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Meagan McCann — Sat, 18 Aug 2007 10:04:54 -0500

Well... I competed a few months ago at the Indiana State Championships and took home first in Sparring and in Forms and Fourth in Board Breaking. Qualifying me for Nationals in Florida... My school [[Full Armor Martial Arts]] took 21 students. That is the largest out of state group to qualify. 8 adults and 13 students.

Well... Yesterday was the adults competition and at the end of the day we were the 3rd school in points. I came home with first place in forms and in sparring (the only two I competeted in) in my age division for Intermediate ranking. It was truly amazing!!!

The kids are competing today and Ill let you guys know later how that went... but so far...
Tamara-1st is Sparring
Shelly-1st in Sparring and 2nd in Forms
Jim-2nd in Staff and 1st in Sparring
Paula-1st in Forms and 1st in Sparring
Ryan-2nd in Sparring
Nick-1st in Sparring
Melissa-1st in Forms and 1st in Sparring

Yes we kicked but!!! It was amazing... More later...

<3 Meag

Soulmates

Meagan McCann — Thu, 12 Jul 2007 15:17:36 -0500

Sometimes I wonder what the rush is and why I cant be perfectly content with being single. I have friends and family and goals and God but I still feel like Im missing that intrical part of growing up. It seems high school romance is everyones dream but Its more than that... I want my Dawson Leery, my Troy Bolton, my Danny Zuko, my Johnny Castle, my Rick Blaine, my Cory Matthews. I want a soulmate. But is it possible that out of the millions of people that populate this world that we can actually find that one who is your true love. Or do we just eventually settle... when we know its too difficult to keep looking and keep feeling alone. One's TRUE LOVE. A soulmate. A companion. Kindred Spirits. Is it possible? Or is it just another fantasy that Hollywood dreamed up to make us hopeless romantics spend the rest of our lives searching for the impossible that only happens on shows like Grease, Boy Meets World, and Dawson's Creek. Maybe it used to be possible but now there just arent any of those guys left. And those that are around want to be your "friend" or are taken advantage of by the Jen Lindley's of this world. Maybe Im just a typical teenage girl watching too much Dawson's Creek and dishing out just another dose of angst but I cant help but wonder where MY soulmate is... and if Ill ever find him. Because so far all Ive found are a bunch of jerks who cant see past the MTV and Hollywood standards that I dont meet and see that maybe Im an OK girl. Sure I mess up but in the end all I really want... is to be like Joey Potter and Topanga Lowrance and Sandy Olsson. Loved for who I am. I want to be a woman who is thought of as beautiful and smart and not just Meagan... trusty old friend. But maybe thats just who I am... the friend. One of the guys.

Meag

Meagan McCann — Mon, 21 May 2007 23:23:45 -0500

Green Belt...

I had my green belt testing on Saturday. It was harder than most tests and Im not really sure why. I was pretty drained when it was over but I was really excited. In perspective there are 10 belts before Black. [[White, Yellow, Gold, Orange, Green, Purple, Blue, Brown, Red, Red Senior, Black]] And I just got my Green. Ill be working hard for Purple now and hopefully in September Ill get it. I would probaly get it sooner but I have to go out of town for all of June.

Graduation...

Graduation was yesterday. In itself it was pretty boring but I guess it's tradition. I dont think it's really hit me that that was it. I mean really it... done. no more high school. ever again. College this fall... MTSU. Im pretty excited. I can't wait to see what the future holds for me...

Grandma....

God I cant wait for her to LEAVE!!!!!!!!! Tomorrow I take her to the airport and Im so freaking anxious. I know it sounds awful but I want to never have to spend time with her again! She's awful to me. She told me my hair is unbecoming. She told me Im gaining weight and need to get a handle on it or [insert that boy's name here] would never ask me out and that Ramen Noodles are the reason Im fat. She is so cruel to me and mom. OK yes Im overweight, yes Im not really pretty but I dont want to hear it over and over again! I already have low enough self esteem. I already struggle with depression so if you dont ave anything nice to say to me... DONT SAY ANYTHING!!!

The Gathering...

The Gathering had a barn party tonight. It was fun Im glad I went. I met a couple people I guess. I just dont know. I feel too young. like I dont really fit in with them yet cuz im not old enough. Maybe Ill wait till next year to start going? I sat there in cried just searching for answers on what to do next. Im so lost. I dont know if Im ready for the Gathering but I need something. I want to make friendships that MEAN something you know... I just want to fit in and be cared about! I want to meet people who will help me grow towards God and not keep running in the total opposite direction.

Boys...

OK. so although I think you all know who that boy is by now.... Im still not saying any names. But I really like him and its absolutely driving me insane. He's going away for a month and so it's not like we can even start a relationship... plus I dont really know how he feels about me. I mean I know he likes me... but i dunno... ugh. Plus EVERY time we try and make plans something comes up... and he leaves NEXT WEEK... then I wont seem him till July. UGH why me??? why me??? I dunno I guess if something is meant to happen it will but by then I might have driven myself entirely insane!

♥meag

To the nice girls.....

Meagan McCann — Thu, 18 Jan 2007 14:50:55 -0600

This is my tribute to the nice girls. To the nice girls who are
overlooked, who become friends and nothing more, who spend hours
fixating upon their looks and their personalities and their actions
because it must be that they that are doing something wrong. This is for the
girls who don't give it up on the first date, who don't want to play
mind games, who provide a comforting hug and a supportive audience for
a story they've heard a thousand times. This is for the girls who
understand that they aren't perfect and that the guys they're
interested in aren't either, for the girls who flirt and laugh and
worry and obsess over the slightest glance, whisper, touch, because
somehow they are able to keep alive that hope that maybe... maybe this
time he'll have understood. This is a homage to the girls who laugh
loud and often, who are comfortable in skirts and sweats and combat
boots, who care more than they should for guys who don't deserve their
attention. This is for those girls who have been in the trenches, who
have watched other girls time and time again fake up and make up and screw up the guys in their lives without saying a word. This is for the
girls who have been there from the beginning and have heard the trite
words of advice, from "there are plenty of fish in the sea," to "time
heals all wounds."

This is for the girls who have
spent their weekends playing Florence Nightingale for a vomiting guy
friend or a comatose crush, who have received a drunk phone call just
before dawn from someone who doesn't care enough to invite them over
but is still willing to pass out in their bed. This is for the girls
who have left sad song lyrics in their away messages, who have tried to
make someone understand through a subliminally appealing profile, who
have time and time again dropped their male friend hint after hint
after hint only to watch him chase after the first blonde girl in a
skirt. This is for the girls who have been told that they're too good
or too smart or too pretty, who have been given compliments as a way of
breaking off a relationship, who have ever been told they are only
wanted as a friend.

I honor you for the night
his dog died or his grandmother died or his little brother crashed his
car and you held him, thinking that if you only comforted him just
right, or said the right words
then perhaps he'd realize what it was that he already had. This is for
the night you realized that it would never happen, and the sunrise you
saw the next morning after failing to sleep.

This is for the hugs you've received from your friends, for the nights they've reassured you that you are
beautiful and intelligent and amazing and loyal and truly worthy of a
great guy; this is for the despair you all felt as you sat in the
aftermath of your tears, knowing that that night the only companionship
you'd have was with a pillow and your teddy bear. This is for the girls
who have been used and abused, who have endured what he was giving
because at least he was giving something; this is for the stupidity of
the nights we've believed that something was better than nothing. This is for the
girls who have been satisfied with too little and who have learned
never to expect anything more: for the girls who don't think that they
deserve more, because they've been conditioned for so long to accept
the scraps thrown to them by guys.

This is what I don't
understand. Men sit and question and whine that girls are only
attracted to the mean guys, the guys who berate them and belittle them
and don't appreciate them and don't want them; who use them for sex and
think of little else than where their next conquest will be made. Men
complain that they never meet nice girls, girls who are genuinely
interested and compelling, who are intelligent and sweet and smart and
beautiful; men despair that no good women want to share in their lives,
that girls play mind games, that girls love to keep them hanging. Yet,
men, I ask you: were you to meet one of these genuinely interested,
thrillingly compelling, interesting and intelligent and sweet and
beautiful and smart girls, were you to give her your number and wait
for her to call... and if you were to receive a call from her the next
day and she, in her truthful, loyal, intelligent and straightforward
nice girl fashion, were to tell you that she finds you intriguing and
attractive and interesting and worth her time and perhaps material from
which she could fashion a boyfriend, would you or would you not
immediately call your friends to tell them of the "stalker chick" you'd
met the night prior, who called you and wore her heart on her sleeve
and told the truth? And would you, or would you not, refuse to make
plans with her, speak with her, see her again, and once again return to
the party scene and search once more for this "nice
girl" who you just cannot seem to find? Because therein lies the truth,
guys: we nice girls are everywhere. But you're not looking for a nice
girl. You're not looking for someone genuinely interested in your
intermural basketball game, or your anatomy midterm grade, or that
argument you keep having with your father; you're looking for a quick
fix, a night when you can pretend to have a connection with another
human

So don't say you're on the lookout for nice girls, guys,
when you pass us up on every step you take.You don't want the nice girl. so don't say you're looking
for a relationship: relationships take time and energy and intent,
three things we're willing to extend - - but in return, we're looking
for compassion and loyalty and trust, three things you never seem
willing to express.

Maybe nice guys finish last, but in the
race they're running they're chasing after the skank and
the easy-targets... the nice girls are waiting at the finish line with
water and towels and a congratulatory hug (and yes, if she's a nice
girl and she likes you, the sweatiness probably won't matter), hoping
against hope that maybe you'll realize that they're the ones that you
want at the end of that silly race.

So maybe it won't last
forever. Maybe some of those guys in that race will turn in their
running shoes and make their way to the concession stand where we're
waiting; however, until that happens, we still have each other, that
silly race to watch, and all the chocolate we can eat (because what's a
concession stand at a race without some chocolate?)

Happy New Years guys... now leave your rattle at the door!

Meagan McCann — Sun, 31 Dec 2006 12:50:47 -0600

Hey guys!

I wanted to wish you all a Happy New Year!!! And share a couple things...

This
new year I want to challenge every one to put God first in your life.
Ok... So yeh guys, I know this time every year (along with camp time)
all of us get all excited about what we are going to do for God... We
all set out with these huge expectations of how we can affect our
entire school!! Well how about at the beginning of 2007 we start by
just changing OUR lives... For most of my friends this year we
graduate... Its an exciting and yet entirely frightening time for us!
But statistics say that like 75% of students walk away from God once
out of high school. This is crucial for us to get our relationship with
Christ on track now... while its still relatively easy to be a Christ
follower!

The first thing to
consider when setting out to know God is to put him first... One of the
biggest problems in Christianity and any religion for as long as time..
is putting traditions before God... In Judiasm some people are more
worried about blowing the Shofar than celebrating God. Well OK so youre
thinking.. who cares... we dont do that in Christianity... no but we do
each have our own traditions... Some of us are used to worshiping in a
certain way, with certain music, with a certain worship leader, sitting
in a certain pew, with your routine.... and when something changes that
you throw a fit.... and your like "no this is wrong! Im leaving!" ok
ok.. fine.. leave your pacifier at the door then... It isnt about how
we worship.. Its simply THAT we worship and thank God for everything he
has and will do for and through us! Sunday is no holier than Tuesday or
Saturday...The whole calendar belongs to God... we should give every
day full of worship to God... Not just our sunday mornings... We have
so fully invested ourselves in the routine of Church that we are
missing the relationship with the Head of the church (Jesus Christ) we
need to follow Ephesians 4:15 when it talks about growing up in Christ.
We all need to establish spiritual maturity.. and that doesnt come from
going to church for 25 years... that comes from establishing a true
relationship with the Head. You can track your maturity by the fruits
you are bearing in your life... Along with putting God first.. he has
to be the ONLY thing you follow... you cant follow two leaders... My
pastor said this morning "Anything without a head is dead, but anything
with more than one head... is just a freak!" You have to have that true
relationship with the head because without Jesus, no matter how
religious or moral you are... you are still dead in sin. You will NEVER
defeat the tendency of Godlisness with just your will! When you
establish spiritualy maturity you are made alive in the spirit...
Colossians 2:13-17 says "...He forgave us all our sins, having canceled
the written code, with its regulations, hat was against us and that
stood opposed to us, he took it away, nailing it to the cross..." There
are dark spiritual forces on this earth CONSTANTLY working against
us... and with this maturity comes the power to fight those forces!
Whether or not you believe there are demons against us heare on
earth... THEY ARE STILL THERE... You could say there is no such thing
as a virus... you are still gonna get colds! When we see something in
the bible we dont like.. its our child like mentality that comes
through when we say.. well i just dont believe that! It is kinda like
when we are little and we are sitting in bed and we think there is a
monster under our bed.. so we put the quilt over our head.. yeh.. like
thats going to really protect us... Well in the end... it all comes
down to you and me... what we choose to believe. God has done what he
is going to do... now we have to decide wether or not we want to follow
him....

So as the in Judaism on Yom Kippur Ill end this by saying...

"May your name be inscribed in the book of life!"

Meagan McCann — Tue, 28 Nov 2006 17:56:26 -0600

hey there!

i havent posted in awhile.

so yeh.. life is boring.. basically.. school sucks... tae kwan do is amazing and thats the jist of my life these days.. lol

meag

Meagan McCann — Sun, 08 Oct 2006 23:27:40 -0500

i can. i did/am.

so ha!

anyways... God is truly amazing...

He broke me tonight and i think im finally going to be able to heal.. after all this time.....

wow... i feel so peaceful...

meag

Meagan McCann — Sat, 07 Oct 2006 14:57:43 -0500

trying to keep busy...

to avoid realizing....

that growing up means everything you love slowly slips away...

and that its starting...

now

meag

Meagan McCann — Fri, 06 Oct 2006 00:51:11 -0500

A favorite toy.

A stuffed bear name "Teddy".

It’s missing left eye.

The twelth time mom sewed his tail back on.

A child’s love.

A shove on the playground.

Poking in class.

Getting framed for his mischief.

A stolen snack at lunch.

That impish little grin.

A young boy’s love.

A touch of the hand.

Sweet hidden glances.

Kisses goodbye.

Caution thrown to the wind.

A heart handed away.

It’s puppy love.

Purring incessantly.

Jumping up to greet you.

A wake-up pounce at four a.m.

Tails swished in your face.

A cold, wet kiss.

A kitten’s love.

A few dollars to go to the movies.

An embarrassing public kiss.

The push to do better.

Yelling that never seems to end.

"Unfair" rules.

A parent’s love.

Forgiveness beyond comprehension.

A hand to always help you up.

A peace to pass all understanding.

Loyalty no matter what.

A promised forever.

My God’s love.

Meagan McCann — Tue, 03 Oct 2006 09:29:57 -0500

forgive me if i should pass you by,
nothing personal, just trying to save me

a good friend of mine wrote that in a poem of his... and i havent been able to get past those two lines... i like them.. dunno why?

i miss my life

meag

dont think im causing drama guys.. im actually pretty happy... what can be expected at least

Better

Meagan McCann — Mon, 25 Sep 2006 07:00:06 -0500

Last night was better... probaly because I had an unexpected emotional breakdown near the end of worship.... I dunno what happened... The past few weeks all hit me at once I think. But anyway.. it did make a few people notice me. lol Especially the most precious Audrey Miller who left stage to come to me... lol. anyways... I went out to eat afterwards... felt a little more like i belonged... guess itll be up and down until i get settled in... im figuring i expected it to be like FWC... id just walk in and get the routine and love it..... i just need time to adjust!....

love you guys,

meag

ps i love maggie miller!

Weird.....

Meagan McCann — Sun, 24 Sep 2006 13:02:56 -0500

wow...

so i went to Turning Point...

It's weird starting over again.

BJ said "Hey look it's Meagan"

Allie said "Im back!"

Laura asked"How was your weekend?"

and

Matt Hicks said"Fine Meagan! Leave without saying Goodbye!"

yep.. that was the total of times I was spoken to...

Weird? Yes... very....

I miss you guys already...

Meag

to clear up any rumors

Meagan McCann — Sun, 17 Sep 2006 22:49:33 -0500

yes today was my last sunday at FWC and yes Wed. is my last wed.

no i am not angry at anyone at FWC. i adore all of the youth and the leaders you guys have meant alot to me the past couple years

no this was not entirely my decision

yes i already miss you guys

yes i am excited about what God has in store for me at Turning Point!

Meagan McCann — Sun, 03 Sep 2006 18:49:39 -0500

hey guys... i havent posted in awhile... but anyways im praying alot about churches... so keep me in your prayers.. school is great... my friends are great...im trying to change a few things about myself and im doing pretty well!!! God is amazing....

meag

Meagan McCann — Wed, 16 Aug 2006 06:12:36 -0500

weeeeell... I started siegel monday! Its really not bad. Everyone has been really nice and friendly. Plus alot of people from church are there. God was amazing and gave me lunch with Hannah and Meghan, so we are doing a bible study during our lunch. Our verse this week is Acts 4:12. I still dont have my permanent schedule yet which is frustrating but ok. It means im getting to meet alot of people!

encounter was last night.. and it was great. Dan spoke on being moldable and the service was really cool. God has really been working on me about being distracted too easily. And Im really struggling with it but Im excited about where im going!

Last night was Paul, Chris, and Stacy last encounter and tonight is their last Relentless before they go to Lee. Im really sad... especially that Stacy is leaving.. she was the very first friend i had here. Im going to miss her like crazy!! Plus im gonna miss Paul... Im not extremely close with him but he's a cool friend and he was my buddy at OHS! ugh.... not to mention Cherry and Travis left for college too!!! AAAH! too many changes!

im not ready to grow up.....

i love you guys.....

meag

Meagan McCann — Sat, 12 Aug 2006 23:51:00 -0500

fine arts... was amazing....

not much drama either... wow!

i really enjoyed having a room with jessica!!! ( and having some GREAT conversations!! lol ) I got to spend alot of time with Stacy building on an already great friendship. BUT i am quite happy to be home about to get in my OWN bed!!!

Allie, Laura, Maggie, and Audrey took first for small vocal ensemble.. and they SO deserved it! Amanda made the top 15 for drama solo... wow! isnt she amazing?

So I think i'm never going to tell Paul what i think of him again.... ugh!! lol jk

well gotta run..

love you,

meag

ps I GOT TO SEE JOOOOON!!!!

Meagan McCann — Mon, 31 Jul 2006 16:57:44 -0500

BLIM BLAM

He just heard from God through a crossword puzzle!!!

lol that movie was great... today was pretty much amazing... i love alicia, ali and ariana (ARI--ana)!!

love, meag

ps for anyone that didnt know... i dont think anyone is stupid.. i was so just kidding! lol....

Meagan McCann — Sun, 30 Jul 2006 02:48:24 -0500

my party was amazing...
cause all the cool people showed up...
and the stupid people stayed home...
except randy had a good excuse...so i still love him...
the rest of you are stupid...

but i love...
meghan breaux
hannah breaux
jeremy zajas
stephen slate
chris slate
jessica hunter
becca hicks
beckie jensen
julie pyatt
danie stoffer
josh griffiths
josh dyer
chris morgan
stacy cohl

love to some of you...and pity to the rest...for missing the best party ever...lol
meag
poop

Meagan McCann — Wed, 19 Jul 2006 23:33:06 -0500

save me....

im falling....

well... jumping...

help....

Meagan McCann — Sun, 16 Jul 2006 23:50:38 -0500

Every penny in a well,every broken wish bone, every 11:11 on a clock, every crossed finger, every turn of a necklace pendant, every star in the sky, every fallen eyelash, every blown out candle, every wish I could make....will never give me you.

Meagan McCann — Sat, 15 Jul 2006 22:42:38 -0500

Did you know that people will admit almost anything on these things... They will tell you things they would NEVER tell you in person or over the phone! They feel safer here... People show obvious cries for help and attention! And we give them the usual advice..things will get better.. I'll keep you in my prayers.... and move on... usually forgetting it... never try to talk to them or help.... Why even try? I know we mean well and I know we care... but we could do alot more!

Meag

Meagan McCann — Thu, 13 Jul 2006 08:37:50 -0500

My dearest friends.....

I am deeply sorry to have gotten of my happy box! I just needed to vent last night....

So again i apologize.. the eternally happy Meag is back now....

Thank you,

Meag

Meagan McCann — Wed, 12 Jul 2006 22:13:32 -0500

ABORTION IS MURDER!

do you understand me? no matter the circumstances... or the reasoning.. it doesnt matter.. ITS STILL MURDER! so get off your high horse.. and face the freaking facts.... ok? thank you!

SECOND.....

why do people suck so bad?? why do adults hurt children so bad.... dont parents realize their actions are destroying kids.... i had a little boy maybe 12 come pray with me tonight and he just amazes me... and i really would love to get one good hit in on his parents cuz they SUCK... if you need to hurt someone... take the old advice....

PICK ON SOMEONE YOUR OWN SIZE!!!!!

LASTLY.....

Why cant we all be pretty and perfect and sweet? huh.. why do only certain people get the noticeable genes while the rest of us get stuck with the leftover genes... and have to look and act like me????

ok well im just needed to vent...

i love you guys...

i love kids......

Meag

Meagan McCann — Sun, 02 Jul 2006 22:08:36 -0500

One year today... I miss my PaPa......

**********************************************

(my feelings today.. in a song)

Here's a story of a girl,
livin in a lonely world,
A hidden note,
a secrete crush,
A little boy who talks to much

Well, i'm standing in the crowd
and when you smile i check you out
but you dont even know my name,
you're too busy playin games

And i want you to know
if you loose your way i wont let you go

(CHORUS)
If i cut my hair
if i change my clothes
will ya notice me
If i bite my lip
if i say hello
will ya notice me
whats it gonna take to see
ill get ya to notice me

got your head up in the clouds
tell me when your coming down
no, i dont wanna sink your ship
but its not about the scholarship

and all the friends that follow you
they tell ya things that just aint true
im the girl you never see
im the one you really need

oh, dont get me rong
you better make your move before the moments gone

(CHORUS)
im not lik the rest, i just dont care if ur the best
just be who you wanna be
its all the same to me

oh, dont get me rong
you better make your move before the moments gone

(CHORUS)

Meagan McCann — Sat, 01 Jul 2006 19:40:14 -0500

camp... for the second time.. can you say amazing?

evil spirits.. amazing God.... cute kids.. great friends... lots of jokes... late nights... cute guys....

what more could you want???

love you, Meag

KAMananus!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Free Stuff!!!!

I like dat... I like dat alot!

I don't go with the flow!

I don't think you knooooooooow...

WAIT..... good enuff!

We smile ourselves to sleep!!

Counselours are never tired... we're always happy...

SILLY PEOPLE!

Its not white... its nude beige...

The 3 S's

Who's that fat guy???????

JoJo is my favorite ###### conatation... HAHA

Fat Basketballs....

uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuummmmmmmm yeeeeeeeeaaah

I love you from the bottom of my heart.. like cheese and dolphins!

I AM THE QUEEEEEEEEN OF ETERNAL YOUTH AND BEEEEEEEEEEAUTTY.... AND IM HERE TO GRANT YOU both..... BUT I REALIZED... YOU DONT NEED EIIIIIIIIIIIITHER.... AND SO ILL KEEP THEM.... CUZ IM THE QUEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEN

notice anything different???

Meagan McCann — Thu, 22 Jun 2006 16:50:48 -0500

please read... wow

Meagan McCann — Wed, 14 Jun 2006 09:13:55 -0500

OK so I have been avoiding doing this forever cuz i know ill leave something out.. but o well... lol...

Camp was absolutely amazing... it has 100% changed my life!! I went to camp completely ready to give up on life ENTIRELY.... and now im so filled with peace and joy... Its amazing! Every year i go to camp have this great "experience" come home and forget about it... but this year... its different... Im having that experience EVERY DAY!!! Oh-ma-gah! Its crazy....

OK so i went to camp and i "got rid of my evil influences".. then i came home... and they were still there.. there is this one situation that has been affecting everything about my life for about a year now.. and i ditched it at camp.. BUT... i came home.. and it was still here.... so i had to work soooo hard to overcome that.. and its still a struggle but things are getting sooo much better and i feel sooo much peace... WOW....

Camp was sooo much fun... I really got alot closer with some of the FWC crowd.. like Ashley, Alicia, Meghan, Justin and Hannah!! Also I started hanging out with Turning Point kids and I love them to death!!! Im starting to go to TP on Sunday nights now... Im really excited about it.. even though i had a rough start there.. lol....

The evangalist was the best speaker i have ever heard... he was amazing!!! If you ever get the chance to hear Ron Rhoads speak.. drop everything and GO... God has a hold on that man's life like no other!!

The games were fun...

I took a millions pictures...

And oh yeh. .the girls kicked butt toilet papering the place even after Kenny caught us... PLUS... none of the guys know about everything we got away with. .hahahahahahahahaha!!!!!!!!

anyways.. yes camp was amazing and i cant wait for kids camp now.. lol

love you guys!!!!

meag

PS Do any of you believe in ghosts?? (this is in reference to a camp devotion....)

PSS

Who needs scented candles?? WE.. have rotting brains... FORGET the TV!! WE... can count maggots squirming on that silver platter!!

he has just killed a dead kid!!

Yea... come hear me preach! Ill literally preach you to death!!

There is just something about dead people- they can't do anything for themselves- I mean she just laid there like she had nothing to get up for!!!

Man, God, aren't you glad you've got me?? I can't believe you didn't think of it yourself!!! God, you are SO blessed to have me!!!

OK now i want to briefly say something to a few friends...

Hannah Breaux- ok so i went to camp thinking how amazing you are and how i wish you were my friend but i kept seeing you as this unnaproachable perfect freak! lol (sorry) anyways.. you became a great friend of mine last week and i love you to DEATH!!!!!

Meghan Breaux- ok so i already loved you and you were already one of my best friends but im really glad we got to bunk so close and hang out together... your amazing..

Alicia Amirian- did you know you are beautiful and funny and just amazing?? i loved getting to spend time with you... thanks so much for listening to me..

Becca Hicks- my bestest friend... even though you left me for Turning Point.. its ok.. i still love you... i had so much fun with you.. and i loved practically living in your dorms.. lol thanks for not kicking me out.. your amazing...

Allie- I had met you before.. but i really got to hang out with you this past week and you accepted me soooo well... you really are amazing and talented and beautiful and funny.. lol... thanks for being amazing.....

BJ- ok so from what ive heard.. your a nerd.. lol BUT you really brightened my week and then my day again sunday night... you remembered my name after i had spent ALL week feeling soooo lonely and invisible then sunday night you attacked me with a hug and asked me to come back... your amazingly sweet... thanks so much for being you!!!

Cherry Harris- wow.. ok so i went to camp expecting to hate you.. alot like you did with me.. and i know that we dont have the best of terms on how we know each other... but you are truly and amazing girl... slate is soooo lucky to have someone like you... you are absolutely beautiful and dont let anyone ever tell you otherwise.. also your funny. you kept me laughing all week even went i felt soooo down and invisible... (UGH) you are amazing.. and i really do love that we became friends... i love you!!! oh and thanks for not kicking me out of your dorm.. lol!! (ps guess who's cute? guess who i like??? hahaha... gah im pathetic!!! lol)

anways.. gotta run.. i have sooo much for to say but ive gotta go... ttyl...

love always,

meag

ps fifty seven-seven is AMAZING.. check them out!!!!

Meagan McCann — Sat, 29 Apr 2006 18:29:07 -0500

Well fine arts was great... my choir and ensemble took first and advanced to nationals... my drama, human video and solo didnt... i was really hoping to make it with my solo.. but life... happens..... im really excited about nationals.. i cant wait to see jon.....

i held zay's hand.. *giggle giggle* lol... (rebbecca.."noooo, not.... DRATS!)

thank you sooooo much those of you who came to hear me sing... stephen.... THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU..... marybeth thanks for making a point to be there too.. your amazing... there were a couple other people i reeeeeeeeeeeeallly wanted to be there but couldnt make it because of paul and linda's duet... but yeh... i guess it happens.....

i cant handle life.....

really...

just

cant.......

rebecca jensen's hv solo sums it up for me... it had me in tears... but what is new lately for me???

Is there anyone that fails 
  Is there anyone that falls 
  Am I the only one in church today feelin' so small 
  
  Cause when I take a look around 
  Everybody seems so strong 
  I know they'll soon discover 
  That I don't belong 
  
  So I tuck it all away, like everything's okay 
  If I make them all believe it, maybe I'll believe it too 
  So with a painted grin, I play the part again 
  So everyone will see me the way that I see them 
  
  CHORUS 
  Are we happy plastic people 
  Under shiny plastic steeples 
  With walls around our weakness 
  And smiles to hide our pain 
  But if the invitation's open 
  To every heart that has been broken 
  Maybe then we close the curtain on our stained glass masquerade 
  
  Is there anyone who's been there 
  Are there any hands to raise 
  Am I the only one who's traded 
  In the altar for a stage 
  
  The performance is convincing 
  And we know every line by heart 
  Only when no one is watching 
  Can we really fall apart 
  
  But would it set me free 
  If I dared to let you see 
  The truth behind the person 
  That you imagine me to be 
  
  Would your arms be open 
  Or would you walk away 
  Would the love of Jesus 
  Be enough to make you stay 
  
  CHORUS 2x 
  
  But if the invitation's open 
  To every heart that has been broken 
  Maybe then we close the curtain on our stained glass masquerade 
  
  Is there anyone that fails 
  Is there anyone that falls 
  Am I the only one in church today feelin' so small

Meagan McCann — Thu, 20 Apr 2006 21:37:33 -0500

CHRIS YOUNG DAY KICKS BUTT!!!!

everyone watch nashville star next tuesday at 9:00 ill be on it!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yay me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Meagan McCann — Wed, 19 Apr 2006 21:00:12 -0500

IM SIXTEEN.... there is no difference... ugh not fair!

and yes that is the FIRST pic of me bieng 16.....

love you all, meag

ps i miss my best friend.... alot

Meagan McCann — Sat, 15 Apr 2006 19:47:16 -0500

I wonder how come when you think you have something but realize you dont.. it hurts more than never having it at all?

How come people turn on you so fast?

Why cant people be honest with you?

How come the people that really shouldnt matter to you.. matter the most?

Why are adults so stupid?

Why do people hate me so much?

meag

Meagan McCann — Thu, 06 Apr 2006 21:39:07 -0500

i need you guys more than ever.. just being honest here... i really do!

meag

Meagan McCann — Fri, 31 Mar 2006 18:34:48 -0600

WOW...i can't believe it is almost faf... last year.. wow... it seems like an eternity again..i WAS another lifetime.. wow...

i love you guys!

life is passing by soooo fast... wow...

meag

Meagan McCann — Thu, 23 Mar 2006 21:15:18 -0600

I LOVE KATIE KIMBELL!!!

she makes me very happy!!!!

meag

*grins!!!!*

Meagan McCann — Tue, 07 Mar 2006 20:51:04 -0600

Today made me miss LaVergne.... Missing... like what it seems the people at Oakland don't do.... ah such is life...

meag

I spent friday in the ER.....

Meagan McCann — Fri, 03 Mar 2006 16:06:32 -0600

Wednesday...I passed out in fourth period.... It was terrifying... i've fainted before but not around people who are all freaking out and i cant respond... i cant even see them.. i could only hear them... ugh anyways..i stayed at school.. somehow.. dunno how i made it! and then i went home and got in bed and stayed there...

Thursday.... I tossed and turned all night.. but i stayed in bed all day cuz everytime i sat up or stood up i got really dizzy and i had spells every so often where i couldnt breath ( my chest got REAL heavy), my face would pale, and i couldnt see anything without it spinning and it was horrible.. but i stayed in bed all day and slept on and off for most of the day...

Friday.. well at 2:30 i woke up and needed a glass of water so i tried to get to the kitchen but i got really dizzy and every thing was spinning and i couldnt breath... so by the time i got to the kitchen i fainted... didnt lose conciousness though.. anyways..i finally got up after a few minutes but was still really dizzy so i got a cup of water and sat down to drink it... then after i felt i could make it to the room again i headed back to the room... i did make it but i collapsed in the bed.... At 5:30 i had the worst spell ever...i couldnt breath i was sweating but i was freezing cold..i was PURE WHITE pale!, the whole room was spinning, and i had the worst migraine EVER.... i just banged on the wall trying to get my parents attention.... they got up and came in gave me motrin and tons of water and after like a half an hour i calmed down.... i slept on and off again until 9.... at that point i had to SIT in the bottom of the shower to shower off because i couldnt stand long enough without getting extremely dizzy..

then mom took me to the ER (we got there a little after 9)... once we got there they immedietely admitted me and we were there FOREVER... they put an IV in me, took 5 tubes of blood, made me pee in a flippin cup, did a CT scan on me, EKG test on my heart, testing to see if i was anemic, checked my electrolytes, took my vitals thirty billion times, and gave me drugs through my IV.... once all that was done they told me to rest awhile to let the drugs kick in and then they came in with results... so basically things werent so bad.... the dizziness was due to a very serious ESTENSIVE sinus disease that if they cant get the "fluids" moving then surgery MAY come... and also i have tract infection... UGH! anyways. they couldnt explain the headaches and the spells or the blacking out... until just before it was time to go they were checking my vitals and a spell hit... and he realized what was going on... i ws having panic attacks... so stress and anxiety was what was causing all this crap... yeh... so i got lots of meds to come home with... one to drain my sinus crap and another was my antibiotic and the last one is loritabs!!! lol im supposed to take them temporarily everytime i have a panic attack.... the doctor said.. "they have street value" so keep the hidden.. i was like great now im drug addict to put on top of all this.. so i got home early evening on friday and this is the first time ive been allowed out of bed since.. and once im done posting then i have to go back to bed... i MAY get to go to church tommorow... but no night service... great huh? anyways.. i gotta go ... im feeling kinda dizzy so im going to bed..

ill see you guys tommorow..

love you all,

keep me in your prayers.

meag

ps you know what the worst part was???

I MISSED PAINTBALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

UGH

Meagan McCann — Tue, 28 Feb 2006 21:09:56 -0600

Well... I love to hear from you guys.. and i like to HEAR your advice and i do consider it BUT please stop TELLING me what to do.. im sorry but i dont know how i feel or think or what i want or need so i cant take in what you think... ok im sorry.. thanks you guys.. i love you to peices

meag

help

Meagan McCann — Sat, 25 Feb 2006 23:16:04 -0600

down days... save me....

meag

GRINS

Meagan McCann — Thu, 23 Feb 2006 22:52:05 -0600

let me tell you all something.. i have the best boyfriend ever... i promise!

meag

Meagan McCann — Wed, 22 Feb 2006 21:25:56 -0600

So.. there is this kidd.. and its weird.... (and no in no way do i like him...) but everytime he looks at you its like his eyes focus.. and his eyes seem to relay to you this message...

you... you.. you..

its like he may not even know you exist but when he speaks to you.. its like your his world... i wish everyone looked at you like this.. because he makes you feel very special...... and this may all seem very stupid.. but its true....and this kidd is amazing..... anyways.. im really bored...

i love you guys...

meag

ps please keep me in your prayerers... im really down lately..

Im gonna copy Aaron.. and post my dream.. lol

Meagan McCann — Mon, 20 Feb 2006 10:02:22 -0600

So... This is one of those tragically typically normal dreams.. but still... So..I was walking this road.. alone.. and it was beautiful out... perfectly serene.. but i was crying... and i just couldnt walk anymore literally i was stopped dead in my tracks... i fought to move.. but i couldnt... and it scared me.. and i dropped to the ground and cried... unable to move... it felt like i was there forever.. but then i felt someone take my hand and pick me up.... i could feel God with me.. but that wasnt who had my hand.. and i looked around and my friends.. my real friends surrounded me and carried me on.. and all the while i could hear God whispering in my ear.. :I love you, your gonna make...:

i woke up so incredibly comforted... I have not felt this calm in a VEEEEEEEEEERRY long time!!!!!

i love my friends... and

im.. happy...

at least now i am..

later guys..

meag

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TKD

Soulmates

To the nice girls.....

Happy New Years guys... now leave your rattle at the door!

Better

Weird.....

to clear up any rumors

notice anything different???

please read... wow

I spent friday in the ER.....

UGH

help

*GRINS*

Im gonna copy Aaron.. and post my dream.. lol

GRINS