

so my first day at Daniel Mckee is friday... and for the last time... im NOT a bad kid... i got sent there for the lamest reason ever!!! just read my post 3 posts ago...

Lauren... do you have any idea how much you mean to me? i love you so much... Valentines?

Jessica Ryanne Hunter... OMG!!! could i ask for a better best friend... u are my life (yeh i totally stole that from you)... did you know that our FIRST inside joke was "cricket cricket... wind blow wind blow... FROG!!!" and from that day on... weve been inseperable... for real... were so gettin married... haha... i love you more than ANYTHING!!!

ok... i think thats all... *thinks*... ok if i missed anything... sorry... but i gotta go...

is this post to long for ya Michal?

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=( could things get better please? =(

ok.. so my appeal case for Daniel Mckee is this wednesday... so pray like crazy and keep your fingers crossed...

you wanna know the main reason why i dont wanna go to daniel mckee?... well as i said in my last post... Stuart said he was gonna ask lauren out... and lauren may tell me that shell say no... but i know that if she doesnt see me everyday at school then shell start talkin to him more then shell go out with him when he asks her... and that scares me...

she asked me a very very serious question on the phone... only 2 people know about it... addie and jessica... and that question has a lot to do with our future together... and after she asked me that she posted on her xanga that we were through... that hurts me... bad

my best friend put a pic of us on her xanga then a quote about how she was close to letting go... that really makes me feel good to know that the 2 people i love the most both want to let me go...

i dont know what to do anymore... life is only getting worse... but i know it will get better

me and lindsay went out for a long time and this is how i fealt when she broke up with me... and now im over than and i barely even think of her at all... and i know that if me and lauren truly are "through" then ill get to the point where i barely ever think of her... but i dont want to get to that point...

i miss how life was 3 weeks ago... that was perfect

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Call Me Crazyy... But

I miss those days

so... she likes stuart... i wish she would of told me sooner... and hows about EVERYONE and there mom knew... but no one wanted to tell me... what friends

i got sent to daniel mckee... no im not joking... so yeh... im a junior but im in sophomore english right?... well the writing prompt was yesterday and mr tomlinson said i needed to go... so i went and asked the lady if i should take it and she told me to hold on and she would check... well she never came back... meaning i didnt have a prompt paper or a topic to write on.. so i was written up for skipping!!!... and i got sent to daniel mckee... it was nice to know u oakland friends... ill see u next year...

stuart said he was gonna ask her out... i want to be happy for her... i really really do... but im selfish... i want her... i want to be her boyfriend... i was the be the one she calls at 3 in the morning cuz she cant sleep... i want to be the prince in her bed time stories that she used to tell me... i miss her... i really really do...

this week has been the worst week ever... i went to church wanting to get right with god but thoughts of my day and lauren shot through my head and killed my spiritual focus... i know i need to get right with god... iv REALLY thrown my life away the past 4 months... and i need to change NOW... but i cant do it alone... please pray for me

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