Grace 's PhuseBox

random writing.

Grace — Fri, 02 Jan 2009 22:39:14 -0600

just feel like writing.

Some people cry for no reason.

Some people smile because they feel like it.

Some people love with all their heart.

Some people hate for fear of love and pain.

Some people run away from their fears.

Some people face their fears.

Some people miss others.

Some people never get close enough to miss someone.

*****

he sees her from a far, he can see her beauty from a distance. He can see her laugh and remembers how he used to love hearing her laugh. He looks away in fear she will catch him watching and wishing to have her back. But he cant help himself for he finds himself watching her goof off with her friends.

she looks up and locks eyes with him. (all the while laughing) her laughter stopped but niether of them looked away. His thoughts along the lines of how badly he messed up with letting her go. and her thoughts along the lines of how much it hurt when he pushed her away but how much she misses him still.

he looks away and she realiZes who he was talking to..a bunch of little girls. her heart sank, because for a moment she thought maybe just maybe he still liked her. what she didn't know was he was deeply in love with her but he was to scared to hurt her perfectly amaZing heart again. he didn't trust himself to keep her safe so he stayed away in hopes to keep her safe.

random, i'm just really bored.

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Grace — Thu, 11 Dec 2008 22:27:21 -0600

hey people. whats up? hows life?

Nothing much here..well there is alot but i know you people dont care so i'm not gonna write it all down. no point.

well i'm just gonna talk about today

...today was long and now it is time for me to sleep. but at the moment i'm just chilling, messing around on myspace, talking to steele, thinking about not wanting to wake up in the morning,i'm super freakin excited about the memphis trip!!!! we leave tomorrow afternoon! HECK YES!..and thats about it. yeah i know tonight is a real party for me. well hope you guys are doing well.

love ya.

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Grace — Sat, 29 Nov 2008 22:27:50 -0600

I'm bored and feeling like writing. I also feel like being heard.

Why do we help those that hurt us the most? Why do we lose ourselves in trying to help others find themself? Why do we have many many sleepless nights helping and praying for others when they dont do one small thing as say hey to you? Why do we love those who dont love us back?

Its because we know who they are. Its because we want the best for them even if they dont want it for us. Its because we see the light in their eyes even if they have yet to see it. Its because we know one day when their world comes crashing down they know they can come to us for help.

And that is why the way we are is the way we are.

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Grace — Tue, 18 Nov 2008 12:35:35 -0600

ha i got on her after not being on her for a few weeks and didn't read half the lovelyness you people wrote. lol sorry. anyhow i'm with carmen all the stuff we put on her these days is no fun, it doesn't make me LOL if you know what i mean. SO i felt i should say something random to lighten up the darkness...lets see....something random.....i think this is the first time i've blanked at something random to say...____ how sad is that! well sorry i couldn't help lighten up the darkness, maybe next time.

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Grace — Sat, 04 Oct 2008 12:43:03 -0500

ha love. its a joke..why cant we realiZe that..we are kids.

love..what is it?

where does it come from?

who is my love ment for?

What does it feel like?

yes we all have these questions.

BUT we dont need the answers

at least not yet.

you think, but you dont know.

Grace — Tue, 23 Sep 2008 10:35:09 -0500

you think you know me, but you dont

you think you can help me, but you cant

you think its gonna be okay, but your wrong

you think your better then me, but your not

RIP Caleb!

Grace — Sat, 20 Sep 2008 23:10:36 -0500

time is to short.

life can be taken in a matter of moments without worrning.

we can get a call in 2seconds that would change our whole world.

we laugh it up now but for a moment can we take in that one of our own has been taken. can we stop our busy lives that we are so wrapped up in and open our eyes to see that a life has been taken, a heart has stopped beating, air no longer flows through their body. can we realiZe that we will never look into his eyes again, that we will never hear his laugh, we will never see that bright and vibrant smile, we will never see him again (until heaven that is).for now the body as we know it is laying under the cold ground and his soul is in heaven.

lets all take a moment and realiZe we must be nicer people for we never know when someone will pass away. always say something kind to someone for what if when they walked away from you or hung up the phone and something happened and they were killed. how would you live with yourself if you had just said something mean, or hurting to them. think about it, life is short, not just for you but for everyone around you!

all this to say. LOVE people say LOVING things b/c we never know whats going to happen

Grace — Sun, 14 Sep 2008 16:10:17 -0500

something i put together

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Grace — Fri, 12 Sep 2008 10:59:35 -0500

stop laughing

...

that wasn't a joke.

please read this.

Grace — Tue, 09 Sep 2008 10:09:45 -0500

okay so i've been feeling like i cant do much for the word seeing i'm only 15 and not out of high school but i found Feed Just One on myspace and thought i'm sure i can get my friends to help me out to feed just one! all we have to do is buy a t-shirt or anything from their web sit and i know you guys spend up to $30 on clothes at A.E. or some high dollar place and you do the world no good, if you buy a $18 t-shirt from Feed Just One you can feed a starving child 100 meals.

Here is some info on Feed Just One. PLEASE just read this. i think we can do a lot of amaZing things...but sometimes we just have to start small. So yeah PLEASE read this and send it to your friends even if you cant buy anything.

Feed Just One is simply myself, Dallas Harris, and my friends doing everything we possibly can to make a difference in the world.

We don't have any corporate sponsors or any investors to fund our efforts. Everything we have done so far has been funded out of our own pockets and we have yet to make a single cent of profit for ourselves.

We want to let you know all of this because we want you to know that we are very much like you. We work, we go to school, we don't have a lot of money and we want to change the world.

We want to let you know that you can truly make a difference for as little as 4 cents a day or by simply buying one of our t-shirts.

Please seriously consider being a part of our little mission to change the world.
We can't do it without you!

its super freakin easy....

You can provide a meal to a starving child through Feed Just One for only 4 cents. We cover the shipping cost to get Feed My Starving Children's food to the people who need it. One meal a day costs just 28 cents a week, $1.20 a month or $14.60 a year.

by buying 1 t-shirt you will provide 100 meals and the publicity will bring another person to buy a t-shirt meaning another 100 meals...you get where i'm going with this!

i'm sending messages to all my friends hoping maybe just one of them will take the small step of buying a cool t-shirt to feed hungry children!
Feed Just One's myspace is

http://www. myspace. com/useyourcents

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Grace — Thu, 28 Aug 2008 20:09:47 -0500

seems like no one uses this anymore. well just thought i would tell the people that do use it...i hope you have a nide DAY!smile..alot!! and love Jesus no matter what comes your way TOday. (why do i say 'today'?....i want to make it clear that you should probably live in TOday, not tomorrow, not in a week, not in a month...but in TOday!!)well love you and hope to speak with you soon.

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Grace — Thu, 21 Aug 2008 20:22:14 -0500

Warrior - Nelly

a tight song.

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Grace — Sun, 10 Aug 2008 23:39:58 -0500

i'm bored and feel like writing.

seems to me that most humans write about life. How it sucks, how it rocks, how its sad or happy, its life you can say anything good or bad about it..its still life in the end.

seems to me we (as humans) are blinded by the bad b/c thats what we are taught to look at and focus on. We never hear about the good in the news, we hardly ever see people helping people in our day to day lives. And when i try to look at the good and listen for the happy, i'm put down and told to worry, or be scared of something. its stupid

Seems like everyone lives in the future, no one lives in the now. People are always worrying, alway wanting something to happen 'in the near future'! and i'm like STOP FREAKING ABOUT LATER AND LOOK AT WHATS IN FRONT OF YOU DANGIT! stop wishing for the "near future" whenever that is and work toward the NOW!!!!! Stop telling me you cant help but worry and stop making up reasons why I should worry! STOP ! living in the here and now is...no words can make you understand how much easier and how much more fun it is living in the now then living in the future.

Seems to me like no one will let happy be happy. they always have to find SOMETHING wrong, it can be the smallest thing and they will blow it up so they take your happiness. Why cant people leave well enough alone? Just let the happy be happy.

well thats my rant for the night.

peace

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Grace — Sat, 09 Aug 2008 00:08:43 -0500

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

tonight

Grace — Fri, 08 Aug 2008 23:37:40 -0500

You know that feeling you get when you just found out you've won the BIG game, the feeling you get when you see someone you've missed for so long, you know the feeling when you open Christmas presents, you know that feeling that rushes over you when you lock eyes with the one you like. You get where I'm going with this feelings thing right, the feeling that falls over you, that makes your heart stop, that makes you feel like your falling through the air and you've lost your stomach, and that just plain and simply takes your breath away. I felt that feeling when he rapped his arms around me, when he was just inches away. I felt so safe yet so scared, safe from the world but scared of my heart being broken b/c he held it in his strong hands. So warm yet so cold, warm on the inside b/c he was holding me, cold from the last person who held me and afraid this warmth wouldn't last. Scared that I would soon get cold like the last time when the last guy let go. I wasn't confused but my head was spinning.

Look what a simple hug can do. Yet he has no idea that such a simple thing had such a big impact.

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Grace — Thu, 17 Jul 2008 09:16:39 -0500

SHINE YOUR LIGHT AND LET THE WHOLE WORLD SEE

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Grace — Thu, 17 Jul 2008 09:12:52 -0500

its funny to watch people change. its funny to see how they like to push in your face they are more happy with out you then they were with you. its funny to sit back and think wow i put so much into them for so many years yet now they say they couldn't care less. its funny to feel forgotten and not needed.

its funny...laugh

Grace — Mon, 14 Jul 2008 22:02:15 -0500

i'm home!!! PARTY!!!!!! text or call me, i'm ready to get out and party with my peoples! Love and miss you guys

Rant+Whine+Thinking = Boredom

Grace — Thu, 03 Jul 2008 22:29:45 -0500

Okay so i'm super bored and you guys know what happens when i get super bored. But for those of you that dont know i will explain for you. When i get super bored i either

1~Rant about something

2~Whine about something

and or

3~Try to write something with meaning that might help you smile,laugh, or maybe even think a little.

I think today it will be alittle of all three, oh yeah i know its alot to handle but just bare with me here.

~*~RANT~*~

I hate when you wave at someone and they just look at you, Like i'm throwing them the bird or something! I'm like "what the heck, i'm just being nice." i dont need a death stare, i need a wave back. Or maybe even just a smile! I MEAN COME ON how hard is it to pick up your hand and wave back. If you can text and drive you can wave and drive...its not rockit science.

*^*WHINE*^*

Why is it that when your hurt and confused you dont want to tell people whats actually wrong, you just want to whine about it? I mean the other day i was so down, hurt, and sad..and the one guy that really cares about me wanted to know what was wrong b.c he couldn't stand to see me hurting and i wouldn't tell him what was wrong with me. Yeah in time he got it out of me but i was so..i guess scared to tell him. Scared he would laugh at my pain i guess, and when he didn't laugh and he just stood there listening to me and then i realiZed he really does care. Its not all a lie, he isn't faking just to get close use me and then run..he really cares. And that feeling was amaZing! YET i was so stupid not knowing if i just let him in he could change my world, change how i look at things...he could and does make me feel like his world!

*-*Thinking Time*-*

when people look at you, who do they see? Do they know your a Jesus Lover. Do they see understanding and caring. Do they think happy and laughter. What do they see????? You might want to look over yourself and make sure your putting out whats really you and not the fake crap that helps you fite in, makes you look cool, or whatever its called these days.

PEACE

Grace — Tue, 01 Jul 2008 21:47:47 -0500

laugh. its way fun. and play NewsPaper Football...its makes you laugh lol

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Grace — Sat, 28 Jun 2008 22:54:18 -0500

When Youre Gone - Avril Lavigne

BLAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Grace — Sat, 14 Jun 2008 23:35:47 -0500

...let me see your hips swing oh shhh...

lol sorry that song is stuck in my head. WHATS UP MY PEOPLE!? i'm bored.

Grace — Wed, 04 Jun 2008 22:45:56 -0500

Is it safe to laugh?

Grace — Sun, 01 Jun 2008 12:13:38 -0500

Amazing Because It Is - The Almost

SO! alots going on and i dont feel like telling you all about it.

But this song is amaZing and i love it.

bored.

Grace — Fri, 30 May 2008 23:12:49 -0500

Level 1:
[x]I had an asthma attack
[ ]Smoked A Cigarette
[ ]Smoked A Cigar
[ ]Smoked Weed
[ ] Kissed A Member Of The Same Sex
[] (small kine)]Drank Alcohol
[X]Been In Love
[x]Been Dumped
[ ]Been Fired
[]Been In A Fist Fight
[ ]Snuck Out Of A Parent's House
Total: 3

Level 2:
[X]Had Feelings For Someone Who Didn't Have Them Back
[ ]Been Arrested/Seen Someone You Know Get Arrested
[ ]Made Out With A Stranger
[ ]Gone Out On A Blind Date
[x]Had A Crush On An Older Person
[ ]Skipped School
[ ]Slept With A Co-worker
[x ]Seen Someone/Something Die
Total: 6

Level 3:
[] Been On A Plane
[ ] Thrown Up From Drinking
[X] Eaten Sushi
[ ] Been Snowboarding
[ ] Met Someone BECAUSE Of Myspace
[] Been Mosh Pitting
[x] Taken Pain Killers
[ x] Love(d) Someone Who You Can't Have
[ ] Been in a BAD relationship
Total: 9

Level 4:
[x]Laid On Your Back And Watched Cloud Shapes Go By
[x]Made A Snow Angel
[X]Had A Tea Party
[x]Flown A Kite
[x]Built A Sand Castle
[x]Gone Puddle Jumping
[x]Played Dress Up
[x]Made A Pile Of Leaves
[x]Gone Sledding
[x]Jumped Into A pile of leaves
[x]Cheated While Playing A Game
total: 20

Level 5:
[x]Been Lonely
[x]Fallen Asleep At Work/School
[ ]Used A Fake/Someone Else's ID
[x]Watched The Sun Set/sun rise
[ x]Felt An Earthquake
[ ]Kissed A Snake
[x]Been Tickled
[X]Been Robbed/Vandalized
[ ]Robbed Someone
[x]Been Misunderstood
total: 27

Level 6:
[X]Pet A Deer
[x]Won A Contest
[ ]Been Suspended
[ ]Had Detention
[ ]Been In A Car/Motorcycle Accident
[x]Had/Have Braces
[ ]Eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
[ ]Had deja vu
[ x]Danced in the moonlight
[x]Hate(d) The Way You Look
total: 32

Level 7:
[x]Witnessed A Crime
[x]Questioned Your Heart
[ ]Been obsessed with post-it-notes
[x]Squished Barefoot Through The Mud
[x]Been Lost
[ ]Been To The Opposite Side Of The World
[x]Swam In The Ocean
[ x]Felt Like You Were Dying
[x]Cried Yourself To Sleep
total: 39

Level 8:
[Xxxxxxxx]Played Cops And Robbers
[xxxxxxxxx]Recently Colored With Crayons/Colored Pencils/Markers
[x]Sang Karaoke
[x]Done Something You Told Yourself You Wouldn't
[x]Made Prank Phone Calls
[ ]Laughed until some kind of beverage came out your nose
[ ]Kissed In The Rain
[x]Written A Letter To Santa Claus
[]Been Kissed Under A Mistletoe

total: 45

Level 9:

[x ]Watched the sunset w/ someone you care/cared about
[x]Blown Bubbles
[]Made A Bonfire On The Beach
[ x]Crashed A Party
[ ]Have Traveled More Than 5 Days With A Car Full Of People
[x]Gone Rollerskating/Blading
[x]Had A Wish Come True
[ ]Been Humped By A Monkey
[x ]Worn Pearls
[ x]Jumped Off A Bridge
total: 52

Level 10:
[]Screamed 'Penis'
[ ]Swam With Dolphins
[x]Got your tongue stuck to a pole/freezer/ice cube/Popsicle
[ ]Kissed A Fish
[x]Worn The Opposite Sex's Clothes
[X]Sat On A Roof Top
[xxxxxxx]Screamed At The Top Of Your Lungs
[x]Done/ATTEMPTED A One-Handed Cartwheel
[ I'm not sure if it was 6hours. Tyler how long did we talk when you were waiting for your next flight back to Hawaii??? ]talked on the phone for more than 6 hours
[x]stayed Up All Night
total: 58

Level 11:
[X]Picked & Ate An Apple Right Off The Tree
[X]Climbed A Tree
[X]Had/Been In A Tree House
[x]Have been/Are scared To Watch Scary Movies alone
[ ]Seen a Ghost
[ ]Have/Had More Then 30 Pairs Of Shoes or Flip Flops
[ ]gone streaking
[]Been to/Visited Someone At Jail
[x]Played Chicken
[x(lillys party lol]Been Pushed Into A Pool With All Your Clothes On
total: 64
Level 12:

[x]Been Told You're Hot By A Complete Stranger
[]Broken A Bone
[x]Are/Been Easily Amused

[x]Caught A Fish
[x]Caught A Butterfly
[x]Laughed So Hard You Cried
[x]Cried So Hard You Laughed
[]Mooned/Flashed Someone
[x]had someone Moon/Flash You
total: 71

Level 13:

[]Cheated On A Test
[x]Forgotten Someone's Name
[]Slept Naked
[ x]French braided someones hair
[]Gone Skinny dipping In A pool
[ ]Been Kicked Out Of Your House.
[x]Rode A Roller Coaster
[x]Had A Cavity
total: 75

Level 14:

[ ]Been Used

[x]Fell Going Up The Stairs
[ ]Licked A Cat
[x]Bitten Someone
[x]Licked Someone
[X]Been shot at with a paint ball/bee bee gun(OW!)
[ ]Had sex in a field/garden
[ ]Flattened someones tires
[ ]Drove in a car until it ran out of gas
[x]Had five dollars or less and bought something.
total: 80

Final Total: 80 out of 140

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Grace — Sat, 24 May 2008 14:47:50 -0500

Two names you go by:
1.Grace

2.Chico ... lol

Two things you are wearing right now:
1.Black TENNESSEE shirt

2.My favorite tan shorts.

Two things you want very badly at the moment:
1.Someone to lean on and talk to

2.Some cake!

Two people who will fill this out:
1.Seeing Carmen already did it..

2...no one

Two things you did last night:
1. Went to two graduations. Its was WAY fun :P

2. Texted

Two things you ate Yesterday:

1. CAKE :)

2. ...i dont remeber anything else lol

Two people you last talked to:

1. Seth

2. Sam

Two things you're doing today:
1. Going to some thing with Carmen

2. Texting..like always :P

Two longest car rides:
1. Michigan

2. IDK

Two favorite beverages:
1.Water

2. Coffee

tight song and some thoughts i have.

Grace — Wed, 21 May 2008 22:55:21 -0500

My Beautiful Rescue - This Providence

i need to type. i need to let it out. i need to say what i need to say here so i dont let it out in a place i shouldn't or a time i should be silent.

People change, i get this, i'm not stupid. But why is it that i see they are changing and hate it yet they cant see it and could care less. I myself am changing, i'm growing and pushing through, and in a way that kinda scars me. I'm scared i'm gona be the kid that someone sees changing and hates it and they think i could care less. I dont think i'm changing for the worse. Let me list the ways i have changed and you tell me if its bad or not.

1~ i've come to realize, MOST (not all but most) guys are scum. And the ones that aren't....dont seem to want to just be friends.

2~ I've come to find that dating is not for me at this moment in time. I want to be a kid as long as i can and dating is one more thing that makes me grow up. I'll worry about that when it matters and is really and truly dating b.c these days kids think going to the movies and eating fast food is a date..haha sorry to crush you kids but thats not even close haha

3~ I find that i'm a Jesus Lovers....i dont like being called a Christian just b/c of the bad name it has gotten. And i have seen many people that CALL them selves 'Christians' and act....in a way i know Jesus wouldn't smile about. SO i call myself a Jesus Lover :) And its fun :P

yeah the list kinda stops there..lol i guess i haven't changed or grown much but it is pretty amaZing to me that i figured all this out clear as day in a matter of 2 weeks i think it was :) So yeah it makes me happy...and i've been so happy lately...except when i see some people but yeah its been pretty good :)
Love you guys :)

tight song and a question.

Grace — Sat, 17 May 2008 23:00:15 -0500

I have a question. And please answer me.

What if you fall for someone that you have no chance with but you cant help yourself?

You guys know me. I'm not the kinda girl that falls for just anyone, now i might trip up a few times but never fall. I know i need to stand on my own two feet and i am....but i cant help but fall wishing he would catch me....

Grace — Fri, 16 May 2008 14:29:16 -0500

i dont know the guy this is in memory of but its a tight song. its what i wish i had with my "dad".

hey hey hey

Grace — Thu, 15 May 2008 21:09:05 -0500

WoW. Me life has been amaZingly amaZing! its really nice. Yeah there have been times i wanted to scream at a few people but thats normal (come on we are all human you cant lie and say you never wanted to scream at people. Even if it is the stupid people driving these days lol)

I've been busy but with things i enjoy and want to do :) so thats good, and school is pretty much out for me :) YAAaaaaAAA. What else is there....nothing really.

OH this summer is going to be all time!i have so much to do but its all for Jesus so its all good :P lol
I gots to go but text me if you want to hang out sometime :) :)

love ya

randomness

Grace — Thu, 08 May 2008 20:18:31 -0500

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Grace — Mon, 05 May 2008 15:16:14 -0500

period 1: Bible
period 2: Biology
period 3: Literature
period 4: Spanish
period 5: Algebra
period 6: Art
period 7: Nothing

People You Mostly Talked To During:
Uhmm seeing i'm homeschooled...i would have to be talking to myself..
SO i dont talk to anyone during anything lol
period 1:
period 2:
period 3:
period 4:
period 5:
period 6:
period 7:

Random Questions:

Who was your favorite teacher?
Seeing i am my own teach i would have to say...ME

Who annoyed you most during 3rd period?
Uhmm i'm the only on in the class..

Who did you sit with at lunch?
Seth, sometimes Scooter if he is home....

Are you most likely to fall asleep or not pay attention?
I fall asleep all the time, but when i wake up i start right back up
where i left off.

Which class did you get the most homework?
they are pretty much the same

Which class were you the most hyper?
Probably Art

What was your favorite class?
Literature

Do you like lunch?
Yeah, its food..so its good

Do you like going to school?
I dont GO anywhere but its not that bad i suppose

Who sits behind you in Period 3?
no one.

How many kids are in your Period 2?
uhmmm one

What teacher do you dislike the most?
seeing i am the ONLY teach and i dont really 'dislike' myself...i like
my teacher

Can you talk in your 3rd period?
I can talk whenever i want to

Who sits next to you in 5th period?
..sometimes my cat......

Who sits in front of you in 6th?
....no one....

Summarize your year in three words?
oh so boring

What do you hope next year is gonna be like?
More fun

What do you hope will change next year?
I dont know.

Untitled

Grace — Sun, 04 May 2008 16:41:16 -0500

Ha Ha Ha so i've made some new friends and i've grown closer to Christ. Life sucks but then its amaZing. And you know what sucks the most...my past with guys. Its like if i had never gone out with Tyler nor Charlie my life would be amaZing right now, but i wouldn't have had such a great past. Its a bitter sweet thing. BUT anyway, every where i turn someone is talking about Charlie or i see him and he looks at me like he has never met me. Or i'll hear Tyler and I's song from when we were going out or i'll be some where and remember Tyler and i did something stupid there or something like that. BUT then there is my good friend Carmen to cheer me up :P lol but dude i'm made some new friends and its tight! There is BestFriend (Kasey, ha there are no words for Kasey. LoL he is just a really fun guy friend..and its fun to hang out with him, he doesn't make it were i have to like like him or he isn't gona talk to me..he just wants to have fun like me!) BoB Dillon (Dillon, he is..more of Carmens friend then mine but he is cool to hang out with) Zooey (Zooey, i'm just getting to know her but she is pretty nifty.) Matty (Matt, he is pretty much like Kasey...just more hoish. lol Carmen will know what i mean by that.)

ANYWAYS..all this to say, i'm starting to fit in, starting to get where when i'm hit i get right back up! its kinda nice!

Well love you guys :)

randomness

Grace — Thu, 01 May 2008 13:34:29 -0500

lol its random but fun.

!!! :) !!!

Grace — Tue, 29 Apr 2008 20:46:11 -0500

Hey,

Okay so this 'post' wont be as long as my last one but i just wanted to stop in and talk for a minute. so here it goes...

Jesus has proven i'm weak! in more ways then one! And i think thats just what i needed. I needed to know i'm weak, i cant win this on my own, i cant fight this fight...who am i kidding, i swing but Gods doing the real fighting, He just lets me think i'm actually doing something.

I cant wait to go to church tomorrow, not only to prove that i can do this with Christ and Christ alone but i want to be face my hurts..i wanted to be faced with the person that has crused me time and time again to let him know i'm better then that. I'm hyped to stand for Christ and say "you cant run from him! You cant leave Him and make it"...You dont really know who i'm talking about ... well Carmen does, but anyway...i'm hyped to be on fire for Christ again. I know i know in my last post it was sad and stupid but today is a new day, and i like that!

Love you guys and hope your having an amaZing day!! :)

Smile For Me!

tight song

Grace — Mon, 28 Apr 2008 11:15:21 -0500

it makes me smile :P

long

Grace — Fri, 25 Apr 2008 20:51:01 -0500

Hey Hey Hey. Its been a while. Life has been nothing but ups and downs, and i can never see dead ahead. Times flys then slows to a crawl. I stand then i get pushed to the ground. I reach out for help and get slapped with more problems from all sides. I open my eyes in hope to see something but get blinded by the light that needs me no where.

I know i usually whine on phusebox then say how amaZing life is on MySpace, but i guess i try to be all hype and happy for most people but on here i could care less what you think of me. Seth tells me all the time to be who you are, it doesn't matter what people say. But words always hurt, no matter if they are in love or not.

Ha i'm just gona lay it out there for you and i know most of you wont even read this. No one gets on here anymore, and no cares anymore so what does it matter right.

Life...oh life in itself sucks beyond words. I know i've been through little compared to..say Tyler. He moved away from all he knew and all he wanted. But look at him now, he is a whole new person (not saying it was for the better) he likes where he is and wants to wake up in the morning, he thinks nothing he does is wrong and finds joy. I know my life is way easy and that i should suck it up and move on. But after sucking it up year after year and having to keep pushing through and helping others...really gets to you and brings you down after a while.

Like for once i found real joy again since the whole thing with Tyler. I was super happy and people could tell, my smile wasn't just a face i was wearing, i felt happy! i missed that and i was getting back into the happniess and joy and loved every minute of it. But all that came crashing down in one night, in a matter of minutes. My smile fall like a ton of breaks and i could feel the heavy sadness and hurt fall over me. I reached for help by was turned down with a smile. Why does this always seem to happen???? Why is it that everyone gets their lives right and happy while mine falls and crashes to dust that everyone seems to walk all over. And when my life is hype and happy everyone else is crashing and me being me trys to help and that just brings me crashing down with them. This sucks!!!

I guess all i can do is keep my head up, look forward, stand tall, and keep moving. I'm not gona give up after all i've been through, theres got to be more then this. Theres got to be! I'm gona fight this, i'm gona win this!

:(

Grace — Sat, 05 Apr 2008 21:59:14 -0600

Hey, well life changed today. It changes every day but i didn't see this coming AT ALL. Its funny how when you get happy and find a place you are smiling with 100% joy, something goes wrong and you cry 100% sadness. I guess i'm not truly laughing about it now but i know i will soon. Tomorrow is gona be really hard for me, i'm gona have to start faking again. I've faked for so long, i got to a place were i didn't have to fake it anymore..and now i have to go back to my old ways.

(sigh) life goes on. I have to suck it up and move on. There is no time to vent,cry,fight,yell, or scream. I have to move on and get my life back. Its in the hands of all my friends,guys,working,horses..i need my life back!!!!

hey hey hey

Grace — Thu, 03 Apr 2008 14:01:17 -0600

HEY!!!

hows it going? i never get on here anymore. Well i'm going through my ups and downs, its been really good lately actually. I'm trying to stay strong for a few people i really care about but its freakishly hard for me with one of them. Ha its like watching a sad lovestroy. No lie you could trun my life into a sad lovestroy. Its kinda funny. BUT at the moment i'm SO SO SO SO happy with where i am, i have some friends, someone that makes me smile, i'm getting closer to Christ, and laughing! so its good AT THE MOMENT. Well whats new with you guys?

fun not

Grace — Wed, 26 Mar 2008 15:02:59 -0600

guilty: you do
innocent: you don't

Singing in the shower?: Guilty

Left the stove on?: Guilty

Ate Stale food?: Guilty

Spit in someone's Drink?: Innocent (that would be rather nasty)

Stole Something from a friend?: Not so much stoll but i'll take a T-Shirt and forget i have it :P

Played with Barbies?: Innocent

Kissed your posters of your favorite stars?: Innocent

Listened to stupid music and said you like it?: Guilty

Made someone cry?: Guilty

Opened your Christmas presents early? Innocent

Found money, and didn't turn it in?: Guilty

Gave money to a homeless person?: Innocent..i never have money to give.

Thought "Star Wars" was cool?: Guilty..haha

Had a super-hero costume?: Ha Ha Guilty! Ha Ha

Lied to protect a friend?: Guilty, i'm not happy i did but i have in the past

Broken a bone?: innocent, Pooch E. A and i were talking about that the other day :P

Seen "The Goonies" more than 10 times?: Innocent..i have no idea what "The Goonies" is...

Played a Computer game for more than 5 hours?: innocent

Dyed your hair a color from the rainbow?:innocent but that would be fun :P

Hugged your mom in the past 24 hours?: Innocent

...Have you Ever...

Ran through the sprinklers?: Guilty! its oh so much fun

Ran through the sprinklers naked?: not that fun! lol innocent

Went outside naked?: who would do that? innocent

Flashed somebody?: innocent but i have been flashed

Mooned somebody?: innocent yet again i have been mooned

Been on stage?: Guilty

been on stage naked or close to it?: ha who makes up these questions??

innocent

Been in a parade?: Guilty

Been in a school play?: Innocent

Drank beer?: Innocent

Went to work/school with a hangover?: oh you know me partying it up :P

Innocent

Gotten detention?: innocent ha i'm homeschooled:P

Gotten expelled?: innocent again i say i'm homeschooed

Been on a plane?: Innocent

Been on a cruise?: Innocent, i'm so hot on big bodies of water

Traveled out of the country?: Innocent

Liked somebody you could never have?: Guilty :(

Liked a friend's boyfriend/girlfriend?: Innocent

Cheated on a test?: Innocent

Broken into a house?: Innocent

Stolen from your own family?: innocent

Flipped somebody off?: not to their face persay but yeah i'm Guilty

Ate spoiled food by accident?: Innocent

Ate spoiled food on purpose?: Innocent

Ate food you dropped on the floor?: :P Guilty

Laughed at a funeral?: when they said something funny. Guilty

Watched somebody's death?: i guess you could say i did with both my grandparents slowly dieing infront of me so i suppose i'm Guilty

Killed somebody?: Innocent

Gotten a tattoo?: So far Innocent.

Gotten piercings?: Innocent.

Fired a gun?: Guilty

Gotten into a fist fight?: ..so far..lol innocent.

Gotten into a shouting match?: :P Guilty

Swallowed sea/pool water?: nasty but Guilty

i didn't mean to!!!

Swallowed sea/pool water on purpose?:Innocent

Spun yourself in circles to get dizzy on purpose?: Guilty

Laughed so hard it hurt?: Guilty

Laughed so hard you peed in your pants?: innocent

Seen a live birth?: Innocent

Delivered a baby/animal?: INNOCENT

Had an imaginary friend?: Guilty :P

Fell down a whole flight of stairs?: Innocent

Tripped on stairs?: Guilty

Tripped on your own feet?: Guilty ;)

Cried yourself to sleep?: Guilty

Cried in public?: Guilty

Thrown up in public?: innocent

Lied to your parents?: Guilty

Skipped school?: innocent

Hit an animal with your vehicle?: i've been in a car when it happened but it wasn't my vehicle. innocent/Guilty

cheated on someone?:Innocent

Been cheated on: not sure...

Been one who helped another cheat?: innocent

Cried so hard you threw up?: innocent

Given a wet willy to someone?: Innocent

Gotten a wet willy?: Nasty but Guilty

Hey

Grace — Sat, 15 Mar 2008 21:17:40 -0600

okay so i'm always telling you what makes ME smile..but now its YOUR turn!!! So my question today is..WHAT MAKES YOU SMILE?*If you take the time to read this..PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE answer it!!! Thank you*

:)

Grace — Mon, 10 Mar 2008 08:40:16 -0600

HAPPY

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Grace — Thu, 06 Mar 2008 21:33:26 -0600

Ha life is so funny. I mean really, sit back and look at your life.......now that you've done this, did you think you would end up where you are? I sure as heck didn't think i would be where i am. Where am i? you ask...(if you didn't ask..to bad your gonna find out :P) I am sitting in a chair at the computer..rather cold but deeper then that i'm slipping and moving forward at the same time. Its rather weird..i mean everytime i hear or read something about my EXBestFriend / EXboyfriend life is the one thing i dont want, no lie i stop breathing and die a little more. But when i'm with anyone else or at church i'm a whole other person. I laugh and smile and really mean it. At times i'm moving forward in Christ, i finally found where i need to be and i have an idea where i need to be and people NEED me. It always feels good to be NEEDED. And yet again i'm crushed b/c someone that makes me smile...has let me down...and my mom is always on my case for not being who she wants me to be. You know what i need...you guessed it..a girls night with FLINT! :P Face paint...laughing..randomness! sounds like a party! :P haha

Well yeah now that this is overly long and no one will read all this so i better just close it off and say sorry for not making you smile today..i'll try better next time.

bored

Grace — Tue, 04 Mar 2008 17:25:43 -0600

Are you happy that you met the person who posted this before you?
yeah

Do you like orange juice?
Its okay

Reason behind the last time you threw up?
I don't remember the last time. I was probably really sick.

Do you have unlimited texting?
i WISH

Has anyone lied to you today?

How would i know. The only people i talked to were Seth,Sam, and Scooter

What kind of shampoo do you use?
Dove, i think

How many myspace friends do you have?
like 47 i think

Isn't it a little late for you to be up?
its like 5:30...lol

What song made you cry last?
uhmmm none

Sex?
Female.

Who was the last person to abuse your trust?
Thats easy Tyler

How many times a day do you brush your teeth?
3times..or more:P

Do you like ring pops?
sometimes

What do you think when you look in the mirror?
wow there are two of me. lol j/k i dont know what i think

What does your hair look like right now?
horrible lol

What's your favorite brand of crackers?
i have not a clue.

Last time you snuck out?
never

What's the reason behind why you last cried?
I dont feel the need to tell you but thanks for asking anyway

Ever dated anyone in your top 4?
not my top 4...but go a little farther down and you might find someone......

Do you like bananas?
they are good

Do you try in school?
Yes

Bored is fun

Grace — Mon, 03 Mar 2008 17:30:41 -0600

lol fun times :P