It doesn't matter how I have read and understood the enemy. 

It doesn't matter how many times I have ran the drills. 

The bottom line is that this conflict is more different than anything that has ever arose.

I am not sure if you understand. 

You must let me expain. 

I have prepared myself for anything that could come up. 

Now this? 

How could I get ready for this kind of conflict? 

But now that I look through blury eyes I see things much more clearly. 

Although I am not completly ready I will fight till the death for what I believe in. 

I might run dry but until I run out of life I will continue. 

You don't realize what is going on. 

You seem nieve to the ragging war. 

And I know that it was hard to understand but Please Forgive Me.

I have not changed what I think of being the most honorerable thing to die for but I know how something to think about a little more. 

One that believes that our flag is not just a flag, 

it is a symbol and one to be respected. 

One that believes that everyone is called to serve their country, 

in one way or another.

One that still respects the wisdom,

of the ones who have been there before them. 

One that wants to look down on his grandchildren saying, 

"my grandfather died for this country." 

One that believes that untimate sacriface,

is their life.

One that knows what hard work is, 

because that is all they have ever done. 

One that knows of God's love, 

because it is what has saved them. 

One that realizes, 

that there is a time for war. 

One that realizes there is a time for, 

everything.

One that knows,

what is worth fighting for.

One that knows it is you.

"Loaded gun complex cock it and pull it."  

Nah I won't post anything long just some lyrics to think about. 

I can hear your voice but I can't see your face.
You say that we are so far away I whisper not for long.

You give a pitty laugh to my horrible jokes.

I give my dedication to you. The definition? 

You-my inspiration, my reason for my wrong moves, my confused              mind. My seperation of genius and insane.

They say that the differance between those two is measured in success. 

I want to see.

Am I crazy or do I for once know excatly what I am doing?  

Senator Obama stated during an interview that John McCain has not talked about his Muslim faith.  So he is obviously a Muslim. I mean his father was a member of one of the most radical Muslim groups in Kenya going through and preforming genocide on every village they came to. His step father was Muslim as well. So he must be a Muslim. How dare you "Christian's" say that. Let me say this first. I in no way support Senator Obama for president, but look at yourself. How dare you judge a man who you don't know. If you are a Christian then shouldn't you fogive someone for making a mistake? Which Barrack Obama obivously did during an interveiw. But not even that how dare you with out even haveing met the man you are ready to testify that he is not Christian like he says he is. Oh that is right, his father was a Muslim so he must be. My father was an alcoholic. Does that make me one? NO. You people who say it does must believe in Predestination. "Well his father is an alcoholic and his mother was too...nope he is not going to heaven." How dare you. Take a step back and think. Besides does it really matter if he is a Muslim? NO. It doesn't make a bit of difference. If the American people elect him then the American people elect him. 

Cause I have had plenty.

Do you only get 15 minutes of fame?

Where are mine?

Do you only have 1 true friend?

Still figuring that one out.

Do you only have one true love?

Still looking for that one.

Do you only make the same mistake once?

Oops. Guess not.

Do you keep the promises that you make?

My word is my life.

Do you love me when you say you do?

I do.  

When I find no confort in the confort of my bed.

When all that's left is me standing here in the pouring down rain.

When all that I feel is the constant and fearfully persistant pain. I will walk around with my eyes open but I have never been able to see.

I have walked around for far too long just wishing I could find the real me.  

If only you could see me now.

With tears in my eyes and sweat on my brow. 

What to do when you come to the end and your head is down.

What to do when you have come too far to turn around. 

I want to love you tonight.

I want to be only and forever right.

When the thoughts of you are flashing through my head. 

GIRLS...

I am going to put a quote in from my great Uncle Haggard. He is always insightful, and this...this is the only thing I know about girls, he says this. "Austin, man, girls are trouble. They have no idea what they want...NO No take that back. They know excatly what they want man, they want your soul." You guys can remark on what you think should go under the "GIRL" section. 

I will miss you no matter where I am.

If I am in your arms I will miss not being there sooner.

All those times I forgot to call you back, I am sorry.

I tried to keep you out of my mind.

All those times you didn't call me back, I forgive.

It was no big deal.

"I love you, I've made up my mind." -Thank you Ray Charles.

I will stay awake for hours to hear you speak over the phone.

I will walk a thousand miles just to be the one who is with you.

"I will give up every dream I ever had to make this one come true.

When I wake up, well I know I'm gonna be, I'm gonna be the man,

Who wakes up next to you." -Thanks Proclaimers.

I would love to be that guy that is on the news.

I would love to be that guy who has all of the awards on his chest.

I would love to be that guy who has the general star on his shoulder.

I would love to be the strongest and best in my feild.

But I would give it all away to be with you for a life time.

"I should know who I am by now, I walk the record stands somehow

thinkin' of winter, your name is the splinter inside of me, 

while I wait..."-Thank you Joshua Radin.

I have decided to walk a lot  of different paths.

Along the way I have realized a lot of things.

I have realized that when you are walking everywhere you get tired. I have realized that when you take so many paths you get lost.

I have realized now more than ever I want to walk a new path.

No, I do not want to change a thing that I have done in the past.

Even though I was tired and lost I still know where you are in my heart.

"Every long lost dream lead me to where you are, Others who broke my heart they were like Northern Stars pointing me on my way into your loving arms, this much I know is true". -Thank you Rascal Flatts.

I have been up in the middle of the night to see the stars shine.

I have been awake at dawn to see the sun rise.

I have had that phone in my hand praying for the courage to tell you.

"I woke up early this morning 'round 4 a.m. with the moon shining bright as headlights on the interstate. Pulled the covers over my head and tried to catch some sleep. Thoughts of you kept keeping me awake." -Thanks Keith Urban. 

I am done with all of this confusion. 

It has gotton me no where but confused.

Fine.

Now this stands true. 

I love you, I've made up my mind.  

What happened to the American way? It used to be when we were attacked we hit back and we hit hard. When the Japanese hit us they hit with a few thousand small bombs. Well then the US didn't just get even. We dropped two bombs. Little Man and Fat Boy. People like to call them atom bombs but I call them the boot that Toby Keith was talking about. 7 years ago today. It was on a Tuesday. Do you remember? At school we had just got set in. Said the pledge, and we had just started our work. Less than an hour later we were attacked. I remember every male in my 3rd grade class said we should kill all of the people who did this. (except in a 3rd grade way of course). We listened to "God Bless the USA" over and over and over. Our principal's name was Dr. Tharpe, my teacher was Mrs. Call. We didn't understand much, just that we were attacked and many killed. 2,974 people, another 24 missing and presumed dead. Now tell me that, that 2,998 people is not something to get angry about. Tell those families that. Tell the men's families who have died in this war that. Tell their kids who never got to see them that. It won't go over too well. So while you are using your right that they protect by speaking out against the war, our president, or our military. Just remember the 1,315,237 people that have died in the past to protect you and earn freedom. This is Courtesy of the Red White and Blue by Toby Keith.

*note should be listened to while shouting loudly in a county accent.  

I can't repeat the words I dare not say. 

I want to love you but I don't know they way...

Ha that rhymed.

It is just I don't have the time...ed

no no no.

Why can't I say what is obviously true.  

Do not ask what is wrong. Confront me.

With us nothing ever is.  

It never had to do with any of that.

Hanzel is the name of my cat.

It is not that I wanna be right, I just don't wanna be left.

Dirty liberals.

When will the scars from my fights be battle scars?  

Mirrors are fake because they show the outside you.

And no it has nothing to do with your shoe.

Everyone is always saying life is short.

Then why do you hold back so much?

How much must I bleed to have bled?  

Should you really live for the moment or the long term?

My father would be proud of me? Don’t bring him into this.

Just simply you and me.

I think all of that mess is people on myspace trying to write love poems.

Is it a love poem if it is about you, my love?

Or is it a love poem because it is about love?

I was once told by a person that whatever decision I made they would stand behind me.

Now that I did what they wanted me to. Where did they go?

He is like the crap on my boot, it doesn’t phase me.

What to do when you have stalled your car,

and no one has jumper cables.

But aren't we all driving this car, called life man? -That 70's Show.

I can take the hit but thinking about the bruise makes me flinch.

Sis pacis , instruo pro bellum. 

I will fight if you give me something worth fighting for.

This is the story of a girl who cried a river and drowned the whole world.

What about everything I am missing?

What about everything I will miss?

What about her?

What happens then? 

Where will you be in the end?

Will you stand or bend?

Kill me and I will rise to raise revenge.

Offer me surrender and I will fight harder till you beg for it.

 Trying to find the perfect ending.

Either way it will end with one of 3 ways so why not all three?

?

!

. 

I can't repeat the words I dare not say. 

I want to love you but I don't know they way...

Ha that rhymed.

It is just I don't have the time...ed

no no no.

Why can't I say what is obviously true.  

Do not ask what is wrong. Confront me.

With us nothing ever is.  

It never had to do with any of that.

Hanzel is the name of my cat.

It is not that I wanna be right, I just don't wanna be left.

Dirty liberals.

When will the scars from my fights be battle scars?  

Mirrors are fake because they show the outside you.

And no it has nothing to do with your shoe.

Everyone is always saying life is short.

Then why do you hold back so much?

How much must I bleed to have bled?  

Should you really live for the moment or the long term?

I think all of that mess is people on myspace trying to write love poems.

Is it a love poem if it is about you, my love?

Or is it a love poem because it is about love?

I was once told by a person that whatever decision I made they would stand behind me.

Now that I did what they wanted me to where do I go?

What to do when you have stalled your car,

and no one has jumper cables.

But aren't we all driving this car, called life man? -That 70's Show.

I can take the hit but thinking about the bruise makes me flinch.

Sis pacis , instruo pro bellum. 

I will fight if you give me something worth fighting for.

This is the story of a girl who cried a river and drowned the whole world.

What about everything I am missing?

What about everything I will miss?

What about her?

What happens then? 

Where will you be in the end?

Will you stand or bend?

Kill me and I will rise to raise revenge.

Offer me surrender and I will fight harder till you beg for it.

Trying to find the perfect ending.

Either way it will end with one of 3 ways so why not all three?

?

!

. 

I've screamed a thousand times.

Neither is really better,

Neither are really fine.

I've begged to have you back.

I want to see you again.

but I am left with is this simple fact,

I know I cannot win.

I wrote all of the letters.

I sealed them up to go.

The sooner the better,

but when they reach you, no one really knows.

I can't do it. I can't continue. I was never really good. I just want to tell you how I feel be straight up genuine and real. I can't bring myself to put them in the mail box, though. I do not want to ruin this. Then again I really want to know: would things be different? would the miles change a thing? would you say the same to me? or would you just let me go?  

If you must whine, then whine only about what you are willing to change

If you must lie, then lie only to your enemy. 

If you must swing, then swing only at the one that deserves it.

If you must lead, then lead only in the right direction. 

If you must inspire, then inspire to do the right thing.

If you must do the wrong thing, the do it in such a way that no one may question your motives.

If you must drink, then drink, but know when enough is enough. If you must kill, then kill only what you have created.

If you must survive, then survive and nothing more.

And Love, if you must love, then in that love, love not to fight, and do not whine, never lie to her, only at those who oppose that love, lead never in the wrong direction, inspire a deep understanding of relationship, love to only do what is right, drink never in spite of that love, and never ever try to kill what you have created in love, let it survive.  

Oh, and just be real.  

     Rebelion becomes duty.   

This is one of the best quotes I have ever heard. I am not excatly sure who said it. I know many poeple did in many different ways. But my question to you is: "When the guns are drawn and sides are choosen where will you be?" Will you still be pretending it won't happen? Will you hide behind your family or faith? Orwill we stand together in the front. 

I often think about the effect of one of my decisions I have made in the past and wonder what if I had just said no, or what if I had said yes earlier. I can see the way so manythings would be different and I can see the futer obviously not THE FUTURE but like you know? It is almost scary to even think about that to think about giving yoruself that kind of power.   

    we were fine.

It was never about timing 

    it always seemed perfect. 

It was never about who I was with

    I always prayed it was you.

It was never about communication

    we could never seem to stop talking.

It was never about God

    we were both in the right place.

It was never about love

    we always seemed to have enough. 

What was it?  What keeps me from running to you?

It must be the distance

    even though you have always been in the same place in my heart     and soul. 

    "Your best? Your best? Losers always complain about their best. Winners go home and..." ...dance with the prom queen. 

To all you whyners out there including me. Don't do it. It won't help anything.