I ve been insulted ... in every Way!

First , i wanna say I am not mad at anyone on here !

But I am a little flustrated because of one person on here!!!!!!!!

 insulted me in making me the idiot object .....

 then theres these guys who used to be my friends imed me , & called me ALL THIS STUFF!!!!it made me very mad! & every other line said 666 .... & it really made me upset !!!!!!!

 i was near tears, out of anger , ill admit that i was angry!! i didnt say anything mean to them , i was just u know what i think of this & they said wat?

 then i blocked them , i was sooooo mad !!!!!! its not wrong to be mad ...is it? i mean anger  isnt wrong its grudges , and hate that is wrong.....

 is it wrong to be mad ???

 upset ?? i know i have to let it go , but i want to hold on to it... but i know that it is wrong ....
 you gotta understand my frustration!!!!

wat 2 do?

 but i do wanna say my best made me cry tonite ... they were happy tears of hope

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THE CHANGE!

so ,... this is to be one of the best blogs i am ever to write!

Why do we act like nothing is happening inside of us when its written across our fake smiling face?

 cmon guys~ im Tired of living this way FAKE

 FAKE FAKE!!!! just pretend what im sposed to be...

 I wanna be ...... MYSELF! BUT im scared what if me is not good enough?=[ what if my friends dont like who i am .. its better to be me , & not liked , then someone everyone likes  , and not me , ITS A BATTLE INSIDE MY mind!& who really knows you might be liked MORE FOR WHO you REALLY ARE!!

 its Like im Talking to GOD , and im like "hey , im doing my best that i can" why do i lie to the all knowing?

 i like a guy , but i was scared to tell him , like the worst he could do is turn his head![ might i add he didnt] why do we look at things like that? dont look at things inside of you , & it must be covered up , but more as HEY LOOK i am different , People think Christians are FAKE , and to be honest we have that problem of acting like its ALL GOOD In THE NEIGHBORHOOD! LETS BREAK THE STEROTYPE!

why am i scared to be me?

why am i fake ?

i am scared to be myself , AND THATS THE GREATEST FEAR YOU CAN EVER HAVE!

 im not doing this anymore..... its all me ... im taking this on! its ALL ME!

 Just wanted to share whats on my mind !

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Boyfriend![just another...]

Just another boy ,

 Just another chance at Love,

Just A  bunch of unfilled promises

         that we both promised to keep.

Just another friendship

  that we hope last forever!

Just another memory

 that seems to last a lifetime,

Just another oppurtunity

not to make the same mistake,

Just another dance

that we can step on each others toes,

Just another sweaty hand

that we say we won t let go,

just another kiss

we say we'll never regret.

 Just another Love note ....

 that will someday play our LOVE's song!

 - Elizabeth Allen

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do u fear it? or embrace it?

So i am reading this book, called Rachels Tears! its about a Girl named Rachel who died in the Columbine tradgedy! she was asked if she believed in God! she said"you know i do!'' klebold then said "go live w. him then" & was shot!the 2 guys that shot her , one reportedly had a crush on her, [he wasnt the one to shoot her !] but he ridiculed her , and called her a GODLY whore , & all kinds of names! why didnt he save her? ....

 Rachel was a strong Christian and at the talent show she presented "watch the Lamb" & she was made fun of! but she didnt care! i wish i could be like that , every choice made by me , is all about what others think!

   she died for what she believed! i thought about this & if i was asked"do u believe in God? " & they had a Gun pointed at my head , would i say Yes?its easy to tell you i would, but then actually being in that situation would I? would I die in his name?  i have to 100% honest at this....

   i hate admitting that i Dont know  if i really could ::hopefully i wont be put in that situation, but then that the greatest way i could die! my death would impact others!i should be proud to die like that! but then why is there so much fear in dyeing! why do i fear death? i should look forward to it!!shouldnt i?

 okay, now heres the question would you be willing to die for one who died for you? does anyone feel like i do?

 -elizabeth

"we don t know when our time is up , you cant die b4 your time , you die when its your time !we needda live like its our last day , because might be"

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Yeah , okay!

Well,kids!

i made it!!!

Easy enough !

 i got some stuff done , not as much as i would like to have though....

 Read 2 books (10 com. of dating, &measure of the heart)

      okay , you know how God gives you what you need b4 you even realize you need it? well, b4 church i had this unhappiness about someone , & i told erin & we decided i should just take a break  4rm them for a few days , dont call them up or nothing! we couldnt decide how 2 go about doing that & telling that person  ! & God was at work ..... he put the youth group lesson , and that challenge in front of me , so then i cant talk 2 them any possible way !!!!!yay!! .. anyways.

 tuesday i layed in bed most the day, wasnt feeling so great . i wasnt sick, just sorta not feelng too well..... just being a sissy!

  yeah & then i get on here , and i dont really feel to loved and all!! lol... its okay i totally understand! yall just needed a break from Elizabeth!

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