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boys will be boys

brandi gates — Tue, 10 Oct 2006 11:35:56 -0500

hey guys have blogged in along time imiss you guys especially all my high school grads but i need to vent so here it goes.....

I lost the only guy i ever truly loved to another gir; my heart fills like a hole I don't like it we talked for a while about it and im not mad at him but i guess we could never be. I don't think i will ever find the right guy for me. I think i was made to be alone the boys see me as friends the girl who can kick thier butt in football or any sport at that matter but none of them are even close to liking me as more than a sports buddy. man i wish i acted more like a girl sometimes.....

brandi gates — Mon, 24 Apr 2006 09:09:29 -0500

I keep this paint brush with me,

wherever I may go,

In case I need to cover up

so the real me dosen't show.

I'm so afraid to show you me,

Afraid of what you'll do-that

you might laugh or say mean things.

I'm afraid I might lose you.

I'd like to remove all my paint coats

to show you the real, true me,

But i want you to try to understand,

I need you to accept what you see.

So if you'll be patient and close your eyes,

I'll strip off all my coats real slow.

Please understand how much it hurts

to let the real me show.

Now all my coats are stripped off.

I feel naked, bare and cold,

And if you still love me with all that you see,

you are my friend, pure as gold.

I need to save my paintbrush, though,

and hold it in my hand,

I want to keep it handy

In case someone dosen't understand .

So please protect me, my dear friend

and thanks for loving me true

But please let me keep my paint brush with me

until i love me, too.

brandi gates — Mon, 24 Apr 2006 08:51:59 -0500

Life isn't about keeping score. Its not about how many people call you and its not about who you've dated, or are dating or haven't dated at all. It isn't about who you kissed, what sport you play, or which guy or girl likes you. Its not about your shoes or your hair or the color of your skin or where you live or go to school. In Fact, Its not about grades, money, clothes, or colleges that accept you or not. Life isn't about if you have lots of friends, or if you are alone, and its not about how accepted or unaccepted you are. Life just isn't about that . But life is about who you love and who you hurt. Its about how you feel about yourself. Its about trust, happiness, and compassion. Its about sticking up for your friends and replacing inner hate with love. life is about avoiding jealousy,overcoming ignorance and building confidence. Its about what you say and what you mean. Its about seeing people for who they are and not what they have. Most of all, its about hoosing to use your life to touch someone elses in a way that could never have been achieved otherwise, these choices are what lifes about.

brandi gates — Fri, 21 Apr 2006 09:21:40 -0500

Today I woke up and looked in the mirror and saw a person that I had never seen before, someone who is beggining to grow and becoming something actually worth being when I hit walls i find the key and walk through instead of letting them get me down.....when I can't sleep I listen in the silence to gods voice telling me what I need to do. I pray more, I love more, I am me more and no matter what anyone else does that can't take that away, I admit that I struggle alot with many things but have found that if you place it in gods hands it will be ok......if you let him lead you will never want to leave because the peace that you feel when he is around is unmistakably awesome. He is the only one that can take away your pain and calm the storms that crash around you and when you are down and theres no one to talk to he there. he hears your voice even in the tinest whisper he knows how you hurt he sees what you are going through. he cares so why don't we just place our problems in his hands?

brandi gates — Thu, 20 Apr 2006 09:21:03 -0500

Life is a bottomless pit it sucks you in and keeps pulling and pulling till you have no strength left to fight, no love left to give, no light lsft at the end of the tunnel because it burnt out when you gave up....on everything...theres nothing left to hide cause everyone knows nothing to be scared of cause everything that can hurt you has. You see your friends slowly becoming just like you and you try to do evrything you can to help them but you are so far away you can hear them but you can't reach them. what do you do?

brandi gates — Thu, 20 Apr 2006 09:20:36 -0500

The rain is my high!

brandi gates — Wed, 19 Apr 2006 11:17:04 -0500

I love the rain!!!

Today is the best I walked out of my house this morning and sat on my porch drinking coffee and watching the rain. It is so awesome its like it just cleans the earth like nothing else can. I enjoy just watching it as much as I like running out and just standing in it. I like hearing the thunder and watching the lightning when i go outside. The rain is so awesome!!!!

Who am I?

brandi gates — Wed, 19 Apr 2006 09:10:06 -0500

I love this song, cause it explains just how much god loves if only we could see that its like this song is looking at gods grace.It remeinds me when I want to give up that god is there.

Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the Bright and Morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You're

Chorus:
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours

Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me

I am Yours
Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
'Cause I am Yours
I am Yours

brandi gates — Tue, 18 Apr 2006 09:11:37 -0500

I am losing my mind, i feel so crazy I am not the person I was a year ago so much has changed I work alot and am more responsible I am not the fun person I used to be even though it is probably for the better cause I look at the world different now there is so much to see I just wish i had found that out earlier it would have made life so much easier but I have changed......alot....some good ways some bad I have grown closer to god but I have a more critical look on the world. But some things were ment to be we all have to grow up sometimes right?

brandi gates — Mon, 17 Apr 2006 09:47:02 -0500

It isn't where you come from......Its where you are going that counts!!!

brandi gates — Mon, 17 Apr 2006 08:49:56 -0500

I wish I was someone else anyone else, everything is coming at me at once but I can handle it. God is the only thing keeping me sane right now I finally realized we are fighting something real, something so real that people ignore but very soon we won't be able to ignore it anymore because we have let invade our churches, youth groups, homes. everything our only answer is prayer thats the only way to handle these things we are dealing with. we need to intercede and get god back into our lives instead of trying to push him out tof the world he created. where are we? why are the christians hiding behind the word religon instead of speaking out? why are we afraid of what god has placed inside of us? where is the passion he placed inside of us?

brandi gates — Wed, 12 Apr 2006 09:58:23 -0500

So today is communion at church I am always nervous when it gets near this time cause I am never sure if I am ready for it or if I am where I need to be to take it. but this time I think I am ready for it god has helped me grow alot latley, I mean sometimes I look back and the things I think I needed I no longer need I am stronger than that now, and some of the people I hung around with I don;t want to be around anymore cause all they do is drag me down alot of doors are shutting themselves and chapters are being turned but I am changing to and as I change doors are opening to and the future is beginning to come clear.

brandi gates — Tue, 11 Apr 2006 13:47:57 -0500

happy birthday

   trish!!!!!

brandi gates — Tue, 11 Apr 2006 09:58:28 -0500

I am so happy Sunday was the most amazing day of my life.......since sunday god has been doing some amazing things in mt life.......I got my love back for god he was all I really needed i wish that i had seen that a long time ago so i would not have had to figure it out the hard way but sometimes thats the only way. And the trials he put me through were not to hurt me as i once thought but to make me grow. every morning when i wake up and pray god let me have a closer walk with you let me be a witness to my friends, lord use me as a vessel, it may be broken but it is still useable......god is so wonderful and i want the world to know but some people still fight, still run, god is there to love you not hurt you. I don't know but since sunday have felt this amazing peace around me something i haven't felt in a lonnnnng time.I can finally sleep and in the stillness listen to gods voice instead of trying to hide.I can love again and let people i pushed out of my life get closer,without the fear of getting hurt. And the youth choir did great(since i'm in it(lol) but the funny thing when we were practicing lindsay said brandi do you feel god she was like I do. and when we sang its like the youth group just broke lose like we didn't care if the rest of the church worshiped with us we needed that we have been stuggling so long and trying to hide it but god knew and he was there at the moment we needed it. My chains have finally fell of off and I feel so free. Now it is my turn to hold my friends up, to talk to them tilll two in the morning it is my turn to be an example. It is our youth groups turn to bring the roof down, it is time we worshipped like no one else had we are pentacostals for goodness sake we need to act like. God is our god why are we ashamed of that?He has shown us the power he holds in his hands and the power he has placed inside of us when he put the holy ghost in us.(and if anyone wants to know more about the holy ghost let me know i will be happy to share it with you) you will never know how much happiness the holy ghost gives you till you try it. You live like you never lived before.

trust me!

brandi gates — Mon, 10 Apr 2006 09:23:10 -0500

you never know what he did for you!!What Happened on the Cross
by John Damascene (c. 675-749) By nothing else except the cross of our Lord Jesus Christ has death been brought low:

The sin of our first parent destroyed,
hell plundered,
resurrection bestowed,

the power given us to despise the things of this world,

even death itself,

the road back to the former blessedness made smooth,

the gates of paradise opened,

our nature nature seated at the right hand of God,

and we made children and heirs of God.

By the cross all these things have been set aright...

It is a seal that the destroyer may not strike us,

a raising up of those who lie fallen,

a support for those who stand,

a staff for the infirm,

a crook for the shepherded,

a guide for the wandering,

a perfecting of the advanced,

salvation for soul and body,

a deflector of all evils,

a cause of all goods,

a destruction of sin,

a plant of resurrection,

and a tree of eternal life.

We venerate the cross as a safeguard of faith, as the strengthening of hope and the throne of love. It is the sign of mercy, the proof of forgiveness, the vehicle of grace and the banner of peace. We venerate the cross, because it has broken down our pride, shattered our envy, redeemed our sin and atoned for our punishment.

"The cross of Christ is the door to heaven, the key to paradise, the downfall of the devil, the uplifting of mankind, the consolation of our imprisonment, the prize for our freedom. The cross was the hope of the patriarchs, the promise of the prophets, the triumph of kings and the ministry of priests. Tyrants are convicted by the cross and the mighty ones defeated, it lifts up the miserable and honors the poor. The cross is the end of darkness, the spreading of light, the flight of death, the ship of life and the kingdom of salvation.

brandi gates — Mon, 10 Apr 2006 08:16:00 -0500

Ok, I think i finally figured it out (you can't live your life without god!!!) its not possible me and my dumb self tried to push god out of my life but i soon realized i couldn't do it on my own despite my friends pleadings with me to go back to god i didn't until last night when my knees hit that altar and i was like god i'm sorry, i swear i have never felt a peace like i did last night, god was there and i knew it, i mean maybe i didn't see him but there was no doubting that he was there.And the people i thought had left me where right there beside me praying with me. I could never explain what i felt but this time no mess ups god is my life i don't care if the entire world knows or makes fun of me cause of it they will need god one day and they will find their knees hitting the altar like i did last night, you will go no where without god but he will take you places you never imagined you could go.But from this day one god is leading me where he wants me to go not where i want to.

love you guys,

brandi

brandi gates — Thu, 06 Apr 2006 08:56:42 -0500

Have you wondered where everyone would be if you didn't exsist what would the world be like did you do something to affect the world did you change it when you were born?would the world be different?would it be better? Would your family be better I dunno i always wanted to know what it would be like if i never existed that the world would be better in some way. I know theres a reason i am here but i don't know why and i am afraid that i will die before i fullfill that purpose.

brandi

brandi gates — Wed, 05 Apr 2006 09:04:28 -0500

hey guys,

so anyways got in a fight with my mom last night and she took my cellphone :( not to happy a little pissed actually but she read all my texts and some weren't really that good(oops...)but I told her i was tired of my life and i was done with god i think i upset her but what can i do. Lifes life right? so mine is crazy right now mom didn't even get up this mornin and wake me up she usually does so I think she is mad but i told her I can't live my life for her anymore. I am going to live my life for me and not anyone else, not even god.

brandi gates — Tue, 04 Apr 2006 08:01:47 -0500

So i talked to my best friend last night he is so mad at me but what can i do i have looked for god everywhere but I can never find him.I look,I try,I pray(sometimes) but i can never find him,I told my associate pastor kevin about it and he asked me where i left him cause that was where i would find him but i never left him .......did i? anyways this is all so strange there has to be other ways to handle this........right? I am in a box in the middle of a room but the walls are high and there are no windows I can hear voices of my friends calling me but it seems I can't find my way out.......there is no door.what else can i do?

brandi gates — Mon, 03 Apr 2006 11:17:31 -0500

This song sounds so much like me but when i fall i need to put my trust in god instead of fighting this on my own i know that its to hard to let god intefere though.....

So easily I fall, So easily you reach your hand out,
Quickly will I drowned, Know the pulls of all my reason,
So easily will I feel, So easily will your peace surpass me,
Quickly will I trust, And anything I think is worthy,
How many times you make the ways come down,
So why be afraid now ?

CHORUS :
I saw you breaking my, breaking my fall,
What am I suppose to do ?
I saw you breaking my, breaking my fall,
What am I suppose to do ?
(What am I suppose to do?)

How precious are your thoughts ?
(How precious are your thoughts?)
And how many of them, you think about me,
Faithful are your ways,
I always feel your grace abound me,
Quickly will I call,
Quickly will you answer my cry,
Carefully will you bring, everything I need in my life,
How many of times you make the ways come down,
So why be afraid now ?

CHORUS :
I saw you breaking my, breaking my fall,
What am I suppose to do ?
I saw you breaking my, breaking my fall,
What am I suppose to do ?
(What am I suppose to do?)

This narrow road Im walking,
This world tries to draw,
Whoever will help me fight it,
But you wont face it all,

CHORUS :
I saw you breaking my, breaking my fall,
What am I suppose to do ?
I saw you breaking my, breaking my fall,
What am I suppose to do ?
(What am I suppose to do?)

brandi gates — Mon, 03 Apr 2006 08:03:30 -0500

lost......

alone......

confused....

does life get any worse?

brandi gates — Fri, 24 Mar 2006 08:13:35 -0600

yeah, the last day before spring break i am so exited cause i get to "sleep in" if McDonalds don't call at like 8:30 and make me come in. ok so what if there was no life only people no material things like makeup or jewlery or anything just people just existing to love. I think the world would be a better place because no one would be better than anyone else and they couldn't treat others bad because they were all the same. I mean because there are so many peole who judge and look down on others cause they don't have what others have they may not be as pretty or they may not have a lot of money but in my experience they usually turn out to be the coolest and best friends they don't turn there backs on u they don't judge you for the mistakes you made in the past. They don't talk about you, I mean don't you hate having friends who would turn on you in an instance they are so much better than you so they can talk like they now everything about you when all they see is the person you pretend to be around them . I dunno i think the world should focus on more than material things they won't last forever, but friendships will and the ones you make determine who you become so don't live your life to be popular hang out with the kids that aren't cool to, they may be the best friends of your entire life they will be the ones by your side when you get married of have kids everyone needs friends but don't look at the material things they have.

brandi

brandi gates — Fri, 24 Mar 2006 08:13:34 -0600

brandi

brandi gates — Thu, 23 Mar 2006 10:07:54 -0600

yeah!!!! I finally got my blog to work it was messed up for like an hour i almost died!!!(Lol) what if there were no days or night it was just like one big continued life i think that would be so cool. anyways so what if it was true that god was the only thing you really needed i thought that once but my life turned around and i'm not so sure anymore ya know i mean its like god just left me to fend for myself in the hardest time of my life. The time where i have to make the decision to follow god and the standards and morals of my church or just to put that all behind me and live for me and only me. I mean i did give god a chance over and over again but hes kinda like me in a way i am given chances and i just throw them away. I don't know anymore i have become someone so different in the last few months i am hurting the people who have always stood beside me but i guess its better to hurt than be hurt .........right? you never really can tell the wrong from the right anymore society has our minds so wrapped up that right seems wrong and wrong seems right. anyways this blog is way to long so i think i'll go before i spout of more well catch you guys laterz,

brandi

brandi gates — Wed, 22 Mar 2006 09:07:38 -0600

I am brandi

I love music

I am a rocker

I love the color black

And am trying to learn guitar

I am am loser

But am cooler than some

I don't claim to be perfect

because i have to many flaws

I don't want to die

But i don't want my life

I want to live for god

but i mess up far to much

I want to live my life for me

not for everyone else

I want to be different

cause the same isn't cool

Life is a soapbox

but only if you live it

I am a jesusfreak

but don't know how to reach him

I am lost

I am me

I am different

I am free

I hate material things

I love my friends

I hate pain

I am an airforce girl

I am strong

But i'm weak

I do hurt

But hurt others

I love unconditionally

I hate with no problem

I don't judge

so don't judge me

I have a past

I am alone

But sorrounded by friends

I am loved

but also hated

I'm am bound

never to be free

I am in love with a guy

who will never see

I wish i was free

cause all i can offer is me!

brandi gates — Tue, 21 Mar 2006 08:56:07 -0600

In the middle of my weakness thats where i find my strength......in the middle of my pain thats where i learn to love........In the middle of my hate thats where i learn to live and in my dreams thats where i hope to find these things cause they could never be real because in real life weakness=pain,pain=hurt,hate=death and all these things make up the people we are thats why we are dying........and life to us is just the norm thats why people are hurting and thats why we are dying alone.

brandi gates — Mon, 20 Mar 2006 08:12:12 -0600

Have you ever wondered how you could make life better or yourself for that matter................I have been trying for the last 3 years to make myself better or just to feel better.I can't seem to find the person i want to be............I'm just lost in a dream that can't happen because thats not who i am. I want people to see me for me and no one does that i don't want to have to hide me past because i'm afraid that people will judge me for it. I guess i'm just tired of being me and not being able to be free.I could never be good enough i'm not that strong i'm not good enough for god or anyone.I have no one to trust anymore everyone has left me i can't talk about my pain because i'm supposed to be strong,strong for me and everyone else..............I just don't know what to do anymore i'm lost in a place that has it grip tight around me.and it seems i will never be free not even god can help me.......right?

brandi gates — Fri, 17 Mar 2006 08:14:56 -0600

I hate st.patricks day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I told everyone today that i was not going to wear green i just said that if anyonhe pinches me i am going to slap them!!~!(so no pinches guys!!)anyways wore my hair down today got lazy this morning and decided not toput it up so i just stuck jell in it anyways..................so heres another poem for you what do you think still another unfinished i can't figure out what to say after the last line................hhhhhhhhhhhhhuuuuuuuuuuuuummmmmm.......

Im going away,

to a place in my dreams

a place where i can even be free

a place where my life

is filled with great things

cause only that life is found in my dreams.

so let me know what you think, i like to hear from u guys

brandi gates — Thu, 16 Mar 2006 09:25:40 -0600

So hows everyone?so last night at church we were talkin about different religons and my youth pastor said something that made me think he said you need to figure out who you are..........and i thought about it and was like i don't really know who i am or what i want from god or even what i am doing on this planet..........man life is screwed up.so anyways i am still trying to write but my poems are stuck ........still.........

one day i woke up and turned my head

i finally realized my life was finally dead

i suffocated the person in me

only i knew i could never be free

free from my past which haunted me in my dreams

free from the pain that surrounded me,

free from the life that.......................

i really wish i could finish these but even when i do i will go back and revise them and change life half of it?oh well will post more later

brandi gates — Wed, 15 Mar 2006 11:20:20 -0600

This is for justin!!!!!!What do you think!!!!!(Lol) I love you justin(hahhahahahahaha)

brandi gates — Wed, 15 Mar 2006 10:39:43 -0600

Im so happy we got to skip drivers ed.........again.......mr. johnson keep showing up late so he lets us go to the "market" or the gas station last time we went to mcdonalds....uggggghhhh.....i hate mcdonalds.anyways so what is everyone doing im bored so everyone share some stories with me so i can be unbored.......going to church tonight i love church get to talk to all my cool friends and ......jesus......jj anyways i am in physical science so i will write more laterr

brandi gates — Wed, 15 Mar 2006 09:27:51 -0600

some people have amazing talents i found these on the internet and was like omg this is awesome!!!!!!!

brandi gates — Wed, 15 Mar 2006 09:12:15 -0600

These verses are for all my friends who are struggling this show that you must have faith in god he will never let you down. it shows the power of faith the walls of jericho fell because of the faith of people. My friend kale told me to read hebrews chapter 11 when i was stuggling and it has showed me so much and gave me the faith that god is with me through it all.

¹Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.

³Through faith we understand that the worlds were framed by the word of God, so that things which are seen were not made of things which do appear.

⁴By faith Abel offered unto God a more excellent sacrifice than Cain, by which he obtained witness that he was righteous, God testifying of his gifts: and by it he being dead yet speaketh.

⁶But without faith it is impossible to please him: for he that cometh to God must believe that he is, and that he is a rewarder of them that diligently seek him.

²⁵Choosing rather to suffer affliction with the people of God, than to enjoy the pleasures of sin for a season;

³⁰By faith the walls of Jericho fell down, after they were compassed about seven days.

³⁹And these all, having obtained a good report through faith, received not the promise:

⁴⁰God having provided some better thing for us, that they without us should not be made perfect.

brandi gates — Wed, 15 Mar 2006 08:04:03 -0600

so..............................I don't really have anything new to post today i haven't finished my poems yet so i can't really post that......................hummmmmm.......anyways. Have you ever wondered who you really are i don't know I am struggling to find out who i am i have changed so much in the last year its like i can't seem to really be able to find myself anymore..........but i guess change is for the best......right?

brandi gates — Tue, 14 Mar 2006 11:25:38 -0600

I decided to put these verses in to show that u really have to trust god in all things bcause he is the only one that can bring you through....and sometimes god puts you through suffering to make you a vessel

¹⁰For it became him, for whom are all things, and by whom are all things, in bringing many sons unto glory, to make the captain of their salvation perfect through sufferings.

¹³And again, I will put my trust in him. And again, Behold I and the children which God hath given me.

¹⁵And deliver them who through fear of death were all their lifetime subject to bondage.

¹⁸For in that he himself hath suffered being tempted, he is able to succour them that are tempted.

brandi gates — Tue, 14 Mar 2006 09:11:43 -0600

I found this poem on the internet and it really caught my attention i thought i would share it with you guys:

Darkness surrounds me.
I cannot see the light
At the end of the tunnel.
And so I try to fight.
The more I try to fight,
The more I seem to fail.
Hope seems so distant...
So thin... So frail...
I cannot make it.
I know that it's true.
Despair is all I feel.
I know not what to do.
Now I see beside me,
A sad looking man.
He's reaching out to me,
With his nail-scarred hands.

He seems to know
My sorrow and my pain.
He seems to know,
What road I have ta'en.
But how can he know?
How can it be?
How could he hear?
How could he see?
How can he possibly
Know or understand,
This sad man,
With nail-scarred hands.

I can't ignore him.
I must give in.
I know, by myself,
I cannot win.
This man will keep me
From many harms.
So I reach out to him,
WIth open arms.
He will help me.
I know that it's true.
I know he knows
Exactly what to do.
He holds me close
And now I understand,
This happy man,
With nail-scarred hands.

I've been thru the tunnel,
And now see the light.
Now I see so clearly,
That my descision was right.
I did not do it
On my own.
He helped me find
My way home.
He hsa helped me
In my life.
He has taken
My pain and strife.
I gave in
To a winderful man
That reached out to me,
With nail-scarred hands.

I dunno this poem almost made me cry and knowing me i don't like to cry but it shows gods love and how hes always there it is so amazing!!!!!!!!1

brandi gates — Mon, 13 Mar 2006 09:26:01 -0600

Each day is full of curveballs and soul-searching, but out of our most vulnerable and defenseless periods often come the most valuable lessons of character, spiritual sharpening and insight to the questions that weigh heavy on our hearts

I think this shows that maybe sometimes god puts us through stuff to help us learn and grow...........what do u think?

deep inside of me!!

brandi gates — Mon, 13 Mar 2006 09:09:57 -0600

monday again........that means 1 more week till ...................

spring break.......................

i'm excited i get to sleep in all week hells yes anyways I am stuck in the middle of being a teenager and an adult i don't know what to do with life anymore everyone wants me to be a leader and to be an adult, but i don't think i'm ready for that step yet..........but anyways church was awesome last night we have a visiting preacher from michigan his name was Rich Strawcutter he was awesome. I wish he could have stayed longer i always enjoy people like that. so i started writing this poem but couldn't finish what do you think?

theres this lonley feeling

deep inside of me

no one to fill this gap

no one to hear my pleas

I tried to ask god for his help

its like he never knew

the broken pieces of my life

could never be renewed.............

writers block i wrote this poem and heres where i stop, cause this poem is me and maybe the reason i can't finish is cause i haven't found a way to fill that hole.

brandi gates — Thu, 09 Mar 2006 11:06:05 -0600

I read thiss sign in my teachers classroom it really made me think so i wanted to share it with u guys it said:

you are not a failure if you have weaknesses you fail by giving into them.

....................think about it.....................................

so anyways still writin poetry i've had writers block but i'm begginning to get my ideas back.............i dunno that happens sometimes......but i have this one poem no matter how hard i try the right words never seem to come out and i can't make my oems what i really want them to be....................the only time i can write is when i'm sad,its then when my poems start to shine.

brandi

brandi gates — Thu, 09 Mar 2006 09:12:01 -0600

yes..................no school tommorow i am so syched!!!! anyways i am incredibly happy today!!hum.......thats wierd oh umm i think i have finally got over the boring unexciting part of being single, until i find a guy i don't care......i'll be happy alone who needs boys to make you happy anyways....well me....(lol) anyways i saw the coolest guitar today i so feel in the big L word.......love.....it was the coolest thing ever. ummmmumumumumummum...........i love my church we have some really cool people there like last night i went and was all just walkin around and saw brian and he was all like hey you wanna talk and i din't even say anything it was like he just knew.......kinda creepy, but anyways it felt good to have someone to talk to again and someone to trust........it makes me happy to see there really r cool people still left in the world.....not much more to write so i will catch u guys laterz,

brandi

brandi gates — Wed, 08 Mar 2006 11:09:04 -0600

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brandi gates — Wed, 08 Mar 2006 09:18:42 -0600

oh wait.....i forgot one thing in my last post i think i am in like with this guy i am not going to say the big L word cause in my dictionary thats a cuss word....i just wish he could really see me i mean he looks at me but never really sees me man that sounds so wierd but i could never have him hes in love with someone else i would never b good enough. oh well i've learned better than to get to close people aren't good enough anymore all they care about is theirselves so this world is on a downwardspiral and its taking us all in..............hummmmmmm think about it....