im up & i thought i could write something.

alright, a simple poem from the mind at 10'o clock at night. :)

I think they said his jersey's number is 10,

he is supposed to be a real good christian,

yea, i guess i'm up for being let down again....

im ready to show her what she means to me,

 my best friend ill be faithful & supportive she'll see.....

im tired, really tired, but imma keep going,

 but light in my soul will keep glowing.

   im happy cause i know i've passed the test,

i'm joyful because i did it my best.

its confusing. ive lost it, but i know the one who's got it.

it doesn't matter, if i stay or climb the latter.

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the next season.

starting the school year sounds like the starting of a new chapter to me. i just turned a chapter 2 months ago, actually that season seemed like a sad one for me, but i've managed to still retain happiness throughout it all.

its seems like i haven't been here long enough, but the turning of a page doesn't wait on what you think. ready or not.

 but actually, i think im looking forward to it all.

i really am.

 but anyways wrapping it all up ive been chilling out, finishing up a few things, praying to the God that breathes out stars and then holds me in his hands, and it sounds cliche but i trust him with every worry i have. He is gonna carry me.

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my dreams

i've been thinking about things i want to do with my life.

       so far i think you guys know i'd like to go in the field of counseling one day. leaning towards working with teenage girls or married couples.

   another dream i'd like to be a christian music artist. and sing country style music. because i love the sound of country but i think the lyrics aren't always so great. the thing with that is i'd have to to get some singing lessons, and learn the guitar.

    finally, i think it's been put on my heart to work for a pregnacy center , and do sonograms, and give women hope.

    so i think i'd like to find a  real good guy one day

(i think he should look like sheriff Zach Tyler

 from love's unending legacy),

i'd like him to be my best friend,

and for us to go running together,

and i will want to make him happy.

get married and maybe have a kid.

i'd like a boy.

 I'd like to be active in a small church,

maybe be a preacher's wife.

have a faith based, not hypocritical relationship

with God.

oh me & Erin Conner will still be best friends!

live in the country.

i wouldnt mind living in Tennessee that much.

Georgia, & Alabama & the Carolinas sound nice,too.

oh and my house should be on the small side but not to small.

where people who don't have very much will feel comfortable,

but rich people will feel comfortable,too.

alright well those are my dreams.

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one blog to read its this one-this is me. & im sorry.

okay i admit it.

 my totally well thought out blogs are really big copouts for what i truely mean! They are never really what i'd rather just say. i guess because we all think to be heard we have to be deep and have ...long-hardcore-i think about worldpeace at breakfast-and solve unanswered questions at lunch-and have life figured out by the time i get in my pjs- kinda people.

and maybe you do that, good-4-you   but i really don't.... i wake up with stumbling to the bathroom- i dont even close the door sometimes-i forget to brush my teeth- i look in my fridge 8 times before i decide nothing is in there that wasn't before- & i go to bed and fall asleep to half a sentence during a prayer.

 well. its not me, & i admit that. im simple, and im sick of being what i'm not to get people to hear what i have to say, i guess this is an apology .. to myself.

Last thing i apologize ....to you all on how i have been putting up this front of myself, i've been trying to be "different" because i feel like i am just not err... enough, and that's wrong because i know i am more than enough! it was really selfish of me and i'm sorry for my immaturity.i promise i will just be me though it might be hard for awhile i probably wouldn't have wrote this, if i hadnt gotten the email i got today.it made me realize a lot. im truely sorry.

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elaboration.

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