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September 21, 2008i haven't ever realized until the past 2 weeks what regret really feels like. Not regretting doing something, but not doing it. Not saying what you really mean, while you have the time. Because before you know it, time is taken away. Not taking chances while you have the chance...not really feeling while you have the opportunity. Not loving while love is staring you in the face. Then it gets taken away, snatched rather, and you have no more time. You'll never get the chance again. Never get the chance to tell someone how much they mean to you or what an impact they've made in your life. How much you loved them, or how you never wanted to let them go. You never say anything. They tell you time and again how much you mean to them, that they never want to let you go, and you remain silent. Knowing in your heart you want to say the same, because you feel the same, but you're afraid of being hurt. You don't have fun because you figure you have all the time in the world to ride that one rollercoaster...to watch that one show...to have that one kiss. But the truth is, you don't know. You hope. Another chance will never be given, so you must take it. Say what you want while you still have the time. Even though they are not dead, they are gone. Go back...find them, tell them what you really feel for them. Hurry, before it's too late. Make them listen, understand....
EVEN THOUGH I DON'T. Why...how? Those are my only questions now. I love you. I want you to know that. But you never will.
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September 04, 2008so i have done something that i regret, but i wouldn't trade for anything. i'm embarassed and confused...it still doesn't seem like it really happened. i feel like i'm walking around in a dream, like right after i say something, it disappears. why didn't i just stay there, in that moment, instead of pulling away? maybe it wouldn't be so awkward like it is now....!. why, if i saw it coming the whole time, did i not stop it??? and why if i really didn't want it, would i never trade it??? i feel almost...guilty? like i did something bad. but i didn't. i did nothing wrong. i feel so strange....and stupid...and more than anything, embarassed beyond words. i can't even tell you how much of a loser i feel like right now. i've got to tell someone.it's for you!!!!!
July 30, 2008so, this is for you....you know exactly who you are! the flowers might be pretty, and they may smell wonderful, but that electric fence could kill brain cells!!! :) :P but seriously, you could grow your own flowers. <3 remember. and here's a song for you!the 'one'
July 24, 2008as many of you know, i hate being wrong. so, i did some research on the subject of 'one particular person that God has for you'. I was, indeed, wrong in part. No where in God's Word does it say that God has a particular person for you. Yes, there are many people you could choose, but God has a plan for everyone one of our lives and i believe that we can choose to follow it or not. if we pray for God to give us the desire to do His will, he will. I believe also that that concept applies to marriage and dating. You should pray and ask God if this person is in His plan for you.
Jeremiah 29:11-13
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. you will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart."
This is the verse that makes me think that there is someone in God's plan specifically made for you. Just like God specifically made Eve for Adam, I think that God might have made a special person for most of us. I think that we should pray that if He has a specific person in mind for your life, they will love you as much as God does.
And another thing I want to say is that another person, no matter who they are cannot complete you. If you are whole in Christ, you will not need anyone else to fill a void in your heart. If you are not, you pour yourself unnecessarily into someone else, and you become needy and still incomplete. So don't put your whole life into someone else just yet. First you should be complete in Christ and know that he makes you whole, not someone else.
Matthew 6:21
"For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also."
So i think that if you believe in your heart that God has a person designed for you and you seek after Him fervently, he will give you what you desire-a special person made specifically for you.
Psalm 37:3-4
"Trust in the Lord and do good; dwell in the land and enjoy safe pasture. Delight yourself in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart."
